Drowning in my loss.
Visions like a prophet
Show me the way it could have been
Erase the tears and eliminate the hurt.
So many things I’ll never have.
Don’t deserve.
Good girls get to play
Bad girls have to stay,
Locked in a land consumed only by pain.
Angels steal even that-
Not good enough to feel the hurt.
Not real enough to be human.
Rats glare down at me,
Cockroaches crawl away from me,
No one will even look at me.
They can’t even bring themselves to stare through me.
Me- the girl who turned the world to grey:
The one who took a pillow and smothered the sun.
Hibernates in loving darkness.
Only the darkness heals my sores:
Only the darkness doesn’t judge.
Still they see something in my eyes,
A telltale sign I’m not alive.
I deserve no happiness. I deserve no pain.
The souls around me laugh with the sound of sunshine filling their voices:
Laughing at the girl sitting in the corner,
Invisible tears pouring from her black and white eyes
Jumping into the darkness
For the sunshine burns her.
Burns blackness into her numb skin.