BROKENBy Anne Dobbs
Summary: john finely cracks , as Harvey continues to harrass him, And the unquenched desire for revenge consumes him.
Rating: 12
John tried to shrug him off. But no matter what he did, Harvey wouldn't leave him alone. John headed towards the docking hanger, he was going to get this over and done with. That basterd didn't deserve to live. And john wanted revenge.<What are you doing John? John? I want to get out of here! And you must die not Scorpius> Harvey's vioce echoed through his brain. Someone touched his shoulder, John tried to push them off, but nothing happened, it was Harvey. And Harvey had a plan, he would force John to become what he most feared, hurt who he most loved. John graoned, his feet nolonger co-operated, they wanted to go the other way."Dammit, Harvey, go away!" But somehow, he wanted to go where Harvey wanted to take him. What was wrong with him?"john? we need to talk" It was Aeryn, her hair was tightly tied back in her PK macho style."we've already talked" John kept up his pace in the same direction."John?" Aeryn said. he, lashed out, and Aeryn fell to the ground. What had he done? But he did not stop, he kept going, he didn't know why Harvey was taking him this way, but he wanted him to do something awful.<keep going John.......you know you want to> Harvey whispered in his ear."I don't , don't want to!" John yelled and took a swing at Harvey, but hit nothing.Suddenly, he realized where this direction led to, Pilot's chamber. And he stood outside the door. "I won't go in...." Now he knew why Harvey had wanted him to go there, why he felt complulsive to go inside. No longer able to resist the complustion, he pushed open the door. Pilot looked up, he scenced John's agony, all that anger built up inside, and unable to rest. He wasn't acting against will either. John didn't want to do it, but at the same time, he did. And approached. All that had been left of his life, was broken, there was nothing left but the anger, guilt and pain. In a fit of rage, John grabbed Pilot by the throat , and squeezed. Hard. John stared into his eyes, and realized, that he was terrified.John didn't even know how he did it, he didn't know he had that kind of strength, and why he did it. He didn't know anything anymore, everything did a back lash and hit him like a brick, he could fight the Scorpius clone, and he'd never be alone, but why was he doing this? The complusion was too much and as the last of the rage drained out of him, it was too late, there was a large cracking sound, Pilot whimpered, but then went limp. John let go, to his horror, Pilot's eyes were tightly closed, and he sat in an unatural position , expression twisted in the last moments of pain, unmoving. Guilt panged inside him, as the pure terror stuck him like a lightning bolt. What he had done. Sickened by what he had done, Harveys voice tormented him--<oh, John. You killed him. Without mercy. Now it is you who deserves to die>"you're right" John moved to the centre of the bridge, no-one would miss him after what he had done. First Aeryn then Pilot. Tears pouring down his faced, "I have to do this". He walked miserably to the edge, this would end the pain forever. In his last moments of agony, he steped off, and into oblivion. As he fell, he heard Aeryn and D'Argo enter, Aeryn yelpped, he heard her footsteps were fast,and stopped. On the last moment, Aeryn cried out in greif, her sobs echoed through the entire chamber, and she knew what had happened. She stared over the edge, right at the bottom, Johns body lay crumpled on the ground.THE END