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| If it were possible to trade places with someone, I would trade places with myself when I was thirteen years old. That would give me a chance to do things a lot differently. There are so many things I could change that would make life better for me now, as well as things that would make my family happier. |
| I would start by having a better attitude toward my parents, especially my father. I would show them more respect and tell them more that I love them. Rather than being a spiteful, insolent teenager, I would be more kind and understanding. I would listen to what my parents had to say and consider their advice, instead of assuming they were just picking on me. In addition, I would not feel embarrassed when my father hugged me. Willingly, I would hug him back and be very proud that he is my dad. My father and I missed out on so much together because of my rebellion, and I wish so much that I could go back and take away all the heartaches I caused for him. |
| My defiant behavior in school is another aspect of my childhood that I would repair. Instead of playing the part of "class clown," I would pay attention and be more assertive in my studies. Homework would be of greater importance to me, as well as high test scores. When Graduation Day came, I would hold my diploma up high with pride for my achievement. Likewise, I would avoid fighting. I would act more like a lady and less like a tomboy. My parents would be so impressed with a civilized Cindy. |
| Furthermore, I would not have a relationship with anyone until I am old enough to better understand what love is. My guards would be up at all times. I would not fall into any young love traps. If a boy said he loved me, I would not be so naïve as to believe him. When the time came to consider someone for a husband, I would be extremely careful in my decision-making. I would be observant. The guy I would consider for marriage would have to prove himself worthy. I would not get married until I was at least twenty-three and totally sure the person is right for me. Moreover, I would not have any children out of wedlock. However, when I did have children, I would want the same ones I have now. |
| Although, in reality, I cannot trade places with my thirteen-year-old self, I can try my best to do what is right for my thirty-year-old self. My relationship with my father is the best it has ever been. I have learned that parents can be very forgiving. Likewise, I am working on my education with a lot more interest than I had at the age of thirteen. I cannot take away the mishap marriage or having children at a young age. However, I try to be the best mother that I can possibly be. In addition, I managed to get out of the mishap marriage and find Mr. Right. I guess this is as close as I can get to starting over. |
| Trading Places |
| April 22,2002 |
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