Nowhere left to run, nowhwere left to hide
Into little pieces I shatter
What I feel does not matter
Feelings that cause pain
I can't resolve it but I can't refrain
I wait for another day to begin
But for me, another day is another sin
As cold as your heart and as black as your blood
Although it is mortality that I lack
You're non-existent as well like air
The night has ended and as dead as I may seem
You can still hear the cries of the children, scream
When everything else is silent
Filled to the rim with too much hate
I have to sacrify myself at this rate
This feeling crawling from within
I can't even understand what context its in
The lessons of the past
Everything flashes so fast
I resort to self-mutilation
Not looking for an evolution
Scarred for all eternity
Thoughts of what quantity
Reaching out to be broken
Of this nightmare, I will never be woken
She believes there's no one to confide
Blood and tears shed
The hunger of defeat is fed
Depressed and scared of wanting a new world
Locked inside an opening pearl
Dirty as she thought she had become
Not as pure as some
Creatures of this greed
Cannot heal this virgin of creed
Free from this intolerable pain
Inside, what makes me like this I cannot referee
In this dark hole I must remain
Sweet dreams slowly turn into a nightmare
All those happy thoughts turn into things I can't bear
I seem to live in a care-free world
But I really live in a world that's soiled
A little girl taken over by violence
Living a life that cannot be in silence
Alone and slowly fading away
Wishing I wasn't alive for the day
I can't run away from falling
Inside my head, I can hear Death calling
I search for the answers that I wonder if I will ever find
But the truth is deep inside my mind
I reach out to be rescued
But I drown so far down, there is no altitude
Hurt by being devoured, prevention for me to cry
Love was once the death, the death of you
It wasn't until a dying angel told me what to do
Like fallen soldiers, we will learn
Like a fire, we will all burn
Sacrificing your happiness just so you can win
Whatever you do is from the heart within
Locked up emotions like stolen pearls
So innocent, just like little girls
Wake up to the world today
So many people who let their minds decay
I was the heart of my own weakness
It wasn't just you who stole my precious happiness
I'd fallen for a mere mortal
At times he seems to tear me apart
I get driven into another portal
Yet he can recombine me
I'm not the girl I used to be
He is a work of art
But all I have left is a broken heart
Keeping me occupied by drying my tears
I hate you but I will return to my morbid tomb
Inside, I'm like a flower that cannot bloom
I cannot open up to the truth
I can't breathe in the toxicated air
Risks to take but I don't dare
I thought I loved but I don't at all
I hate more than I fall
I always thought it was something beautiful
But the more I thought about it, the more I became hateful
Now I can't live without a tear
My endless past that flashes before me
My nearing future, I can hardly see
I tried so hard to stay away from my thoughts
But in time, it all just rots
You've seen the person I have become
You know where all my thoughts come from
I don't write these poems for my enjoyment
I want to be reminded of my reminiscence
My blood mixes into his stream
He always kills me
No one ever loved me as he
But I can always see that death is near
He could always smell my fear
He broke off my wings
Killing me softly as he sings
"You are mine forever."
The mourning of a sad ending
The clash between two opposites
The becoming of fighting fits
The struggle for survival
The final sentence that will be fianl
The search to find true love
Thekind of person one can belove
Hidden secrets quickly become the truth
Rebellious beings, you are a sinner
Who has blood any thinner?
Blood, thicker than water in your hereditary
Whatever your purgatory
How can something so right turn out to be so wrong?
These treasured friendships I have maintained for so long
Evolution, the making of a new race
It seems more like amazing disgrace
Do angels really deserve to die?
I was once an angel and yet I'm still alive...
If only I could have seen it in your eyes
Touching you made me feel alive
There wasn't anything you would deprive
Now that I think of you, it makes me die inside
How could you torture my pride?
Yet you were so willing to be so sweet
But these honey-combed words I cannot compete
The love I had for you overpowered hate
Why do I feel so guilty that something could be done before it was too late?
Piercing blades cut through my soul
In this play, I cannot play my role
I can feel your pain coming from within
It runs in me, your poison seething in my veins
The skin is old and stained by late September rains
Can't close my eyes when I worry
I die to see the feelings you bury
Standing by your 24 hours
Withering like fallen flowers
When you know that your time is close at hand
Maybe then you'll begin to understand
Rages of glory are benign since birth
Feed the hunger of depression
Satisfy the need for rejection
Vengeance tastes so sweet
Falling down so you can't stand on your own two feet
Re-unite the shadows of your time
Subject to thoughts as if it were your own crime
If I care, do I have to stand and wait?
Love surrounds me like a warm breeze
But my heart so cold is sure to freeze
Instead of taking my own life away
I also believe in dreams come true
Cos I knew this when I found you
See the rain that falls upon another race
Speak gently as the raindrops fall
Listen carefully to the words of a broken doll