Did It Ever Occur..? (Aeryn Perspective)

by Kavanne

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Did It Ever Occur...?
Author - Kavanne
Summary - Aeryn perspective poem, as if she was talking to Velorek now.
Feedback - kavanne@aol.com or on this board.

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Did it ever occur to you that I might need help?
That I needed you.
Because you know what?
I always did. But you just sat there,
You just ignored me.
You deserved a fate of death,
You deserved to be discovered.

Did it ever occur to you that I wasn’t all I seemed?
That I was capable of more.
Those were just words, ‘You can be so much more’,
You never meant what you said.
You just wanted me. Nothing,
I am more.
But you can’t care anymore, because you’re dead.
Because I killed you.

Did it ever occur to you that I could be more?
That one day I would be, one day I would thrive.
Now, I thrive,
Because I sit here with someone who cares,
With someone who saw I could be more the moment we met.
Didn’t take him monens. Didn’t take him days. Didn’t take him arns.
But, it took you years.
If I knew you now, I would hate you.

Did it ever occur to you that I didn’t care?
That I was more than a puppet, that I was a person.
I am a person. Not because of you,
Because of a human.
Who taught me to be more like him, to be more alien.
You made me more Peacekeeper,
You didn’t care. So neither did I.

Did it ever occur to you that I would end up a defector?
That I would leave my people, that I would leave you.
I know I am happy,
I never felt this way before.
Love, compassion, words I never knew before.
If I had known these before, you wouldn’t be dead.
I would be stuck with you,
likely a traitor with you.
But I’m a traitor I like now. I am glad I stood up for a lesser being,
Because,
I am Aeryn Sun.
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