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Greetings Masters and Mistresses,
greetings girls,

This girl has read several times now that slaves are too frightened to post here. This makes her very sad, because she believes that asking questions, and discussion, are very important aspects of growth.

This one can understand being afraid of being found displeasing. She herself much prefers the smiles of Freepersons over their frowns :).

She also believes however, that a girl should not allow her fear of being displeasing to freeze her; to control her actions to the point that she ends up kneeling on the furs, observing, not moving, not serving; not really participating, because, after all, if she moves she might be found displeasing.

She offers the following to those who might find some value in it. It is largely her opinion, and thus, can easily be something of no value :). Also, it is aimed at those trembling in the furs, in hopes that they will perhaps find something in it to help ease their fears :).

The Gorean Public Boards, like the tavern this one frequents, is a place of men. Any girl wishing to serve "on Gor" needs to understand and accept that. It will not, thank goodness, change.

Given that, this one does not find it surprising that the men here do not wish to read post after post from slaves. If we are truthful with ourselves, this one thinks we have to admit we have a rather limited view, one from the position of kneeling on the furs :). It is not the broader view of a Freeperson, nor should it be. Since it is limited, then, this one also accepts that what she sees, and her range of available observations and questions, is also limited. Why should it not be? We are slaves; we kneel.

That is not to say we have no view. We do not wear blinders, as a rule... nor do our Masters blindfold us. We see things. But what we see is, as it should be, from a position of kneeling.

This one reads here voraciously but she posts here infrequently. That is ~not~ because she is afraid to. She simply recognizes this is a place of Freepersons, and when she wishes to post she does several things...

First, she asks herself if what she wishes to say is within her view from a kneeling position :). Some things are, quite simply, not the realm of a slave girl. They are the business of Masters and Mistresses. Period. (This one easily counts all discussions of Honor, Home Stones, and anything starting "Tal, Men" or "Greetings, Freepersons" within this realm... She also considers the disciplining and teaching of errant girls to be this, as the correction of slaves, and the "policing" of the realm of men, is not, to her, something easily done from the position of a kneel :)). In this case, no matter how "important" this girl thinks what she has to say is, she would be intruding on the discussion of Freepersons. If she opens her mouth, she should expect to be found displeasing, and rightfully taught her place at best, punished at worst...

Second, this one asks herself if what she has to say has already been said. If it has, this one is far less likely to wish to post, as she thinks girls posting "A girl seconds that opinion" is probably not the most interesting reading there is :). Some things require "secondings", as a way of reinforcing that that is how it is, but in this one's opinion, most of these are, again, the realm of Freepersons.

Next, and this step is not so cut and dry, a girl asks herself if what she wishes to say is more appropriately said by a Freeperson... not solely of their realm, but better said by them:). The Freepersons of this board are, she thinks, quite an intelligent, and verbal group :). A girl has found they do not usually let things go unsaid. So, if she has any question here, she hushes. It is, after all, their board :)

Next, though sometimes a girl has to let some thoughts perculate overnight here :), a girl asks herself if what she has to say is truly a matter of Gor. Does it, at its basest level, add to discussion, aid, or amuse with Gorean content? This one recently wrote a rather wordy possible post, and sent it to her Master, begging to post it. She put loads of thought into it, and felt at first it was appropriate :). Then, she slept on it, literally, and thought in the morning that what she had written was, in fact, a rather loving tribute to someone, and not really a matter of Gor. She withdrew her request to post it, and as her Master did not gainsay her, she can only assume she was correct in begging to withdraw it :).

Next, this one bounces her post off an available slave girl she trusts :). She asks them to tell her if she has corrections in spelling, or grammar, to make. She asks if what she wished to communicate is communicated :). More importantly, she asks them to tell her if what she has said has been said in the manner of a slave. It is easy, this one thinks, to try to say something in a pleasing manner, but, because of intensity of emotions, or other factors, what one writes does not ~read~ quite as one intended it. Other eyes reading before posting is not a bad idea :).

Finally, a girl sends her potential post to her Master. She is required to do this, but even if she were not, she would :) She does not do this because she is a "doormat" and is checking to see if her opinions match his :). She figures, though, that if her words do not offend him, then they will probably be found "not displeasing" by other Freepersons.

Does all this delay her posting? Yes :) But, she thinks it is good for a slave to delay things sometimes, as a first reaction is not always a pleasing one :).

Does it limit her posts here? Yes :) But, after all, this is a place of men and she is a slave... why should she not expect to be limited?

Are her posts perfect? No :) She knows that, but she is not perfect either:) But she sure tries like heck :).

Does this girl tremble with fear every time she posts? No :) She has done all she can think of ~beforehand~ to see that her posts are as inoffensive as possible to the Freepersons of this board. Yes, she still might displease them. But if she does, she knows she made her ~best~ effort not to, and whatever corrections they make to her are lessons that can, then, only improve her posts in the future. This one absolutely loves to learn to please better :).

This one thinks girls do not need to be terrified to post here. What they can do, though, is think, and think hard, before they do :). Slavery is, to her, not a thing of spontaneity. It is a thing requiring much thought, much questioning, and much self awareness. For her, posting to this venue is an aspect of her slavery. It requires no less :).

This girl wishes all here well.

lexi{P}
property of Master Phormio