My name is Shelly Wickens otherwise know as Banni. I am a diabetic. When I found out, I withdrew into myself. I could not fathom the idea this was happening to me. Up to this point all I knew was every one I ever knew that was diabetic died. I finally found a person I could spend the rest of my life with only for him to loose me too soon.

Poor Gary, he could do nothing right. Did not matter what it was. Every thing he did was wrong. He tried to find out as much as he could about this thing that was turning his lady inside out. Was no good. I didn't even know what was wrong. We never talked. If I didn't know, how could he know. This almost caused me to loose the best thing that ever happened to me.

One day a year later, I woke up. Came to my sences so to speak. I pulled myself together and got myself on the right track. I realized then that I almost lost Gary. He was looking for a new apartment. I sat him down and told him where I was. I explained everything to him. What was going on with me. I think what brought me back was that I just lost my mother. It hit home deeply.

I started reading every thing I could get my hands on. Diets, exercize and all the things that could go wrong if I didn't look after myself. I started to look into herbs and juicing. I found that ginsing could help. They don't know how it works, but it does. There is also a juice for the pancreas. It works too. Doing this, I have been able to bring my blood sugars down to 5.5 average.

This was 8 years ago now. Gary and I have been married for 61/2 years. Things have gotten much better. I now have confidence in myself and the control of my diabetes. We have never been happier.

It is now 2004 and my meds have stopped working. I had to do what I didn't want to. Went on the needle. I take 20 units of insulin a day plus my metformin three times a day. Just what I need. A new learning curve. I am finding that some foods I could eat before, I can't eat now. If I do my sugars go way up. I don't know about any one else but I am finding that I am having more trouble with my weight too. It is so frustrating. I am having trouble getting back down to my average. The only thing I am thankfull for is that I am still alive.

Well another 4 years have gone by. Diabetes is doing good. I am still having trouble with the weight issue but numbers are down. That is good. What is not good is now I have been told that I have breast cancer. Thanks to my precious, the lump was found early. She likes to cuddle like a baby in my arms and nede my breast. Well this day she did as usual and hit a sensitive spot so I checked it out and there it was. Got it seen to and next week I go in and have the lump removed. Then 4-5 weeks of radiation. Hopefully that will be the last of it.


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