ALLABOUTERICA

Someone once told me
Girls use sex to find love,
Guys use love to find sex.

I met a guy a year ago and thought I had actually found Mr. Right. He and I met one night in a bar and built a great friendship over a period of time.He was and is everything I have hoped for in a guy.I have never met someone that made me so excited about life they way he did or does. I kept my guard up for a long time, and did not let his great personality and unbelievable good looks reel me in ( or so I thought I had not). Before I knew it, I was crazy about him. I did not realize how much I cared until I heard him on the local radio station winning his girlfriend ( whom I thought he was not seriously back dating) a dozen roses. Although this broke my heart,I let this pass and still kept on spending time with him. Every time I was around him it was like nothing else mattered.. Should have stopped while I was ahead, but this was the first time I have ever trully cared about someone so the feeling was so new and exciting. Sometimes your heart gets you into things that you can't seem to get out of.
To shorten the story. He had to move back to his home town, a thousand miles away from me and still my feelings for him have grown.The whole time he has been gone we kept in touch on a regular basis until recently when I told him how I had really fallen for him to the point of the big nasty "L" word.Even though he did not say he felt the same some of his actions and the way he genuinely seemed to care for me made me think he would never do anything to hurt me. I just honestly felt he was the one for me. I kept on holding on to hope that he would one day feel the same. After all this time of talking almost everyday I am now lucky if I get to talk to him once every two weeks.Its sad that telling someone you love them makes them want to avoid you and ruin an unbelievable friendship. I thought that love was supposed to be the best thing in the world, but I tell ya it sucks when you have Mr. Right in front of you but he is with someone else.
Well the ending to this story minus lots of the details is he is now with his girlfriend seriously ( I had to hear this at the local post office) and we are going to remain friends. Its just really hard to stop loving someone when your heart tells you that he is the one for you. Although this whole situation did not end how I'd hoped at least I made a friend out of it. I hope that one day this feeling for him fades and my heart allows me to love again. So if you are wondering why I am talking about this on this site its because.. if he knew he loved her all along, then why did he bring me into his life?
SO TO ALL OF YOU PLAYERS OUT THERE.. WATCH OUT OR YOU MIGHT BE NEXT TO FACE THE FURY.

MISUNDERSTOOD
Misunderstanding between what is
and what could have been,
In you I see my future,
In me you see just another friend.

Misunderstanding between words so clear
I hang on your every whisper,
Apparantly naive to what you wanted me to hear.

Misunderstanding from my heart to yours
I wait patiently in your shadow
To see if my love for you endures.

Now I know I misunderstood, and I cry silent tears,
Frustated, I should have known
You would leave me to deal with pain beyond my years.

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