| Your Child Wants to Tell You Something.... |
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| Josh had died in January of this year, and a couple of months later the reality had really begun to hit me that he was gone forever. I was beside myself with grief. I cried all the time, and felt so desperate most days, I thought I was coming unglued. He was only 21 when he died, and life without him there seemed unimaginable. I had always assumed of course that I would die long before my children, and it used to be a joke in our family that I would pop in and visit the kids after I'd gone, swoop in and tip something over, or turn the light on, or some such thing, to let them know I was there. Two of my kids, my oldest son, and my daughter (who is the baby of the three), did not like the idea at all...haha..and used to say, No, that's ok Mom, we don't want you scaring us...we will know you're ok without you doing that. Only Josh used to say "Ok Mom, you would never scare me, I want you to if you can, so I know you are ok. You can come and see me whenever you want." Josh and I understood each other I guess. We promised it to each other, although I was sure he'd outlive me by a longshot. A couple of months after Josh had died, I was driving my car, and crying myself sick, I just wanted to get home and crawl into bed. It was raining and gray that day, and I was just miserable. All of a sudden I got the weirdest feeling, it was like Josh was sitting in the passenger seat of the car. I kept looking over at the seat like I was going to see him sitting there or something. He used to laugh a lot, and his laugh was contagious, you'd be laughing along with him without even knowing what the joke was. I was getting that feeling in my heart in that car, like he was laughing his butt off. It was the strangest thing I ever felt. I started thinking about the fact that he was the only one who'd said "Come and see me whenever you want", and it made me smile. So I looked over at the passenger seat and said what he'd said to me..."I won't ever be afraid of you honey, you come and see me whenever you want. I want you around all the time". All of sudden, as clear as can be, I heard his voice in my head, and he said, "Hey Mom, turn on the radio". (I'm telling you, I did not imagine this, I HEARD it). So I reached up and turned the radio on, and just then they were introducing a song. Let me tell you, when that song started to play, and I listened to the words, I KNEW. It was his way of telling me he'd always be around. I laughed and cried through the whole thing. I still listen to it all the time. As if that wasn't enough, my oldest son treated me with scepticism when I told him the story...that is until while he was at work the local radio station called his store and asked him a trivia question to win a free CD. He won, and went to pick it up, and guess what CD it was??...Yup, you guessed it. He didn't doubt me after that. Anyway, this has gotten long, but I think Josh would like me to tell you that our kids talk to us all the time. We just have to listen. Maybe if you are reading this, your child wants you to hear that song too. If you want to hear it, here it is. Click "NEXT" to hear the song., |
| I'd like to share with you something that happened. If you have come this far it is not by chance, please read on. |
| It let me know that my son would always be with me, and that he was alright....... |