I love you so much,
I can't wait for your touch.
I can feel you move inside,
but there's something to hide.
I have faith,but need a sign,
Tell me somehow,you'll be fine.
You're special,that's for sure,
but I hate to think of what you might endure.
They say time will tell it all
and this one isn't my call.
I wish I could take it away,
but with this, I don't have a say.
So, I pray to God each and every day,
That you will be in our lives to stay...

Hold me close and near,
For I am full of fear,
I am trying to be strong,
But I don't know for how long,
Right now she's safe inside me,
But when she's born, what will be,
What will they say,
What all can happen in a day,
These thoughts overwhelm me,
When what will be will be...

Me and You

Something inside me wants to say,
I am grateful for every second of every day.
I look at you and see,
How precious life can be.
You make me strong when I think I'm weak,
When I get scared and it's hard to speak.
I hold you close and near
And you release my every fear.
People ask "How?" again and again.
I guess I'll let them in.
This is hard, we all know.
But I'm not about to let you go.
You have a lot of battles to fight,
But I'll be by your side day and night.
I'll be there for you to lean upon,
If you ever feel you can't go on.
Remember I'm here for you and together
we can make it through.
Don't give up, that's all you have to do.
God has a plan for us all.
If you turn to him, you won't fall.
I have faith and pray too,
That God's plan includes me keeping you.

You're Gone

My precious little Emily Grace
has gone away to a better place.
I don't know why God took her from me,
Maybe when my time comes, I'll see.
I miss her smile, I miss her touch,
I miss the way she smelled, oh, so much.
I'll see her again one day,
then we'll have time to play.
I know she had to go,
But why I don't know.
She tried and fought so long,
I prayed the statistics would be wrong.
It was hard to watch her slip away,
I wanted so much for her to stay.
Now she doesn't struggle to breathe,
I understand that she had to leave.
There was something wrong from the start,
And now I'll hold her in my heart....

Questions To Emily
Why is there so much pain?
Is there really something to gain?
Why did you have to leave?
Will your spirit visit if I believe?
Why did you have to go away?
Why couldn’t you be with me and stay?
In heaven do you miss?
Will you feel it if I send a kiss?
Why did you have to die?
Will there be a day I won’t cry?
Will there be days without fears?
Can you see what you left behind?
Do you really come to me or is just in my mind?
Is it my fault you died?
Was it my fault you cried?
Did I love you enough?
Was I ever too tough?
Did I do what was right?
Why did you lose your fight?
Did you enjoy your life?
Was it worth the sacrifice?
How do I go on without you?
What do I do?
Did I ever make you mad?
Were you ever sad?
Are you taken good care of?
Are you surrounded by love?
Do you have fun and play?
Do you know I miss you every day?
Do you hear what I say?
Do you hear me when I pray?
Do you remember me?
Was this meant to be?
Will you always be seven weeks old?
When I go to heaven, will you be a baby for me to hold?
Will I know you when I see you?
Will you know me too?
Why was your body not right?
Did you find peace when you saw the light?
Did God take you by the hand?
Did you make it safely to the promised land?
Did you look back?
Did you wish you could stay?
Or did you want to let your sick body lay?
Did I do my best?
Are you at peace in your rest?
Were you ever in pain?
Does God really smell like rain?

There's a hole in my heart
a very empty, sad part
I yearn for your touch
and miss you so much
I think of you so often and cry
I don't understand why you had to die
I look at your pictures and see
all that you didn't have a chance to be
I wish I could hold you just one more day
There is a million things I want to say
I wish there was something I could do
to show you how much I love you
Why you? Why me?
Why did this have to be?

Feelings I can’t escape
Sometimes I want to cry,
Sometimes I want to die,
I want to yell and scream, run and hide,
Anything to escape the pain I feel inside,
I want to just hold you for a while,
Forget the pain and grief,
Forget the medical file,
Forget the things that say you are dead,
And just kiss and smell your sweet little head,
Your sister asks why you can’t come home and stay,
She doesn’t understand why you went away,
We all know we want you back,
But that’s a power that we lack,
You brought us so much joy to our lives,
But then you had to leave,
In tears and pain so deep, we were left here to grieve,
I asked the “what if’s” and the “why’s”, I questioned them all,
But the only answer I have is you went to God’s call,
I feel so helpless and so weak,
Sometimes, I cry so hard that I can’t speak,
Praying for a life that I couldn’t keep,
So many times, I just want to sleep,
At least then I might see you,
When there’s nothing else that I can do……

For Me
If you go before I do
And see the beauty of heaven so true
Would you do a favor for me
I have a message for Emily
First of all, hold her tight
And never let her out of sight
There’s so much I want to say
Please tell her I think of her everyday
Tell her how I love her so
And miss her more than she’ll ever know
Tell her how I look up in the sky
And remember that day in July
When we had to say good-bye
And she learned how to fly
Tell her not to be sad
That my tears aren’t bad
Tell her the tears help release the pain
And actually help to keep me sane
Tell her that she’s not forgotten
And I hope that she is still spoiled rotten
Tell her that she lives on within my heart
During this time that we are apart
Tell her how I treasure the time she was here
And how I hold those memories so dear
Tell her how she taught me so much
And how I long for her touch
Tell her to come visit me
And in my dreams, it’s her I see
Tell her I’ll be there as soon as I can
When it’s my turn in God’s big plan…

Let You Know
You may not see tears rolling down my face,
But I still miss her little embrace,
You may see me smile or laugh or play,
But don’t think the pain has gone away,
You may think “I’m doing better” or
“It looks like I’m doing well”,
If only you could see inside,
That’s not the story my heart would tell,
The pain doesn’t just go away,
Go ahead and mention her name today,
I just want to make it clear,
So that you will not fear,
I like to talk of the life Emily had,
And, yes, sometimes I’ll show I’m sad,
But I just thought that you should know,
It helps to let the tears flow,
Now that you know how I feel,
You can help me to heal,
But don’t expect the pain to disappear,
It’ll take a lifetime and I need you here….

A poem I made from Alyssa's view

I lay down my sleepy head,
After my prayers are said,
I think of what I did today,
And wonder what tomorrow will bring my way,
Then I think of Emily Grace
and remember how I use to kiss her face,
I have the best guardian angel, you see,
she's always watching over me,
A very special angel kisses me goodnight.
She is my baby sister who went to the light...