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I know where I was
I still remember
If I think back
I can see flashes
Of the images I saw on TV
I'm safe now
As safe as a woman,
alone can be
I was safe then
It's two years later
and I still cry
I wasn't directly affected
But it still happened to me
to all of us
A moment of silence
A chill down my back
A lot of chills today
As if to tell me
somethings coming
I don't know if it will be
global, national, local,
Or personal
But I know somethings coming
Will it be good or bad
I can't tell
All I know is it's coming
Will we need another day of
rememberance
Another moment of silence
Hopefully the pain of the day
will fade
The memories never will
For those of us who watched it
For those of us who lived it
For those who are yet to come
This day will always be
A Day Of Rememberance
--9/11/03
I don't know if I should believe it
I can't tell if its from you
or her
I'm afraid to call to ask you
I don't want to run the risk
of it being true
I want to cry
and I start to
But some part of me still
holds onto the hope
That she is jealous
And wants me gone
I want to believe that our friendship
hasn't ended
But it's hard when I can't see you
or hear you
I think the other reason
I can't cry
Is that I expected this to happen
I don't think I will ever
be allowed to be happy
Every time I think I can be
Someone comes along
And it ends
I wonder if I really am only
good for one thing
I can't seem to keep a guy
around any other way
I think my world collapsed today
And I don't know if I'll
survive the wreckage
--3/25/03
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on cold nights
safety in dangerous
situations
love is caring so
much for a person
you can think of
nothing else
love is being together
you and me
love is us
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Where ever I may go
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show
I’m so afraid to show you me
Afraid of what you’ll do
You may laugh or say mean things
I’m afraid I may lose you
I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me
But I need you to try and understand
I need you to accept what you see
So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes
I’ll strip off my coats real slow
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show
Now my coats are all stripped off
I feel naked, bare, and cold
And if you still love me with
All that you see
You are my friend,
Pure as gold
I need to save my paintbrush, though
And hold it in my hand
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn’t understand
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true
But please let me keep my paintbrush
With me
Until I love me too
--1999
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I want to see ME happy
The thought of being happy
scares me
I was happy once or twice
I got hurt
Sadness is safe
But sadness is lonely
Would you join me in my sorrow
Or would you try to make
me smile
I know I make you happy
And I know you make me smile
But deep inside the fear jumps up
And says to hide my heart
I want to take this chance wit you
But I know 3 strikes, you're out
I want to say OK let's go
But I know to play it safe
I know love has no guarantee
But I want to take a chance
Can I make you happy
Would you make me smile
I want to see US happy
--1999