My palm was pressed firmly against the lock. The faint red glow emanated around my hand. I pushed the window up and slipped though, landing softly on her carpet missing the pile of her clothes. I stood still for a second orientating my self to the dimly lit room I was here almost every night but her room was still a mystery to me. So many things, pictures of Liz and Alex and her trinkets that to me are just junk but to her held a precious memory. I pulled of my boots and put them neatly buy her desk she always complained if I left them out. Not that she was a neat freak but if her mum found them the game would be up and no more of our nightly meting. Her mum had almost caught us once but I’m a light sleep so thankfully I heard her coming. I don’t know what id do if I lost her, if I lost our time together. I walked over to the vanity table she had so many bracelets and clips for her hair. I traced my fingers along the edge of the mirror I loved to watch her brush her hair. The way her silky curls cascade around her shoulders. It was mesmerising I could watch her for hours.

She's in the bath same as every night 11pm she takes a bath and I enter waiting for her. Night is our time the day is so long so filled with problem the same old questions. Where do we come from, how do we get home but when I’m with her none of these questions matter its just her and me. I rake my hand through my unruly brown hair it was raining out side my shirt was damp and clung to me as I pulled it of over my head. Placing it over the chair to dry the moonlight streamed through the window and reflects of her collection of bottles. I raise one of the tiny bottles to the light its her favourite, heaven sent she made it specially for me. She wears it at school it gets me through the days smelling her sweet sent all around me. She loves her bottles. She’s forever telling me about them, she can talk for hours about them. Some times people can talk and be dull and boring but not Maria no she could never boar me. Her voice is soft like the wind it soothes me helps calm me.

I moved to the side of her bed and wince in pain. I got a little over zealous in wrestling practise and I think cracked a rib. LZ told me I needed to rest but I never listen to her, I wouldn’t miss seeing Maria for the world. She’s finished in the bath I can hear the water draining away. I can feel the anticipation building in me as she opens the door and she stand there in all her glory. She’s wearing her favourite pj bottoms there pink her favourite colour and a little black vest top. The black is such a contrast with her pale skin and beautiful blond hair. Which she has piled high on her head the edges are damp where she’s laid in the bath. “Hi” she whispered and I just stand there, we have been meeting for over 6 month’s every night and I was still stunned by her elegance. She walks over to me, no wait Maria doesn’t walk she glides to me. Our lips meet and I close my eyes drinking her in. The way her skin feels on my bear chest. The way her tiny hands grasp my shoulders as if she’s hanging onto me for her life. I feel the same when I’m with her nothing matters. I am grounded.

I’m at peace totally we pull back and continue with our nightly habits. I ease my self down onto the bed will she sits at her vanity letting her blond curls flow down her back. Brushing them out her hair shines in the moonlight like gold. I wince the pain in my side is worse than I thought I tried to heal my self but I couldn’t. “What happened” the concern in her voice is so deep I know she really cares from me. “Nothing don’t worry about it” I try to dismiss it but she’s having none of it and is by my side in a matter of seconds gently brushing the hair out of my eyes. “Its okay really its nothing” she is so persistent. “Ill be back in a sec, I think I have something for it” there she goes again with her herbal cures some would call her wacky. But me id call her caring she bears her heart everyday and no one she’s how much pain it caused her. She comes back holding a pack in her hand that she places over my side I almost yelp. “That’s soooo cold” my teeth are practically chattering. “ I know but its good for you don’t be such a baby” and she leans into kiss me and I feel all of the warmth return to my body. “Hummm” she moans and soon the pack is discarded and forgotten about. All we are bothered about is the feel of skin on skin, lips on lips.

We haven’t made love yet but we will. The time and the place will be perfect every thing will be perfect for her for the girl who I love with all my heart. Some times it scares me how attached we are but then I know its fate. We finally settle down and we talk about the day we’ve had. About what we want for the future, we don’t talk about any alien matter that’s for the daytime and then about 2am with her head resting on my cheats her breathing shallow. I fall into a light sleep. My body is like a clock and at 6am the sunlight streams trough the window. I shut my eyes tightly not wanting to let the day in but I know that this is the way it has to be. I have to leave her, I gently extract my arm and she moves in her sleep. I softly kneel down by the bed taking one last look at her delicate features. She looks so perfect and my heart aches with the knowledge that I will have to see her at school and not be able to touch her. But I shake those thoughts away. I know that when the night comes she will be all mine again. I kiss her on the forehead “I love you Maria” I whisper so quietly as not to wake my sleeping angel. And with that I grab my shirt and boots and slip out of the window locking it behind me as I leave her alone yet again.

I pulled the covers tightly around my self, aching for the loss of his body from my bed “I love you to Max”.