BEST JANEWAY STORY ~~ BEST VOY JANEWAY-FEMALE STORY

Title: ALONE, TOGETHER

Author: Darklord (darklord@emailpostbox.com) (January 2001)

Series: VOY

Code: Janeway/Samantha Wildman

Rating: NC-17

Parts: 1/1

Disclaimer: In the beginning there was NBC, but they were a pack of wallys and sold Star Trek to Paramount for 5 pesos, 2 rusty safety pins and an old button. Paramount now owns the Star Trek universe, but occasionally I stage a jailbreak and let the characters out to have some fun. Don't tell Paramount or they'll sic the Borg on me. (And that's not nice!)

Warning: This story contains depictions of lesbian sex. If that ain't your cup of tea, go read something else.

Summary: Kathryn Janeway tries to get to the bottom of Ensign Wildman's depression and in the process finds a special friend.

Archiving: Yes please on FFF and ASCEM. Anybody else that wants to archive please let me know and I'll probably say yes.

Feedback: Yes please. Constructive criticisms only (flames and unhelpful criticism will be returned with interest!) can be sent to me at the email address above or posted to the FFF eGroups site.

Note: This story takes place between the episodes "Pathfinder" and "Fair Haven" in the 6^th season of Voyager.

Part of the Femme Fuh-Q Fest ­ http://www.oocities.org/femme_fuhq_fest/

Alone, Together

Ensign Samantha Wildman took a forkful of her mashed Leola root and pushed it about her plate. She wasn't really in the mood for a meal in the Mess Hall, but Naomi had wanted to come, so here they were.

"What's wrong Mom?" Naomi said, picking up on her mother's mood.

"I'm just not all that hungry," Sam replied, putting down her fork and giving up the pretense she was going to eat anything.

"Can I do anything to help?" Naomi asked, a little worried at how gloomy her mother appeared.

"No darling, I'll be OK soon," Sam replied, smiling a little for Naomi's benefit.

"OK Mom," Naomi said, hiding the fact that not even she was convinced by her mother's statement. "Hey, did you know that ensign Paris has come up with a new holodeck programme called 'Fair Haven'? Do you think he'd let us borrow it and go exploring?"

"I don't know, you'll have to go ask him," Sam said without much enthusiasm. For Naomi, the rest of lunch passed very slowly and finally when she'd finished eating, she made her excuses and headed straight for their quarters to do some thinking.

"Come in," she said cheerily, and the door opened, revealing Naomi Wildman. "What can I do for you today Naomi?" Kathryn asked as she took another sip of coffee.

"Captain, I'm worried about Mom," Naomi said, a lot more seriously than Kathryn expected. "Ever since we got that message from Lt. Barclay and Starfleet Command she's been a bit depressed. I've tried to cheer her up, but it's not working. Can you have a talk with her? I know she respects you and she won't tell me or Neelix what's wrong."

"Of course Naomi," Kathryn said sincerely, sitting up straight in her chair and putting her coffee down on her desk. "I'll do all I can to get to the bottom of it."

"Thank you Captain," Naomi replied, relieved that Captain Janeway had agreed to help. "I'd better go and see the Doctor. He hates it when I'm late for his classes."

"Of course. Dismissed," Kathryn said crisply. Naomi smiled, before turning and leaving the Captain's ready room for Sickbay. As the doors hissed shut, Kathryn leaned back in her chair and took another sip of coffee and began to think out how to handle her latest problem.

"Nothing thank you Neelix, I've already eaten. But I would like a chat if you've got the time," Kathryn replied smiling.

"Of course I've got time for you Captain," Neelix told her as he waved her towards a nearby table. "What's on you mind?"

"Naomi Wildman came to see me this morning and she told me she was worried about her mother. Apparently she's a little depressed. What's your impression of Ensign Wildman?" Kathryn asked the Tallaxian chef.

"Well, she has been a little gloomy recently," Neelix admitted, "and I did try to find out what was wrong, but Sam wouldn't say. I think the contact we had with Starfleet has made her think about home a lot and she has realized how far we still have to go to get there."

"Do you think it would help if I had a chat with her?" Kathryn asked.

"I don't see that it could hurt," Neelix replied, his concern for Sam evident.

"I'll see what I can do," Kathryn promised him as she stood up.

"Thank you Captain," Neelix said gratefully, "and good luck."

Janeway nodded in acknowledgment before she made her way out of the mess hall and towards the nearest turbolift. "Exobiology lab," she told it as the doors closed behind her. The turbolift hummed as it made its way across the ship to Janeway's destination. A few seconds after her ride began, it was over, as the doors opened on the corridor leading to the exobiology lab. Kathryn got out of the turbolift and made her way down to the lab. The doors opened and Janeway found Ensign Wildman in the lab alone.

"Captain!" Samantha said surprised, as she looked up from her work.

"Am I disturbing you Ensign?" Kathryn asked, noticing the number of padds and other equipment in front of Sam.

"I am in the middle of something," Sam admitted, "but if it's important"

"No, it's not vitally important," Janeway said dismissively, "but I would like to have a private chat about how you and Naomi are coping on Voyager."

"Neelix has said something, hasn't he," Sam said a little tiredly.

"Actually Naomi was the one that told me you were a little depressed," Kathryn replied, "and I can see she was right. Is there anything I can do to help?"

"I don't think so Captain," Samantha replied, smiling for Janeway's benefit.

"If it would help to talk, just a friendly chat woman to woman, no ranks, no pressure, you know where I am," Janeway offered before turning to leave.

"Wait," Sam said just before Kathryn reached the doors. "Neelix and Naomi wouldn't understand, but you're one of the only people on Voyager who would."

"How about we discuss it over dinner tonight?" Kathryn said, turning to face Samantha.

"I'd like that," Sam replied softly.

"Good. My quarters, 1900 hours?"

"Thank you Captain, I'll be there," Sam said gratefully.

"I'll see you then Ensign, and no uniforms," Kathryn said before she left the lab.

Kathryn took one look at Sam and smiled. Ensign Wildman was dressed in an old fashioned dress, sleeveless like her own, but in a white scrunched-up fabric, and buttoned down the front. Her uniform boots had been replaced with low-heeled white sandals, and Kathryn could see why Sam's husband had fallen in love with her.

"Just in time Sam," Kathryn said cheerfully to her guest. "Can I get you something to drink?"

"A glass of Bajoran Springwine would be nice," Sam replied a little nervously. As the Captain went to get the drinks, Sam moved over towards the window and stared out at the stars rushing by at warp speed. Looking at the stars usually soothed her soul, and they began to work their magic again.

"Beautiful aren't they?" Kathryn asked as she came alongside Sam with her drink.

"Yes. Yes they are," Sam said softly.

"But they can't cure every pain," Kathryn said solemnly.

"No," Sam whispered as she took a sip of her drink.

"Ready for dinner?" Janeway asked. Sam just turned and nodded to Kathryn, who led her over to the table. As Sam sat down, Kathryn went over to the replicator and programmed in the meal. Within moments two plates materialized and she took them back to the table, setting Sam's down first.

"Is this what I think it is?" Sam asked, cheering up immediately.

"If you think it's roast lamb with mint sauce and fresh roasted vegetables, then yes," Kathryn replied smiling.

"My favourite, thank you Captain," Sam said gratefully.

"Tonight it's Kathryn, but I do confess I had a little help with the menu," Janeway replied, delighted to see Sam in a better mood.

"I must remember to give Naomi a big hug when I get back," Sam said as she began to eat. The two women chatted as they ate, about Naomi and life in general in the Delta Quadrant. When they had finished eating Janeway replicated some more springwine and they moved over onto the couch and continued talking.

"I know I don't know you very well Sam, the burdens of command being what they are," Kathryn said, "but I would like to help if I can. What's wrong, what's causing this depression?"

"Do you know what tonight is?" Sam asked after a moment.

"Stardate 53502.6," Kathryn replied.

"It's my 8th Wedding anniversary," Sam said softly, "and I haven't seen Greskrendtregk for over five years. It's been two years, give or take, since I've even heard from him and I read that message almost everyday. This latest communication with Starfleet has made me realize how much I miss him, how much I miss his touch" As she finished talking, Sam began to cry.

Kathryn slid along the couch and held Sam close, letting Sam cry on her shoulder. Sam held Kathryn tight and just sobbed, while the captain just held her and made soothing sounds. When she had cried herself out, Sam looked into her captain's face and saw the real caring in Kathryn's eyes. Sam was moved more than she might care to admit and just leaned in and kissed Kathryn on the lips. It felt natural and easy and right, but it also felt wrong and a betrayal at the same time.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that," Sam said, her mind reeling with the implications, sensations and feelings inside her. "I should leave."

"Don't go," whispered Kathryn huskily as Sam stood to leave. "Please."

Sam looked down at Kathryn and after a moment realized why Kathryn wanted her to stay. "You're lonely too," she said softly.

"Being the Captain is a lonely job," Kathryn said quietly. "Always doing what's right for the ship, without regard to how you feel personally, always keeping a distance from your crew. Sam, I don't want to keep my distance anymore, I want to help. If I can hold you in the night and stop you from feeling alone or unloved and you can hold me and take away the burdens of command, even for just an hour" she trailed off.

"I can't betray my husband," Sam said hesitantly.

"I'm not asking you to," Kathryn replied, "I just want to ease your hurt. When things get too much and you need a warm body to hold you and love you, I want to be there for you. But only if you want me Samantha, I don't want to ever hurt you."

"II don't know what to say," Sam said, looking down at Kathryn.

"Say yes," Kathryn said softly. Samantha could see the love and tenderness, loneliness and need in her captain's eyes. Thought swirled around her brain for what seemed like hours, weighing up her responsibilities and her desires. To Kathryn Janeway it felt like an eternity before any words passed Sam's lips, each millisecond a new and even more painful torture, just to hear the one word she needed to hear.

"Yes," Sam whispered, barely audible in the silence of the room. "I'd like that." The pure joy, relief and gratitude Sam saw in Kathryn's eyes the instant she spoke, was so overwhelming that Sam started to cry again, tears of release at having made her decision, and tears of gratitude and love for her captain, that she cared enough to offer herself in this way.

As the tears fell down Sam's face, Kathryn stood and held Sam close, rubbing Sam's back and gently brushing her hand over Sam's blond hair, like a mother would do to her child to soothe their pain. As Sam's tears stopped, Kathryn removed her arms from around Sam and took a step away, holding out her hand in silent offering, giving Sam one last chance to change her mind. Sam placed her hand in Kathryn's, giving herself over to her captain without condition.

Kathryn gently led Sam towards her bedroom, the door hissing shut behind them, sealing off the rest of the galaxy. For now there was only Kathryn and Samantha in the universe, nothing else mattered. Kathryn stopped at the foot of the bed and turned to face Samantha, before leaning forward and tenderly kissing the other woman on the lips. Sam responded, kissing her back just as tenderly. As their lips broke the kiss, Kathryn leaned down and began to kiss the exposed skin around Sam's throat. Sam threw her head back and gently moaned in pleasure as her captain's butterfly kisses stimulated her skin and her mind.

As Sam stood there, Kathryn's hands strayed to the buttons on Sam's dress and slowly undid them, exposing more skin the further down she went. As each button came undone, Kathryn slowly and tenderly kissed the exposed flesh, first of Sam's cleavage, revealing a generous swell of breasts encased in a white cotton soft-cup bra, before kissing her way down Sam's stomach and exposing her matching panties.

When Kathryn had undone all of the buttons, she stood up and kissed Sam on the lips again, while at the same time, brushing the dress from Sam's shoulders. It fell silently to the floor behind Sam, who barely noticed its departure, so concentrated had her focus become on Kathryn's lips and the sensations she invoked.

"Unzip me Sam," Kathryn whispered as their kiss ended. Sam reached behind Kathryn and slowly pulled the zip on her dress down. When it wouldn't go down any further, Sam began to pull the front of the dress down, allowing Kathryn's arms to become free and exposing the captain's breasts to Sam's gaze. They were full and ripe, and Sam just had to bend down and taste them, sucking Kathryn's nipples into her mouth and flicking them with the tip of her tongue.

As Kathryn moaned in softly with pleasure at Sam's actions, Sam continued to work Kathryn's dress down her body. Soon the dress was gathered at Kathryn's waist and Sam eased it down over her hips, allowing it to fall to the floor and reveal Kathryn's black satin panties. She continued to suck on Kathryn's breasts for several moments before Kathryn cupped Sam's face in her hands, raising it from her breast, and kissed the blond woman again tenderly.

"My turn," Kathryn whispered, as their lips parted, and she reached behind Sam's back and undid her bra. Kathryn pulled the other woman's bra off and threw it across the room before bending down and cupping one of Sam's breasts with her hand, offering the nipple to her tongue and teeth. Kathryn nibbled and teased each breast in turn, making Sam's nipples harden into little bullets of flesh, and Sam moan with pleasure.

Soon Kathryn stood up and kissed Sam again. While they kissed, Kathryn manoeuvred Sam around so she had her back to the bed, before easing her soon-to-be lover down onto the bed. Kathryn quickly positioned herself between Sam's legs and after removing the ensign's shoes, reached up and eased Sam's panties down her legs. The panties went the same way as the bra, discarded onto the floor. Kathryn pulled Sam down the bed until her bum was on the edge of the bed and Sam's pussy was almost in her face.

Sam's fleshy labial lips were covered in a neatly trimmed thatch of blond pubic hair and Kathryn could see a drop or two of moisture clinging to the hairs. She inhaled the scent of Sam's womanhood before bending her head down and beginning to eat Sam's pussy.

Sam placed her legs over Kathryn's shoulders and closed her eyes, just enjoying the captain's attention. Kathryn nibbled on Sam's clit as well as licking, sucking and probing her partner's sex with her lips and tongue, creating a constant stream of gasps and moan from Sam. Kathryn inserted her middle finger into Sam and began to fingerfuck her, Sam responding by moaning louder.

As Sam's vagina got wetter and wetter, Kathryn increased the pace of her lovemaking, thrusting her face deeper into Sam's pussy, paying more attention to Sam's clit with her lips and tongue, and fingerfucking her harder and faster. Sam's body began to thrash around on the bed as her orgasm approached, but Kathryn stayed with her, driving her faster and faster towards the inevitability of her climax.

When Sam's orgasm finally did come, it hit her with the force of a phaser blast. Sam cried out in release as she arched back off the bed, her pussy juices flowing freely, her body throbbing with the power of her spend. As Sam's ragged breathing returned to normal, Kathryn withdrew her finger, stood up and leaned down to kiss Sam on the lips. The two women kissed as lovers for the first time, full of love for each other and their problems. As their kiss ended, Sam could taste her own juices on Kathryn's lips and wondered if the captain would taste as delicious. She pulled Kathryn down on top of her and rolled them over so Sam was on top.

"Scoot up the bed," she instructed Kathryn as she loosened her grip on her. Kathryn did as Sam said without a word until her head was touching her headboard. Sam reached out and pulled the captain's satin G-string panties off and tossed them on the floor, before positioning herself to get the best possible access to Kathryn's own pussy.

Sam thought that her lover's mound was beautiful, with full fleshy lips and its very short covering of brown pubic hair. Sam bent to her task with relish, hoping to repay Kathryn for the ecstasy Sam had just experienced at her hands. She began by gently licking and nibbling on Kathryn's clit, making her lover squirm with delight. As Kathryn moaned with pleasure, Sam started to experiment, having never made love to a woman before. She flicked Kathryn's clit with her tongue and sucked her outer lips into her mouth.

Kathryn could tell from Sam's technique that she was new to this kind of lovemaking but that didn't matter, as Sam seemed very keen to learn. She glanced down at Sam, working away between her legs, and just for a moment their eyes locked as Sam touched Kathryn's clit.

The vision of Samantha, with her blond hair and innocent 'butter-wouldn't-melt-in-her-mouth' looks, busily eating out her pussy turned Kathryn on more than she thought possible. The momentary eye contact made Sam's actions more intense, more intimate, more erotic. Sam must have felt the same way, as the next time Kathryn looked down at her, Sam was looking Kathryn straight in the eyes as she ate her out.

Kathryn continued looking down at Sam as she worked her pussy over and it made each nibble, each movement of Sam's mouth, all the more stimulating and special. Her orgasm snuck up on Kathryn and was more intense than she had ever felt before, causing her to scream out in pure abandon, clamping her legs shut and flooding Sam's face with her own tangy juices.

Several moments later, as Kathryn came down from her high, she released her legs from around Sam's head and Sam crawled up the bed to kiss her captain and lover.

"My god Sam, that was absolutely incredible," Kathryn said breathlessly as their kiss ended. She held Sam close as her shipmate blushed at the compliment. They just lay there for a short while together, just holding each others naked body near, enjoying the touch and silent support that they offered each other. It was Sam who broke the silence first.

"Thank you Kathryn, for tonight," she said softly. "I don't know how I've survived this long without someone like you to help me."

"It was my pleasure," Kathryn said honestly as she kissed Sam on the forehead. "If you need somebody to talk to, or just to hold you, I'm here for you Sam. All you have to do is ask."

"Thank you Captain." Silence. "I'd better get back to Naomi now, I told her I'd help her with her biology lessons."

"Of course Sam. Give Naomi a big hug from me," Kathryn said, a little sad their evening was over. She watched as Sam got up and located her clothes. When Sam was dressed, Kathryn walked her lover to the door. As the door hissed open, Sam turned to face her still naked captain, and they kissed one final time.

"Until next time," Samantha whispered, before she stepped out the door and back into her mundane existence, bearing the memories of her night with Kathryn like a precious jewel, and dreaming of the chance to make more memories.

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