By: Jon The Peasant

And John Norman said, "Let there be Light"

To many of you who know me personally this will be something you have undoubtedly heard before, but for every new adventure you must start at the beginning. You must start where the light came alive the first time. Bare with me as I revisit the last year in Sardaria and my de-evolultion to my current state of being over the coming months. So let the story of my life as Gorean Philosophy follower begin.

Almost if not over a year ago I had come to a crossroads of sorts. I had been Role Playing Gor only in what is commonly referred to as the Commons. Ironic isn't it? The character, my very first, had to be ended and I would have to start again. It had of course ended in an out of character mess that spread through my online and personal life. A slave that was under that character told me about Sardaria and that I would be welcome there. That I would not be judged by what had occurred with my first character. I would be welcome even though I was at that time just a role player. I trusted her, since she is a friend, and went to the Head Honcho. The one the only, thank God, Arius of Treve. We talked and I went through the interview process with Malthius and in time was in, and so that was the beginning of journey to Sardaria. The real adventure would begin later as I talked and grew. The journey many of us are on, discovering one's true self. What you truly are in your heart of hearts. Let us continue.

My times role playing were greatly enjoyed and still to this day memorable. I met many of the denizens of Sardaria and others who shared the love for Gor and the Philosophy. As time went on, a span of a few months, I had decided after much soul searching and thinking and rethinking. I came to realize many surprising things about myself. I began to truly awake from a slumber I had been put in by society's teachings. The light switch was turned on. On that day, the day I decided to take this Philosophy and make it a part of my everyday life, I realized the real journey I had actually long ago begun. It had started from the first time I picked up "Tarnsman of Gor" by John Norman, and continues to this day. This was the true beginning that was recognized later. This was when the light truly came on in my head. This was when a simple writer turned on the light for a person he had never met.

This was not an easy decision, and anyone who thinks it is had best do some rethinking. I had to literally tear myself apart and rebuild myself from the ground up. Taking out one set of taught behaviors and replacing them with another that I found to be true for me. Even now I still have to fight what was taught to me from birth. It is not something to jump into blindly. Nor is it something accepted in today's society. Men being men and women being women is not politically correct. Remember though, anything worth doing is never easy. If it is not a challenge then what would be the purpose of doing it? If it becomes difficult then work all the harder and go to those with whom you can talk and learn from. We all started somewhere and believe it or not, we started all pretty much the same way.

This is just the beginning. There will be more to come as time goes on and I write more of everything that has happened over these past years, and continues everyday. Taking and putting onto a computer the thoughts on my life. My life after the light came on.

- Jon the Peasant
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