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May 28, 2002
               Okay, first entry into my journal. First im gonna tell all of you that i know my site sux big time but im using it as an excuse to keep busy. Hey i have no life ok. I mean come on what could someone as ugly as me be doin...Juss kiddin guys/chix! I get into more trouble that way. Im gonna use this journal to its extent...im gonna put my thoughts of the moment in them...if i offend any of you...MY BAD!!! Okay to tell you about my friends...well i dont have many but most of the ones i do have, either use me or else im their backup friend. I hate that. Im sure if you know me as well as i know some of you do...then i know ur comprehending this...esp my ex. hes also my closest guy friend. My best friend got suspended from school for excessive absences. It sux! My closest guy friend Bryan dont like to hear me talkin bout how hot some guys are and stuff like that he gets a lil upset about it. (If you're readin this babe ya know I love ya!) I dont mean to offend anyone with this statement but...I hate it when all of you stupid fuckers yell at me cuz im atheist, so if you're gonna bitch about it then you better find a new site! I dont wanna hear your complaints about me being a sinner and im gonna go to hell cuz guess what else...I dont about you or any of that shit so dont bug me bout it! Well thanx for readin! Loves ya!
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May,29, 2002
              Today sucked juss like every other day I have. Nuthin big happened. Well other than the fact that Kyle keeps nagging at me and sayin that I love Bryan and that hes the only one I wanna be with ever...which in that case hes extremely wrong!!! I dont wanna get stuck with juss one person, I actually have a crush on this guy Chris, which sux cuz I know that he wont go out with me cuz hes Bryan's friend and Im sure Bryan would flip over that one...I also have a huge crush on Kyle but thats old news...Kyle dont want me either...but I dont blame, him Im not cute so I understand. OH!!! Me and Ashlee "killed" this guy Brandon, that was fun. im gonna try to get pics up but I dunno if Im gonna have time tonite...They'll be here soon enuf!!! Im also in the process of making a fave-page. Hope it comes out lookin ok!
May 30, 2002
               Today was a really bad day. I got into a fight with Bryan last nite and now were just friends and its drivin me crazy! I dunno why I have to be such a bitch to him all the time! Hes the biggest sweetheart Ive ever known! I mean come on how many ppl do you know that would try to buy you tickets to a concert of your fave band, not just any seats either...front row center...I cant believe he would do that for me...Im not worth it...well I dont think so anyways...maybe to him I am...when someone says that they know I love him I will deny it...I dunno why though...I love him so much...like way too much for me...I cant deal with someone that loves me as much as he loves me, Ive never had that love before...its odd for me...I dunno most ppl would kill to have what I have but I juss dont want it right now...I juss dunno how to tell him that. I dunno Im gonna have to figure out someday...maybe he'll read this and understand...the last entry hurt him...I hope this one is better...I dont wanna hurt him...Bryan if your readin this babe...I Love You...

May 31, 2002
               Today was another boring day...I woke up with a slight touch of the flu and a hangover...not cool...esp since I had to go to school, oh well! I needed 50 cents to call home and I was askin around, well I ended up gettin the money from Chris but I felt special cuz Bryan also offered me the money, it was after I got money from Chris but still, at least he offered! I dunno Im pathetic...I know...Well not much to say...this chick, Angie, shes goin through one of the things I do, only for her its harder cuz its her first time havin a breakdown/loss of identity...its hard...all you do is cry and bitch... not fun...its like PMS'ing only it lasts longer and nobody else can really tell...it sux big monkey sox!!! sorry...a lil hyper right now...well nuthin special happened today so yea...read up more morrow!!!!! maybe sumpin interesting...

June 1, 2002
              Its 2:22 am and im workin on this...woohoo...ANYWAYS...the reason im updating...i juss told Bryan i trust him!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats bigger than me sayin i love him!!! its like huge! nobody understands how big of a deal this is!! Sarah might...but still!!!! its like omng big huge ahhh scary for me....hes juss like oh ok...im like freakin out!! I think i am in love with him...maybe he is 'the one' but im not gonna think bout that cuz i dont want to...not sumpin me, 16 yr old irresponsible Jess, is gonna think about right now...
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