My PCOS Journal

Feel free to read the Journal. It picks up right where "My Story" leaves off.

April 1, 2001:

Surprise, Surprise I am still having my period, but it's getting lighter. I am excited that I got it. You regulars are thinking that I'm psycho, but trust me it's exciting. Still doing the Atkins Diet, checked my weight, and I think I am down 10 lbs. I think that's pretty good for 3 weeks. I am getting used to it. I still have cravings, but I am getting used to it.

April 16, 2001

Had a major emotional break-down on Sunday night. I rarely cry, but I cried, and wouldn't stop. I wonder if I am having PMS? My husband is so great. I am getting so emotional about almost anything. I cried over a church video I played to my church Sunday School kids. I cried while watching some dumb commercial on TV...I think i've lost it!

April 25, 2001

I am very excited because for the first time, possibly ever off BC, I got AF at exactly the same time for 2 months!!! That's great news for me! I have been reading posts on UB and have decided to start taking a low-dose adult aspirin. It's supposed to help. I have been having an increase in before AF cramps, but I am not sure if it's a PMS thing or if it is related to PCOS. But Hooray for the cycle. I have also been very vigilant in recording my daily temperature. I'm all over the place, and almost frigid :-) Let me know what you think?!

May 16, 2001

Well things have changed slightly since my last post. I did not get AF as expected, I got her cousin Spot for only 3 days. I am trying to see the positive side to it, but it's hard. Anyway, on Monday I started taking a Progesterone drug (Prometrium) to hopefully kick start AF again, since it's about time again. Boy am I an emotional wreck! Sheesh! What a witch! My temp went way up today which usually indicates that ovulation has occurred. I have only felt a twinging in the left side since Tuesday, and usually the twinges are on both sides, so I am hoping that I o'd on my own with the Progesterone. Hopefully after AF (+++++++ thinking) I will start on Clomid, with the Dr. approval (see I diagnosis & medicate myself now). Talked to a good friend from High School who found out that after several years of "trying" that they are expecting in November! I was so excited for her. I have not let myself get emotionally raw to the idea of anyone else being pg, I believe that everyone has the right to, and I should be happy for them. Keep checking back! And send some Baby dust this way ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

June - July 2001- (Written in July, forget to upload)

I had a huge family reunion in June and my DH and I moved. It was way stressful. I stopped my diet. I have lost a total of 33 pounds. Since I went off the diet I have not gained any weight back (which is a miracle). I may have O'd on my own last month, but I am not sure. Things in life just keep moving on. I am not ready at this point to even think about a child. Life is too busy. I am also very conscience about it all the time. This weight loss has been such a morale booster for me. I have never shopped so much in my life. I was bad with my temperature. I didn't temp for 3 or 4 weeks {slapping my hand} but I have jumped back on the bandwagon.

September 10, 2001

OK-Huge update. 5 positive HPT's! I still don't believe it. I have a Doctor's appointment on Thursday. I went to my OB/GYN on Thursday of last week and had an exam. I told him I wanted to get more aggressive on the fertility side. He gave me 50mg of Clomid and an antibiotic. Each said to not take while you're pregnant so I grudgingly took a test just to be on the safe side and voila a positive test. I did not believe it so I waited and went and got a second pack of 3 ( different brand) and took 2 and both came out positive. I waited until Sunday and took another and it was positive again. It's funny cause not only was I not expecting this, I don't believe it. I just know that it will be a false positive. As much as I think that, I can't help but remain hopeful. I mean, I have pretty much past that margin of error. It's scary! I am more confused than ever now. Now if I am pregnant, I know that PCOS is at high risk for miscarriage. I am still taking my Glucophage, because of things that I have read, plus if I am not pregnant, I don't want to have to start over again and get those nasty doo-doo symptoms again. {me pulling hair out} Thanks to Gretchen who reminded me to update!