| a week or so before Keilab was born was when i had decided to do Keilab's room in teddy bears... his room was ready just no decorations... his walls were bare... i had been given a teddy bear blanket at a shower and a stuffed teddy bear... at another shower i was given another stuffed bear... i had two bears of my own that i had been given after my brain surgery so bear it was... i bought a few more bears before keilab was born... after keilab was born a SPECIAL FRIEND called and asked if i needed anything... i asked her to bring the smallest bear sitting in Keilab's crib... she brought it and that bear sat in Keilab's NICU bed with him until we brought him home... that same bear layed with him the whole day at home up until he died and after he died we left the bear laying with him... we put the bear in the carrier with him when Keilab left to the funeral home and the bear was in the casket with him at the viewing and the following day at the funeral service... before my husband and i closed up the casket, i took that little bear out and carried him to the funeral service with me... that bear now sits in Keilab's crib... i wanted to do something in Keilab's memory... i found some bears with angel wings at the mall one day... i have bought some and have asked the social worker to give them to the families of the babies born with what Keilab had... if their baby lives on I WILL BE SO HAPPY FOR THEM... if the baby does not make it i hope that the bear can be something they cherish as i cherish my little bear and a reminder to them that their little angel had a friend named Keilab waiting for them in heaven... i also gave teddy bears to the people who helped us and Keilab... Keilab's NICU room has since been turned into a waiting room for the new NICU... i did not pay attention to the border in the room the many times i was in there but i got a piece of the border before the room was gone, the border has teddy bears all over it... the computer room at our house was turned into Keilab's room for him... it is now back to a computer room decorated with Keilab's teddy bears and pictures of him... where ever we live the computer room will always be decorated in teddy bears... |
