See how hot he looks? I know a guy who looks just like that picture. ::Sigh::

I have a deep, dark confession to make. It takes an unbelievable amount of guts to say this. Here it goes: I love Nick Carter.

I know what you’re thinking, "Not you too!" But I can’t help it! Just look at him... ::melts:: Now exactly two years ago to this day, I was getting over my Nick obsession. But now, two years later, I’m finding myself back in the mix. It seems that every picture I see of him makes me want him more. Am I normal? Apparently yes, considering millions of girls feel exactly the same way. It all started when he cut his hair. I never thought that one little hair cut could totally change one’s appearance and how someone feels towards that person. Boy was I wrong. And even though he cut his hair about a year ago, I think I just now opened my eyes and saw it.

I don't know how to react to this. I should feel fine, it’s not like I’m the only one that finds him hot as hell, but I don’t. I feel...ashamed for some reason. And I really don’t know why. I never had a problem expressing my love two years ago [those really were the good times... It's one of those "You had to be there" things.] but now it’s different. And I don’t know why. I want to know why. I’m finding myself laughing at every little thing he does, and looking through my Backstreet Boys scrapbook to look at his picture a little too often. I find my jaw constantly dropping as I look through pictures to put on the site. And yes, it’s dropping because of him. I watched Aaron’s Disney concert twice just to see Nick. The other day I found myself with a huge grin on my face because TRL was playing I Want It That Way. It’s too much. But it's not just his looks. I love his Nickiness. He's hilarious and all of the stuff he does and says... Well I find myself amused endlessly by it.

So... Yeah. Call me what you want, but I love him. And I want him. If anyone can hook that up, my number is…just kidding. I honestly am confused right now with how I’m feeling. If anyone feels like counseling me my e-mail is Shadykisses@hotmail.com. It’s just weird because I don’t know how to act or what to do. For now though, I think I’ll just live it out. It’ll all come together in the end.

I’m done for now... Woo, that felt good to get all that off my chest. So until I find out what to do, I’ll just continue staring in awe at my desktop, laughing at his corny jokes, and enjoying life as a Nick fan. I’ll let you know how it turns out. Wish me luck.

Bay-bay it's the way you make me kindagetmego crazay never wanna stop!