On this page you will find letters and poems from family and friends expressing their love, thought and memories of Frank on his 2nd year anniversary in Heaven.

Frank...
Wow it's been 2 years since I saw your face..what a beautiful face. I never thought I would make it to this point but I guess you gave me strength. I have missed you so much and my memories are so many that sometimes I just don't believe that you are gone. To me Frank, you remain here with us just in a different way..a calm, peaceful way. I try to keep your memory alive and to give people a nice place to visit with you. I know you like the website Frank..I know you like all the candles that everyone lights for you. You deserve them. You are one of the strongest people I have ever met. The kids will always remember you and they will always miss you I promise you that. There is such a void in my life...a space that no one can fill. The love of a sibling is a special kind of love that can not be replaced. You will remain with me forever in my heart..my brother..my buddy...Rest in peace always..Eileen

Dear Frank....Wow...2 years already...what should we do?? Nicholas keeps asking about you..he draws pictures of balloons to send to Heaven to you...he tells me that he watches football and baseball with you...he puts tears in my eyes because I know all these things he should be doing with you..Amanda finds all the pennies and she gets so excited knowing that you are there with her everywhere..she askes so many questions all the time and many of them I can't even answer..your life was cut so short Frank and I still don't know why..I know you are not suppose to question these things but how do you not question such a tragedy?? Nicholas is too little to write himself so I will continue to write for him...he took his first steps to you just as you said he would...I remember how happy you were that day...I remember how all I could think was...next year is going to be so different without you...in alot of ways I knew your life was ending..I could see it but I tried to hide from it...
I remember going shopping with you for your birthday that year and you bought a shirt you said for the next summer and I remember thinking to myself..he will never get the chance to wear that shirt..now that shirt hangs lonely in my closet...
I remember ice skating with you only 2 weeks before your passing and thinking...how is he doing this???You wanted to teach Amanda how to ice skate for her 6th birthday party...and then you didn't even make it to the party...
I remember we were going to do so many things together..you and I ...we did alot of those things and I treasure every moment I ever spent with you...
I remember taking you every morning for radiation treatments and for chemo...that was hard but I guess it was hard for you too,,,you were brave though and you handled it so well...
I hated leaving you there when I had to go to work..it just felt so unfair...it was so unfair..
I remember seeing you at the front door every morning when I would pick you up to come to the house...you waited at the door so you would see me right away...you enjoyed spending time with me and I am so thankful for that...I needed that time with you...I needed those memories...
I remember going to IHOP for breakfast and all the magnets you would take to make the kids pictures for Mommy...she still has them on her refrigerator..you made magnets of all of us...
I remember the last week that I got to spend with you when you were so sick..I remember how you couldn't walk to the bathroom but you were too embarrassed to use the urinal that I brought from work...I was so scared Frank...I knew what was happening...
I remember drawing your blood every week so you didn't have to go and sit in the lab...you yelled each time like I was killing you..you were such a baby!! I remember the last time I drew your blood at the house and you said "I don't want to do this" and I said "You know I love you Frank and I don't want to do this either but we have to" and I rubbed your nose..you said you knew that I love you...that meant so much to me...
I remember getting oxygen in the house for you and you thought it made you feel better..yet you were still gasping for air...I saw it happening but Frank I was so scared...
I felt so bad but I wanted to go home that day..I didn't want to see you like that..I couldn't do it..yet Mommy had no choice..she had to be there...
I prayed every night that you would just wake up in the morning Frank...
I remember the last time I spoke to you in the hospital that Saturday...I was rubbing your back and you said.."why does it have to hurt so much"...I didn't know what to say Frank...I never wanted it to hurt you...I couldn't take away your pain Frank and that was the worst part of losing you...you suffered...I don't think anyone deserves to suffer...
I remember watching Shrek with you and you loved the ending when they were singing...I remember watching you as you laughed..and coughed as usual...I remember how you would always ask me "why are you looking at me'...I just wanted to see you as much as I could...you were so beautiful Frank..
I remember when you first got sick and you were going to sleep in Amanda's bed you asked.."could I give her cancer if I sleep in her bed"...my God all you did was worry about the kids...
Well as everyone can see...I remember alot...I know I am rambling at this point and crying my eyes out but that's the way it is almost everyday....
Yes I love my brother and yes I miss him so much but I do know that he is here with me everyday watching over all of us and I feel so blessed just to have had him in my life for 27 years...Eileen

Dear Frank...
Well where do I start?? You were jsut a kid when I met you... a little "brat if I remember correctly...I use to bother you sooo much that Idon't even know how you could standed me?? I remember the "brush" Frank...oh my god I am laughing my face off...where did all the time go for us???
You were a good kid though...never got into too much trouble yet your life was taken away so quickly and there was nothing any of us could do for you...I use to pick on you but I would have done anything to help you Frank..I hope you know that..
One of the last things I remember is when we went to Costco at Christmas time...of course there were no parking spots but you turned and said "have no fear...I have my handicapped parking pass"...and we pulled right in and parked...all through Costco we laughed our butts off...you were so proud of that pass...I never saw someone so proud about something like that...I also remember that I always had to buy you a fat pretzel from Costco...now when the kids ask for one...I almost don't want to buy it because of all the memories..
I never thought this would happen..I mean I knew you were very sick and all but I thought you could get better...I thought you would always be here for me to torture!!! I do miss you Frank and what Eileen says is true..."Life just isn't the same without you and it never will be"...Rest in Peace...you deserve it..Your brother in law..Jimmy aka "james"

Dude,
It's been two horrible years without you Dude..
To me it seems like only yesterday that I was hugging and kissing you(I only wish)...
You are always with me in everything I do.
I'll never forget that hot Sunday morning in August when you were born. It was my second dream come true. My first dream was your precious and beautiful sister.
My life was perfect, I had a daughter and a son..a perfect gift from God.
Only who knew he would take you away from me on that cold Sunday morning in December.
It just doesn't seem far and maybe one day I will be able to understand why and I will be able to forgive. You were taken from me but I have all our memories of us together and of all we did together...me you Daddy and Eileen..No one can take those memories away. You always gave me joy, laughter, love and happiness.
You are my precious son forever and ever..I love and miss you more each day. I promise to see you again one day my Angel... Love you forever...Mom

To my son Frank,
Dude...I love and miss you more everyday. I feel such a loss these 2 years because I feel we were just getting to know eachother and having fun sharing good times as real friends. Different from those of a father and son.
I have been dreaming alot about you..in crazy places that you never were..like the 26th street apartment. They seem like I want you there, to be around me and my memories growing up...Then when I wake up, I realize that you could not have been there when I was growing up. It's Ok because I enjoy dreaming about you being around. I have already called out to you while talking to Nicholas..calling him Dude.
I believe that you and him are connected somehow. Me and Nicholas are buddies and together we seem to talk about you while plauing together. It's like he knows that you me and him are playing together. My good memories of us are your first concer..Kiss..then together to see the Beastie Boys and Run DMC with Uncle Jerry. Listening to music with you..me giving you the sounds of the Beatles, Led Zepplin and Ozzy Osbourne and you giving me the sounds of Nirvana, Pearl Jam and 7 Mary 3 etc...
The best time I had was with you and Vinny at the K Rock Dysfunctional Family Picnic with Ozzy..Creed...Limp Bizkit..it was a great night and I will always remember it. I love you!!
Right now being with your mom and living here with Jimmy, Eileen and the kids has helped me to live on..
and stay hopeful...Everyones tries to help one another here to get through this terrible time and I for one feel lucky to be here together with my family.
I know that you are watching and know how much we miss you and love you everyday..
I know that I will see you again..
I love you Dude!! Love, Dad

Dear Dude,
I miss you and I love you very much..I love when you send me pennies and dimes..and all the other coins you send to me..you are making me rich!!! I always wonder if you are broke?? I know that you are always with me and Nicholas..you are there to protect us. Mommy says you are our guardian angel. I hope you like all the balloons that we send up to you. I don't really understand how you got sick and got cancer but Mommy says that sometimes that happens and people we love get sick and sometimes they die. I didn't want you to die because I love you so much. Youa re my favorite uncle and you always loved me so much and did alot of fun things with me. I use to love when you would read to me and sing songs and watch movies with me. I remember watching Shrek with you and you were laughing. I think you looked good without your hair. Your head was nice too. I am not scared because I know you are with me. My friend Elizabeth has cancer too but I know you will watch her for us. I use to ask Mommy if you could come back and she would say no but that you are always with me in my heart..I feel that way too. Mommy always misses you..she cries alot too. I will take good care of my brother like Mommy takes good care of you even though you are in heaven with God. I love you very much...
Love always your favorite girl..Amanda

Just Wondering

I Wonder if you and I will meet again..
I Wonder if I will find another Best Friend
I Wonder if I will hear that name you called me ( Larry )
I Wonder if I will see the NFL Jets go to the Superbowl
I Wonder how you would feel
I Wonder, I Wonder if I will feel this emotion
I Wonder if you were here how it would be
I Wonder will I dream of you in my sleep
Never do I have to Wonder if we had never met how it would be...
The time we had together I will never forget.
It's been 2 years since you passed, I will never stop thinking of you....

Love & Miss you Always,
From Me
V.B.

So Far Away   by Stained  

This is my life it's not what it was before All these feelings I've shared And these are my dreams That I'd never lived before Somebody shake me 'cause I must be sleeping.. Now that we're here, it's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All the mistakes, one life contained They all finally start to go away Now that  we're here, it's so far away And I  feel like I can face the day I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed To be the person I am today These are my words That I've never said before I think I'm doing okay And this is the smile That I've never shown before Somebody shake me 'cause I must sleeping.. I'm so afraid of waking Please don't shake me Afraid of waking.....  

Dear Frank,
It's so hard to believe that two years have gone by. I remember hearing about your illness, finding out that you had passed away, attending the service, and it being your one year anniversary in heaven in what seemed to be too short a time span. And now yet another year has gone by. Know that you are still very much alive to us all, and in our thoughts constantly. Although I hadn't seen you for quite a number of years before you were diagnosed, I always asked about you. I will always remember that adorable teen on his bike ringing our bell and bringing a smile to so many faces. I remember vividly, and I know you do too, looking at you once and saying, "Hey Frank, you know, if your hair was darker, I think you'd look so much like that New Kid on the Block all the girls are crazy about." (which you didn't need to hear, cause they were all crazy about you already) And, yep, your head got a little swollen, and you started looking in the mirror a lot more. And, I'd have to ask my sister, but if my memory serves me correctly, you dyed your hair to look more like Jordan. Quite a character!
Well cutie, you will remain in our hearts forever. Rest in peace and tranquility knowing that. Bless Eileen and her family on a daily basis, she's keeping you with us Frank. Goodbye for now Angel. Love LUCY

Frank, was very special to not only me but my family. We met because of Jerry. He used to come on my block on 64th street and hang out with Jerry, Brian, and James from then on we instantly became friends. I remember a lot of good times we had. Even if we just hung out in front of my house just a couple of houses from Jerry, going ice skating in the city, or going to the school yard. We loved to just sit around a laugh even if it was the coldest day of the year.  Frank was funny, every time I think of him I think of the first day we met he was on his bike in front of Jerry's house with one foot on his stoop cuffing his jeans.  Frank was crazy when it came to cuffing his jeans, if they didn't come out perfect he would redo them until they were perfect.  He would do this all the time.  We first met he was kind of shy until he came out of is shell.  To many good memories of Frank to write but as I get a chance I'll write. Frank is truly missed and remembered dearly. .. Antonietta

Frank,     It is very hard to believe it has already been 2 years. Your memory is very much alive everyday through your sister with the help of your cousin and your aunt. Frank although I didn't know you personally I can only imagine what a wonderful guy you were from all the things Eileen has told and all the friend you have. I know that if you are anything like your mom and your sister you had to be a great guy. Just know we all think of you often and your memory will always be alive.                                                                                         Lil

Dear Frank,
I know I didn't know you that well but through Eileen's web site I have learned so much about you and how important and special your relationship was. I know Eileen a long time and I think that she has become a much stronger person and I think that strength has come from you. She has done a wonderful job of keeping your memory alive and each penny you send from Heaven is a reminder of how you are always with them.
Patricia

Frank,
I never really got to know you as an adult. I only know you through a child’s eyes. You were the little kid who used to suck his thumb all the time and get us girls in trouble. The kid who me and your sister Eileen used to play Charlie’s Angels with. You were the little stinker who used to scare us with the clown in the window. The very kind and flattering boy who used to call me Wonder Woman because you thought I looked like Linda Carter. I have a lot of memories of “the dude.” I only wish I got to know the man that cute little boy grew into. I look forward to meeting you again in Heaven. ~ “Wonder Woman”

Hi again Eileen, I've said this before, but I feel that it is worth mentioning again. "This website, that you have created, along with aunt Ceal and Lisa, is the most unusual, yet most beautiful, and beneficial site that I have ever seen. It has become a nice place to visit. I feel for sure , that it is unpresidented. You are showing the world that there is another way to deal with the loss of our loved ones; a different way to cope; or perhaps a way to keep alive, the beautiful and loving memories that we once shared with them. I know, that along with my tears, I have also laughed once or twice while reading the silly things that Frank did, and the funny things he said.
This may sound very strange, but, before I started to paint Franks portrait, I would stare at his photograph for very long periods of time. I looked so deeply into his eyes, and I could almost feel him there. And, although, I never met him in this world, as we know it, I know, that I know him, and I love him, just as much as anyone else does. Moreover, now, this site, gives me the opportunity to visit with him, and learn more about him. It has become a nice place to visit with a very special person.
I believe that when this idea catches on, and it will, many people will have a place to go for the peace and comfort that they need. You are teaching the world HOW TO KEEP MEMORIES ALIVE, and it is beautiful.

May God bless you and keep you in His care always
With all my love Rose M

FRANK, YOUR ANNIVERSARY IN HEAVEN IS COMING UP AND I JUST WANT TO SAY, THAT
YOU ARE ONE LUCKY GUY TO HAVE A FAMILY THAT LOVES YOU SO MUCH, AND YOUR
SISTER EILEEN IS ONE SPECIAL LADY WHO IS DOING SO MUCH TO KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE.
I WANT TO WISH YOU A BLESSED CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN.

LOVE ALWAYS, YOUR SISTER'S FRIEND

TRUDIE BABE

Dear Frank, 
   I'd fill you in on all the events that have happened in the past two years, but since you've been around (i.e. pennies, balloons, dreams etc.) I don't feel I need to do that. You are very missed but everyone feels your presence. Eileen is doing a great job keeping your memories alive and you should be very proud of her.

Terri

DEAR FRANK:

IT WAS A PLEASURE LOVING YOU. NOW I HAVE
TO SHARE YOU WITH THE ANGELS.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY IN HEAVEN.

LOVE YA DOTTIE

Dear Dude,

I'm sure it's no suprise that I'm writing this letter at the last minute...as you know I have to fight your Godson and his brother to use the computer!!!
I can't believe it's been two years; it seems like just yesterday that me and Eileen were talking in our "secret language" and you were trying to figure out what we were saying!!! Your sister is doing a great job keeping your memory alive, I know you are real proud of her. Your strength lives on in her.We all miss you and love you very much.
P.S. Keep those dimes coming!
P.S.S. Please help your Godson to stop beating up on his big brother!

Love you always, Ritaface

Dear Dude,  

Are you STILL laughing at me for Karaoke Night??? I wouldn't have gone up there for anyone but you!!! In fact...I can't wait to do it again!   Love, Wan (Master MC)

Dear Dude,

Please forgive me, I'm a liitle upset with Mommy because she turned off my game! I love you and miss you, and I will try to wait patiently till Mommy finishes!!!
P.S. please tell Jason to stop trying to bite me!!!

Love, Brandon

Dear Frank,  
I love and miss you. Give a kiss to my Nanny for me!   Love, Jessica

Dear Dude,
I sure wish I had my Godfather here to play with, but your sister is doing a terrific job filling in for you! Thank you for watching over me. I love you!!!

Love, Jason

Dear Dude,

Just want to wish you a happy second anniversary in Heaven. I'm sure it must be wonderful there. We love and miss you. And you will never be forgotten. All the memories that were made with you will remain with us forever. Give a kiss to Nanny and Grandpa for me will you?
Boog!

Dear Dude,
Happy Anniversary. We all love you. Just last month we watched the tape of my first birthday when I was trying to take off you hat? My Mom was sad, me too.
Love Lisa.

Dear Frank...
you wouldn't believe how much time Eileen, jimmy, amanda and nicholas spend talking and writing about you.
They have made so many friends through this family tragedy. They miss you very, very much.
We pray for you and we pray for them too. Tomorrow, I'm working with your mom. I will just give her a big hug.
Your circle of friends has grown tremendously.
Happy birthday in heaven...
Sincerely...Lauren, Jimmy, Matthew & Maggie

Dear Frank;
Although I did'nt know you for very long, I feel like I did. The beautiful website that has been created in your memory, by Eileen, Ceal and Lisa, has allowed me and others to get to know the wonderful and funny person that you were. A big thank you to them and may you continue to watch over and inspire them, today and always.

Sincerely, Alice Stensland

Thank you everyone for sending in your wishes for Frank's Second Anniversary in Heaven.

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