Or didn't do?
Was it negative thinking?
Were good vibes too few?
My heart is so heavy
With guilt and with shame.
There has to be someone
At fault, I can blame.
Don't tell me it's
just the luck of the draw,
Some quirk of fate,
or nature's flaw.
Don't say "These things happen!"
"You can try again"
It makes my blood boil.
It makes my head spin.
I know it's my fault-
I did something wrong.
Not enough sleep...
or sleeping too long.
Maybe what I ate
Was toxic somehow.
I'd do everything
Differently now.
Were my days too sedate?
Were my nights too wild?
What did I do wrong
That cost me my child?
