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Scroll to the bottom to hear the words written below. This clip is from Amends, where Angel feels he needs to give up everything so he can't hurt again. The Heart Of An Angel . . .

Buffy: Angel.
Angel:I bet half the kids down there are already awake. Lying in their beds, sneaking downstairs, waiting for day.
Buffy: Angel, please. I need you to get inside. There's only a few minutes left.
Angel: I know. I can smell the sunrise long before it comes.
Buffy: I don't have time to explain, but you just have to trust me. That thing that was haunting you -
Angel: It wasn't haunting me. It was showing me.
Buffy: Showing you?
Angel: What I am.
Buffy: Were.
Angel: And ever shall be. Look, I wanted to know why I was back. Now I do.
Buffy: You don't know. Some great evil takes credit for bringing you back and you buy it? You just give up?
Angel: I can't do it again, Buffy. I can't become a killer.
Buffy: Then fight it.
Angel: It's too hard.
Buffy: Angel, please. You have to get inside.
Angel: It told me to kill you. You were in the dream - you know. It told me to lose my soul in you and become a monster again.
Buffy: I know what it told you. What does it matter?
Angel: Because I wanted to! Because I want you so badly. I want to take comfort in you, and I know it will cost me my soul, and a part of me doesn't care. I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man.
Buffy: You're weak. Everybody is. Everybody fails. Maybe this evil did bring you back, but if it did, it's because it needs you. And that means you can hurt it. Angel, you have the power to do real good. To make amends. But if you die now, then all that you ever were was a monster. Angel, please. The sun is coming up.
Angel: Just go.
Buffy: I won't.
Angel: Do you think this is simple? Do you think there's an easy answer? You can never understand what I've done. Now go.
Buffy: You are not staying here. I won't let you.
Angel: (attacks her) Am I anything worth saving? Am I a righteous man? The world wants me gone.
Buffy: What about me? I love you so much. And I tried to make you go away. I killed you, and it didn't help. And I hate it. I hate that it's so hard. And you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. God, I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. I can't.
Angel: Buffy, please. Just this once, let me be strong.
Buffy: Strong is fighting. It's hard, and it's painful, and it's everyday. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together. But if you're too much of a coward for that, then burn. If I can't convince you that you belong in this world, then I don't know what can. But do not expect me to watch, and don't expect me to mourn for you, because -
Angel, Buffy: (both realize it's snowing).
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