I do know what I want. And I found it.
I have found a nice, wholesome boy who is taller than me, who I know I can trust, who I can genuinely laugh with and be a total nerd with. His hand fits perfectly intertwined with mine. And although he met my family and they force-fed him baked goods, he still wants to spend time with me. I like this boy. Gasp! (I was talking about him to Jacob's girlfriend, Abby...and she looked at me and said "Lindsey, you know that it's okay to like this boy." And I thought about it. Yes, it is okay for me to like this boy. As a matter of fact, it is better than okay.) I like this boy a lot.
Previously Stated by Me:
People at my school are constantly asking me what I look for in a boy. I think I know what I want, but then when I am presented with it, I want to throw it back. I guess I'm too picky for my own good. I know that everyone has to be a little flexible, but it's hard to be flexible when you aren't accustomed to stretching.
And so, I have decided that what I think I want is a nice, wholesome boy to take home to the parents......a boy who is taller than I am when I wear my heels.......someone who won't flip out because I have more guy friends than girl friends.......a boy who will help me deal with my massive insecurities.......someone who doesn't tell me how beautiful I am just to say it, but says it sincerely.......someone who uses the term "handbag" instead of "purse"......someone I know I can trust........someone I can genuinely laugh with.......somebody who I can be a nerd with when it's time for being nerdy.......someone who will cook with me.......someone who accepts and welcomes my imperfections more than I do........Somewhere there is a boy whose hand will fit perfectly intertwined with mine. All I need are the above stated things and commitment...but I don't know if I'll ever be able to give commitment back. We all need a sense of stability, but let's face it. Commitment is a very scary word, and I think that one reason I don't date is because of it......I am unwilling to take chances and unwilling to be hurt.
From a Different Perspective:
Once again, a favorite quote from Miss Sarah Michelle Crabtree:
"My dad has told me many times that a majority of women that get beaten by their men are smarter and/or more successful then their man, and the beating is an unconscious act of jealousy, a way of proving power. Therefore, i dont feel safe with less intelligent guys, but i can't tolerate the egos of men that are both attractive and smarter than me."
