I was diagonsed with an aneurysm on the main brain stem, and by God's Hand was led to the only surgen in the country that would even attempt to perform the surgery.   The peace that I felt before the surgery is hard to explain, but I just KNEW THAT GOD MEANT IT TO BE DONE , and it was a win-win sitution anyway....if I died on the table, I would be with God, and if not I would live for God...either way was acceptable to me..and I was thankful to know that there was indeed a reason for all the pain and discomfort I had know...thankful for an aneurysm , you think....YES, because it meant the prozac and medicationsfor nerves and depression were all just a mis-diagonsis and what ever the outcome, I was in the Loving and forgiving and merciful Hand of God...   I wish that there was room enought to tell of the near death experience on the operating table and the many times of the presence of God and His gifts, since that time...   I will only say that ...God is Love and He is full of mercy and goodness.   Each day my life changes, from precept to precept, from Glory to Glory....   A new journey and more wonderful each day....as I grow in the knowledge of the Lord, I continue to move into a place of peace and I have seen God work miracles and wonders before my very eyes....Eyes that have been opened and ears that can finally hear the Truth. I realize that things of this world are temporary and only the things of God are eternal..this has changed the way I feel about everything and everybody....   My horses are nearly wild now, and the people I meet are all so important....I rarely go to the barn, for I spend most of my time seeking God in scripture and prayer...(altho, I have taught them all the gospel of Jesus and the Kingdon of God, after all He does say "every creature", so I practiced first on the horses and dogs and it seems they understand after all.)   I want everyone to know the Truth and to recongize the deception that has trapped so many. The deception that trapped me...   I have been witnessing at the local jail, for about three years now.   I have completed one year of Bible college and feel like I have been annointed to pray for the needs of others...    I am daily growing and renewing my mind, and as I do , I find so much more to learn.     I am motivated to love and to bless others, as I never have before...I am forgiving and I pray to show mercy to others , as God has to me...   Everything looks differently now and I am not surrounded in the wall of "self" that had nearly consumed me...   I am learning to be a worshipper and to just praise God because He IS and because He is ABLE....and because He alone is worthy of praise...   I am thankful for the affliction and I pray to be a servant to God here on this earth.   I pray..... MAY GOD BLESS YOU > _ ...."so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.".....HEBREWS 12:29 visit the web site http://communities.msn.com/AchurchtoenjoyIVYRIDGECHAPEL