Hello, I'm JessiE, and here it is, If Only, my BsB - N Sync fan fiction. Have fun reading!

This story has 5 sagas, this is Saga 1, and each saga starts with chapter 1 back again... and a fair WARNING! This story is long ... very long (to me)!

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If Only,
Saga 1,
Chapter 7,
By JessiE

           Caitlin lay against the wall, pondering of what she just did that day and the day before. She felt guilty.

            I shouldn't have done all that. They're wrong... though I used not to even care about that. But if I never did that, Josh would still be fine...

           She still remembered what happened since the last one hour. It was the worst one-hour she ever had in her life.

           She was sent to the hospital immediately by an ambulance after the accident. A nurse treated her and bandaged her forehead and some other of her wounds. It took about forty-five minutes to finish. Then, she was free to go home. At that time, Josh was still in the emergency room.

           Instead of going home, she waited for the doctor to come out of the emergency room. While waiting, she called Jennifer to inform her that Josh had an accident. Then she telephoned Amanda and told her the same thing. They were shocked to know about it. Brian, who had not gone home yet, was astonished too. He and Amanda were still at the coffee shop at that time. On the other hand, Jennifer totally forgot about the fight she had with Josh and came immediately to the hospital. Amanda and Brian also came to the hospital after they got Caitlin's call.

           After calling them, she sat on the bench near the emergency room. She waited for about five to ten minutes. Then a doctor came out of the door. She stood up to him immediately.

           "How is he?" she asked solemnly. The female doctor stared at her for a while.

           "I'm sorry. We've tried our best to save him..."

           She was thunderstruck. "He's... dead?"

           The doctor just shot her a solemn look. "I'm sorry." She walked away.

           Caitlin felt like she was the one being dead at that time. She could not believe what she just heard.

          Josh... is... dead...

           Then she lay against the wall, pondering for a while. That was what she had been doing for fifteen minutes ever since she got the news. She kept thinking about all the things that had just happened. They were still fresh in her mind.

           After a while, she walked away, slowly. She did not even know where she was heading. Soon, she was out of the hospital. While walking outside at the parking space of the hospital, she saw Amanda and Brian, running after her when they saw her.

           "Caitlin!" Brian said. "What are you doing out here?"

           "How's Josh?" Amanda asked. Caitlin looked at them both.

           "He's dead."

           "What?!" Amanda and Brian said simultaneously. At that time, Jennifer arrived. She saw them all and she approached to them. But they did not even know she was there.

           "He's dead!" she said more loudly. Jennifer stopped walking when she said that. She was just several meters away from them. But still, they did not know she was  there.

           "Caitlin, you can't be serious," Amanda exclaimed.

           "Do I look like I'm kidding?!"

           Then they became silent. But a while later, Brian tried to speak up.

           "Caitlin—"

           "Guys, before you say anything anymore, I'd like to be honest with you," Caitlin started talking more seriously. "Amanda... your paper works... I was the one who stole them from your desk."

           "You what?!"

           Jennifer could hear them talking from where she was standing.

           "Before any of you two say anything you have to say to me, let me explain the whole thing."

           "All right..." Amanda said with multiple feelings. She did not know what she really felt at that time. She did not know whether she was sad of Josh's death or mad at Caitlin or guilty of accusing Jennifer stealing her paper works. She felt almost like crying.

           "I... I was jealous of Jennifer. She got everything I ever wanted. I like Josh, but Josh likes her so I don't even have my chance. I also wanted to interview celebrities like Backstreet Boys and all that before but Jennifer was the one who got the chance instead of me..."

           "You were jealous of her?" Brian snorted. "You know what? You won't need any interviews. I'm right in front of you—"

           "Brian, quiet." Amanda glanced at him, annoyed. "Caitlin?"

           She sighed. "Because I was mad, I decided to seek revenge. Firstly, I stole your paper works and put them into Jennifer's drawer. Then that would have made you and Jennifer fought, and it worked. I  persuaded you that Jennifer was the one who stole your paper works. You believed me. I asked you to be cooperative with me in separating Jennifer and Josh so that Josh would fight with Jennifer and I'd have my chance on him..." Tears stung her eyes when she thought about Josh. After that, Caitlin told them both all the other things she had planned and done after the part where Amanda agreed to cooperate with her, from all the things they knew to the things they did not know. When she was explaining about the part where she and Josh had an accident, Jennifer yelled from far.

           "What the hell?!"

           All three of them looked at her, surprised to see her there.

           "You guys are the worst people in the world! Caitlin, how could you plan all those? Ah... Amanda, why did you cooperate with Caitlin to do an evil plan? And Brian... I really admired you. Why did you lie to me? How could you guys do all these to me?!"

           "But Jennifer... oh, when did you arrive?" Brian came closer to her.

           "I arrived when Caitlin told you guys that Josh was dead! And I've heard it all, I've heard everything Caitlin said. I can't believe you all would be this evil. You all 'killed' Josh!"

           "But—"

           "I was being such a fool for believing you, Brian!" Tears started falling down from her eyes. "This is the worst thing you all could have done to me! I hate you all..."

           She turned around and ran away. She crossed the road without even looking out for the cars and all sort of vehicles around.

           "Where is she going? Jennifer!" Amanda ran over, following her.

           Jennifer was still crossing the big road, not realizing Amanda was following her. Meanwhile, one red car, among all the vehicles on the road, was speeding and it was faster than any of other cars. The car was driven by a male driver.

           "Man, I gotta hurry. They've gotta be waiting for me right now," the driver said to himself. But while driving, he unclearly saw someone crossing the road several feet away of from his car. Then his mind went blank all of a sudden. His car was going too fast. Before he even knew it, his car knocked down the person crossing the road. He drove his sedan to the right suddenly and crashed a grocery shop.

           "Oh my God!" Amanda shouted, flabbergasted. "Jennifer!" She ran toward Jennifer who was lying down on the road, bleeding and not moving. Brian who was following Amanda did the same as well. On the other hand, Caitlin was gone.

           "Jennifer... oh no... not another accident!" Amanda cried more than ever. She kneeled and held up Jennifer's head. Brian came over to her and closed his eyes to see Jennifer's condition.

           This is not going too good...

          After a while, he gazed at the car that had bumped into a grocery shop nearby. He seemed concerned of it. Therefore he drew closer to the car. It was badly damaged, and there was a thin chance that the driver could have survived. He took a look at the driver and widened his eyes, astounded of the face he saw. He thought it was just his imagination, but he was seeing the right face.

           But this couldn't be true. It's something hard for me to believe!

           He blinked a couple of times, and he was not dreaming.

           Oh God... he's JC from 'N Sync!