What's going on? My day today was a pretty normal day in my life; disappointing. Why is it that the friends I make will always leave me for others? Why is it that I can't have a friend that I can really confide in and just completely bond with? Oh well, that is just my life I guess.
In math class today, I was tasting jelly beans and oh my god, some of them were so nasty. They had a popcorn tasting one that was outrageously disgusting. Julie and I had a good laugh though, we gave the ones we knew tasted icky to some people around us. That was the highlight of the day. To know that eating jelly beans is the highlight of my day, you can basically tell what my day was like. It's ok. because in one year, it'll be different. When I'm in college it'll be different, hopefully. The day only became worse after that.
Today I realized that the one I have feelings for will never feel the same for me. It's just not going to happen and that isn't even why the day got worse because I knew that I was never going to get my someone. It's just not meant for me right now, at least thats what I'd like to believe. The reason my day got worse because I saw my special someone with someone else, and was happy there. Dang, my life isn't really going well for me.
In any case, I was online today and thought that maybe I would make a diary for myself. I think it would be interesting. It helps to talk to someone about my feelings and well ideas, those will probably come later on.
Oh well, today is only one day, tomorrow is a whole new one and I'll do my best to live it up. Besides I get to talk to fun people in the morning and see my special someone too. I'll probably not come on for a few day, i'll probably make an entry once a week. It's not like each day I live is truly thrilling, you won't be missing anything. Ok, well, I'll write soom. Bye
*Cristina*
.anymore!
