Payback

There's another reflection involved up in my mind
A wholeness that has just been lost
Striving hard for perfection but still nothing to find
Some value with a cheaper cost
And as I reach out to hear you the sound is so muffled
It makes a lesser man of me
So the only thing left to bring up to date is, You suck! Watch me fall while I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with
me then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype still means a bit much to me
I'm at the point of retraction and still slipping further
This place is getting worse for me
There's such a lack of direction and models to live by
No bright skies ahead of me
And as I reach out for your hand you turn and
then wander
Why I simply just can't see
No separation of gender no difference in me
You're just leading me on and on and on
You lead me on and on and on and on
(chorus)
Pretty soon it's gonna come back and be your turn
Pretty soon you're gonna be the one that burns
(chorus)
Your turn now

My Letter

This is my letter to you
We started following a certain description. We
started simple and fair once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then
But now you question who I am. Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide. So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright. It's been rough for me
thinking all night About the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you might've
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest whole in my life
What's next for me to learn.
Engulf myself into a permanent mystery. No
one day just as the next. (Not for me.)
It's so confusing when I look at my history. I just
can't handle that yet. No.
(chorus)
One more friendship ends. And then for awhile.
I can breathe again.

Get Up Again

Here we go again
A very temperamental process, beginning with
all of our excess
Affecting our very own ingest, this side of
you is speechless
Overwhelmed with an abscess, creating new diseases
And infecting whomever it pleases, we've been
living this way for too long, too long
Then I noticed a difference, in the way that I
saw other insects
Who were living a life of indulgence, sheltered
by their parents
Such an unlucky existence, not given a
chance to experience
And make their own decisions, I wouldn't trade
my own mistakes at all
Reach out your hands
Out for the ones who, aid when the going gets rough
Until the end. These are the ones who, help when
the times get tough
And times will get tough. Get up again. Get up again
Here it comes once again

Whole

So Maybe I am Bound By Fate
A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate
It Never Seems To All Pan Out
Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout
You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect
Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect
Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel
Like My Own Education Wasnt Truly Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I`m Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
So There I Stood A Scolded Child
The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed
Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel
I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real
(Chorus)
While You Try To Overcome The Lesson
Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just
Keeps Me Guessing
I`m Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have
Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad
To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit
Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit
Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most
Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost
A Small Example Of What The Things You`ve Done To Me
Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things
I`ll Never Be
I`ll Never Be
(Chorus)

Amendment

Come on and brace your face
Engulfed up in the rat race we hold our futures down
So just resist the plot and find the answer
etched eternal
as we self destruct
day by day
one by one
more example of disrespect
that you seem to offer no more than complete neglect
a generation with fate all tied
this aint and game
we dont enjoy this ride
try to perceive the lie
all caught up in your own high
opinions of yourself
should be concerned about your life
theres been enough strife to crash a persons hope
and as the days delay our every other move
we've been consumed by apathy
thats right
it has become a pain
inside my brain is screaming
look what you've done to me
(chorus)
Break
its just the break we're givin em
its just the break that you`re givn' em
layed to waste out in the open
turned away once again
this isn't right
this ain't supposed to happen
now life's too short
we shouln't have to die
and i have had to stop all of my emotions
why
oh bittering faith escapes again, again
just look at what we have done
will look at who we've become
priorities astray
it goes on and on each day
we've wrecked their only try
and still we wonder why
we're recipients of hate Motherfucker
break your back
just once and then you know
you gotta
face your fright
that's right
yeah
with your five second morals and your five second smile
you just

Scheme

It woke up in me years ago how this was meant to be
all of those falsehoods plain to see they dug
and hung their greed
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered, our life is free but it's
still one step behind
just like me, they tried their rules on me
they tried their rules on me, me, me
i broke those chains and fucking split
and so you and so you and so you and so you
pass all the fascist asses ignore those classes
of bottleneck masses
producing an all but awful stench, delivering a
section off all the money stole and spent
as you start to recognize you're in the game
growing afflictions head to toe, this never
should have been
but placing blame is cowardly restructure must begin
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered your life is free, but it's
still one step behind
(chorus)
yes and the playing board is you

What I Have To Do

Well it seems as though everyones been led
astray far away from
from what we know still can't find a reason or
the right words to say
it'll be ok
wrapped up in all the things that are wrong
it's the only trial so far as the verdict falls
down you still break away
caught up in a social degradation you can't
even see the truth
we're only half as good at personal relations
look around and see the proof
only a few of us go in the right direction. even
though we're singled out
it's the only thing that keeps me alive I do what
I have to do
how was i to know force fed corporate trials
each day. every single day
but we must grow echoing the single most
thing in the way
(chorus)
not slipping, drifting falling one step further
from the norm what is the norm
not living longing trying so much harder than before
what if I, what if I run far way
would I still be seen the same, break away
(chorus)
it's what I want

Inner Strength

Here we sit all alone in an outnumbered fight
led to decipher between wrong and right
and some may fail at this joke that some of
us call life
yes at this game some call life
but the system can't bail me out of hell
i've made this descovery and it has helped
all i've got is myself i have faith in that
believe and one day you'll do just as well now
as you were you little puppet you pauper you
freak that's right
that's what some of them have said to me
so i object and try to figure things out for myself
i'm building up full emotional wealth
(chorus)
the inner strength is what the hate it wants
us not to feel
it's time that we helped there's no room to fail
you already know the way out of hell
all we got is ourselves i have faith in that
believe and one day
we'll put the system in jail, we'll put the system in jail
i made it through scraped black and blue
but so can you i made it through so black and blue
but you can too i made it through scraped
black and blue
but so can you i've made it through
we'll all make it through
(chorus)