5/13/01

I feel like crying, 
What is this?
Pain? 
Torment?
Happiness?
Sadness?
Exhaustion?

A desperate need to ......
Break?
Release?
Express?
Show?
Give?
Receive?
Grieve?

Sigh.
I am so happy,
So happy beyond belief
Such a state of relief,
Of renewal,
Of a new beginning,
Of a new happiness,
Of a new life.

Sigh.
I am so angry,
So depressed beyond such measures.
Such a state of mind,
Of praying for death,
Of praying for a second of relief,
Of desperation for civility,
Of wanting releas, relief.

Prayer
Forgive me for my sins
Purge the hatred and negativity out of
My mind,
My heart,
My life,
My soul, 
Make a being out of me.
Allow me love,
Happiness,
Peace,
And a life again.
Amen