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Over the past few months I’ve learned that life is made up of nothing but choices. Some choices have good results other choices are loaded with nothing but disastrous consequences.

I’d like to think that I’ve made nothing but the best of choices throughout my youth but I know that I would be wrong. I know that I made some really stupid choices that I will never be able to take back no matter how hard I wish that I could.

The best choice I can say that I’ve ever made is the choice to wait for destiny to make its move against me. Not many people can boast that they stood up to destiny and won. But I can and I will… I am no longer afraid because destiny has no control over me. I control it.

I’ve come to find that destiny is just a stumbling block that is set in our way to test whether we are worthy enough to journey down our true path. If we fail that test then we are doomed to repeat it over and over again until we get it right.

When I came upon my stumbling block I was so weak. I didn’t think I could make it but somehow I managed to overcome it. And when I did I came to the realization that the path that I had been on before was nothing but one giant lie after another.

I realized that Michael and I were never meant to be (at least not as lovers). My eyes were opened to the fact that Tess was not the betrayer and murderer that we thought she was. How can you be convicted of murder for a crime that was never committed? Alex wasn’t dead. He and Tess just came up against their own test with destiny. My heart was led to the fact that I, Maria Deluca, could never and will never be considered as the weakling that people had led me to believe that I was.

I fought destiny and I won. I know now that it was because of my refusal to bow down that my true path was presented to me. And by me following that path I found my true friends (Alex/Tess), I found my true passion (writing/composing music), and I found my true purpose in life (raising my family with my true love).

Yes I lost two friends to destiny. Liz and Kyle, they chose the easy way out. I mourn for the two precious lives that were lost to us but I can’t allow that to get in the way of the joyful, thankful state that I am forever in. They will always be close to my heart, the brother and sister that I never had but always wanted, but I can’t help them now. They are in another’s hands.

As for Isabel and Michael, they embraced destiny but still they failed to overcome its stumbling block. They now travel two different paths that will pull them further and further apart from one another. I pity them for that.

Twenty-six year old Maria Deluca closed her journal and prepared herself for bed. She slowly made her way towards the bed and crawled cautiously in so as not to wake her husband.

He woke up and sleepily pulled her into his arms. “Baby what are you doing up so late?”

“Just doing a little writing and thinking.” She replied.

He yawned and then kissed the top of her head. “About?”

She gave a pleasurable sigh as she wiggled comfortably in his arms. “About how lucky I am to have such a wonderful man like you.”

He smiled and showered more kisses on her. “I love you Maria. I’m so glad that I decided to return to Roswell.”

“Oh yeah?” She purred.

“Yeah!” He slowly stroked the back of her arms. “If I hadn’t returned I would still be wondering the world in absolute misery searching for something that was never really meant to be.”

“Well for what it’s worth I’m glad you came back home because I never would have made it without you.” She buried her face in his chest and whispered, “I love you Max. You’re the reason I was able to overcome my so-called destiny.”

!THE END!