Most special person in the world
She has no special talent
No special beauty mark
No invention with a patent
No voice of a comely lark
No hourglass physique
No sunbeam likened smile
No lingering mystique
No manicured nails to file
But what she had she flaunted
With the style of a fur-lined stole
With the chic of a runway model
She flashed her beautiful soul
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Your life can be what you want it to be
Your life can be what you want it to be
If you just set your heart on your dream
Feel it , breath it, think it, feel it
It’s not as difficult as at first it may seem
Picture yourself living your dream
The actions, the words , the emotions
Feel it, breath it, think it, feel it
Go after it with sheer devotion
Your life can truly be what you want it to be
If you only believe it to be true
For no matter what you want in life
Can happen if you believe in you !
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Whatever
You’ll make it through whatever comes along
Don’t worry about the no’s, nays and nevers
Shrug your shoulders, flash a smile
And say "Ah well, whatever !"
Just do the best that you can do
Until you’re at the end of your tether
Once you’ve done all you can do
Just say "Ah well, whatever !"
For know that God never gives you a burden
That’s too heavy for you to weather
He’ll help you through, no matter how arduous
Be it heavy, be it difficult,
Whatever !
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No limits
Do not put limits on yourself
For you never really know
Just how much you can achieve
How far you can really go
The cant’s and the excuses
Are really just self-inflicted
Forget the pessimism
And be limitless afflicted
Forget the negativity
And glass half-empty roles
Take all those limitations
And turn them into goals
Don’t put limits on yourself
For you never really know
Just how much you can achieve
How far you can really go
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For you
Nothing could ever replace
The joy I feel for you
All this love that you have showed me
Nothing else could ever do
For you are such a special part
Of my wanting trivial life
You are mine and I love you
Through happiness or strife
Each day I raise my eyes
And thank the Lord above
For sending someone like you
Especially for me to love
He chose me out of all the rest
Because he knew…
I’d love you best
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Love has a way
It hurts to know you’re hurting
Because you’re so special in my heart
The pain that you are feeling
Is tearing me apart
But know that love has a way
Of easing all that’s wrong
Together we can make it
If we hold on and just be strong
Know that you’re not alone
In all your adversity
For by your side through and through
Is where I’ll always be
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Teenage Pregnancy
All these burning sensations, feelings, emotions
Alone in my room, I silently wonder,
What and who I am
Is this really me ? This lost,
Forlorn child, bearing a child.
I cry bitterly. So many hopes,
And dreams, and cries and screams
All the insecurity and fear
Hopelessness and bitterness.
Alone in my room. All the welt up ire
And mad desire,
And all the hurt in the world.
All the tears unshed and thoughts unread…
And silence in the speakers of the heart,
And dry, cold, harsh feeling
And heart beats and temperatures
Soaring and reeling.
All the pain inside.
But.
Cushioned and protected in a membrane of hope
My baby knows not what lingers outside
His haven of serenity and peace and strength
Today leads tomorrow
Joy leads…
Sorrow
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Uncertainty of Motherhood
No feeling, no nothing
No knowing there’s something
Not something, someone
A daughter or son
They say it’s there
Should I care?
Mine for me
We’ll wait and see
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Desolation at motherhood
I face the future
Already planned for me
No nothing for me to expect
There’s nothing to wait and see
For my destiny has been mapped out
I shall have no more youthful days
I shall never feel the thrill again
Of raucous, rebellious ways
I shall rear a child for eighteen years
Maybe even longer
For although I’m still a child myself
I’m going to be a mother
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Procreation
Slowly it grows
Within the depths of my soul
Manifesting itself in my body
Disrupting the equilibrium of my physicality
Each movement a silent conveyance that its presence be felt
Its sheer pressure of such magnitude , such minute magnitude
Furtively washing me with a melange of enigmatic emotions
Soon it will bare its face and embroider that first stitch on its life’s quilt
Soon we will know the reasoning behind its existence
For verily, life is not life without reason
Slowly, ‘it’, becomes a person…
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Motherhood
At first I was not aware
That you were a part of me
Then slowly you began to grow
Your movements made me see
That you were always right there
A perfect little soul
Growing to perfection
As soon you will be whole
Whole enough to push me
To say you’re on your way
To make your presence known
So I can prepare for your birth day
With open arms I’ll be right there
To welcome you with a smile
For you’re such a special part of me
You’re my beautiful, perfect child
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Depression
Like the last leaf on a windy Autumn day
I hang on, fragile but courageously
Waiting for the day to come
When the wind will stop blowing
So that I can be at peace
At peace with myself and everything around me
At peace with the world and all that it bears
Hanging onto a hope that is based on dreams
Hoping that my dream of surviving all adversity
Will finally be realised
But alas the wind is too strong
And like all other leaves before me
I begin to sing , so long
Sad and lost filled with despair
No one to comfort me
No one to care
No one to say, hang in there, be strong
So I’ll whisper my goodbyes, and sing
My swans song
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Abuse
I see the teardrops staining her cheeks
Her voice rustling as she speaks
The noticeable tremor when she mentions his name
The fear in her eyes disclosing the game
The practised make-up masking the welt
The pain and anguish dissipated, unfelt
The headlong demeanour searching the floor
For an answer a whisper, some miracle lore
Slowly I apply the make-up again
Looking in the mirror , reflecting my pain
Tomorrow will be better, of this I’m secure
Yet my reflection still seems so unsure
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Reflections on the Littleton murders
I saw the news on CNN today
23 children killed in a brutal way
Killed by children just like them
Could have been a neighbour, could have been a friend….
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He’s always there
You look to Him in times of grief
And times of unbearable pain
You blame Him when things go wrong
When there’s no sun shining through the rain
You pour your sorrows into a cup
For Him to sip and savour
You place upon a platter
All your worries with bitter flavours
You cry out to Him in dismal spans
And hope that he will hear you
You look around for a sign
That shows that he is near you
How sad it is in times of glee
Not a word of thanks you offer
No acknowledgement or hymn
No adulation or, appreciation you proffer
For the Lord is not only there
In times of bitter strife
His there with every step you take
Of your sententious, restricted life
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I forgive you Mother
I heard the screaming through my pillow covered ears
I saw the hatred through eyes filled with tears
I felt the pain through blankets as thick as snow
I knew this time… she had to go
She looked at me and I think she knew
That I would understand what she was about to do
She held me close to her and said a soft goodbye
This would be the last time I would see her cry
Goodbye dear mother,
Fare well, so long
Go out into a better life
I know you will be strong
One day when I am grown up
I’ll come out and look for you
As long as you are happy
With all my heart, I forgive you.

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A person too
I know that you saw me
Standing over there
I know that you noticed
My blank, vacant stare
I wish you could know
What’s going through my mind
As I watch you walk on by
Leaving me behind
I see the disgust
On your twisted , revolted face
Thinking I am nothing
To this world, a big disgrace
I wish that I could show you
How my mother kicked me out
How all the words I heard as a child
Was an odious, abhorrent shout
How I begged on the streets
From the first break of dawn
How I tried to clean myself up
But still they turned away in scorn
I wish that you could see
With your heart and not your eyes
I don’t expect you to feel responsible
But only to realize
That I ask not for much
Even a gentle smile will do
Acknowledge that I exist
For I am a person too…
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Goodbye
My mind seemed to skip a thought
My soul felt ripped apart
I could not place the feeling
That echoed through my heart
And soon the phone call came
"I’ m sorry", she said, "his dead".
Dead? This cannot be
I denied what she had said
I saw him just this morning
He kissed me a gentle goodbye
He said he would see me later
He’d never tell a lie
But later never came
Nor all the days there after
No longer did I hear again
The sound of his pure laughter
No longer could I feel his hands
Pressed against my face
Soft as a silky sheet
Adorned with beautiful lace
So say goodbye carefully
For you never really know
If that will be the last goodbye
Before they have to go…
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The man
I saw a man today
A funny simple man
Lying on the pavement
Next to a rubbish can
His face was covered with grime
His clothes a rag melange
But I did not find him dirty
I did not find him strange
For upon his face was a smile
That I had never seen
Never from any person
From any place I’ve been
That smile, I thought is probably
The best I’d ever seen
For that smile asked for nothing
Not a single thing.
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We said
A woman called me today
And this is what she said
Was I Mrs So and so
If so, were we still wed
I said we were , thinking that
This was all in error
But what she told me filled my heart
With sheer, unbridled terror
She said that you said you loved her
And I meant nothing to you
I tried to convince her with all I had
That this was all untrue
Yet the more I tried to convince her
The more I realized
That all that I was saying
Was optimistic lies
I should have seen the signs before
But chose to look away
I should have known the truth by now
But chose to run away
But finally I see things clearly now
I shall say adieu and part
For you broke my fragile gift to you
You broke my love-filled heart
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No More
You lied
I tried
I could’nt
How could you
Did you mean to
Why
Why me
Why now
After all these years
A million tears
Doubtful fears
I’m sorry
You’re sorry
I can’t go on
Too many lies
Too many promises
To many broken promises
God says forgive
I’m sorry
I can’t
Goodbye forver.
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Father
When I was younger he used to pick me up
And hold me in his arms
And tickle me until I was blue
And mesmerise me with his charms
Each day after work before he came home
I'd stand and watch at the gate
To run into his loving arms
I could hardly wait
But as I grew up I realised
That those days were all long gone
No longer did I hear again
My father's throaty songs
He became a distant parent
Strict and forever unforgiving
Screaming, shouting, lecturing
A life that was not worth living
Only now that I'm a parent myself
Do I see what I didn't see then
If I could choose a different father
I'd choose mine all over again
Through all the lectures and shouting
Some of it stayed in my mind
What came across as strictness
Was his way of being "cruel" to be kind
I thank him for where I am today
His guidance has helped me to no end
His everything in a father, I would ever want
His my dad, my angel, my friend
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I was an Ant in my dream
I had a dream last night
A vivid colourful dream
As dream-like as it was
How all too real it seemed
I dreamt I was an ant
Walking in the fields
Looking for some food
To feed my colony
The further that I walked
The longer the road ahead
But I knew that somehow
I’d find that piece of bread
A storm began to brew
Then the rain came pouring down
I hid beneath a rock
Terrified that I would drown
But soon the storm had passed
And the sun came shining through
And what I saw before me
Was far too good to be true
The rain had brought a gift for me
A covered uneaten roll
Enough to feed the tummies
Of my colony as a whole
This dream I had has taught me
To focus on what I want to gain
For no matter how dark the skies may be
The sun always shines through the rain
So no matter what you want in life
Or what you want to achieve
Never lose sight of your goal
You’ll get it if you believe
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Me
We always take for granted
How special we really are
We often underestimate
The brightness of our stars
For every time you get a call
A letter, a card, a salutation
That someone was thinking only of you
At that moment you were special
So never doubt your worth
Or think that you’re a no-one
For someone, somewhere thinks that you’re
That significant, special someone
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I know
I know that you are sad
And feeling no-one cares
Your sorrows lining your dear sweet face
Your demeanour filled with despair
But look around you
And you will see
That life is really worth living
It’s amazing what a change you will see
If you take the time to be forgiving
Forgive the one who hurt you
The situation you cannot control
The money that seems so scarce
That half that never seems whole
Forgive the misdemeanours
Of others you cannot alter
Forgive the troubled souls
Of those who unknowingly falter
Let go of those pent up feelings
Of melancholy , lonely sadness
Forgive with all your heart
And you’ll see it fill with gladness
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