I Knew that this moment would come in time:
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly.
And I'm not about to throw words to the wind.
When I said, "I love you" that's what I meant.
I want you to know that I stand right by your side.
I know you need more from me,
Than I can give so now we'll see.
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me

I need to know if you were real.
I'd hat to think that I'd been fooled again.
You gave me the word,
How could I ask for more?
There's a light in your eyes-
Did you leave that light bruning for me?

June 12, 2001
Keep You

I'm the same outside.
I'm coming unglued.
I'm losing my hold.
I'm hoping against hope.
Because I cant keep you.

So what if I am witty?
So what if I am smart?
So what if I am pretty?
I still cant keep you.

I wish you could see
I've done everything for you
I've given everything to you
But it's made no difference.
I want to keep you.
Bahama Kid:
He was smiling and shit.
When she asked him out
He was truly high.
What's up with that!?
Snap                          
                                  
I waved Goodbye.      
You'd already turned, 
Blocking my smile.      .
I didnt know that
You cried too.

Snap - it was gone
You forgot
My heart bled dry
Snap - silence
"Puppy's Face

You were so soft and sweet
Could our paths meet
I hoped quietly in the night

Time passed, ate the space
And gently I touched your face
Why did it feel so right?

We played in the park
I held you close as it got dark
And warded off your fright

Something began to grow
But then I ddint not know
I saw another light

Now it is too late
I dont belive in fate
And lack the strength to fight

My puppy's soft face
Has grown ragged in this place
Painful in my sight

For so long I was blind
to what was at my hind
You lied silent in you blight

I cannot watch you slain
Or stant to see your pain
I've left you to the night
i'm on the our
and you're all in.
but i'm insde,
holding within
so i can live.
i want to try
to feel alive

if i released
all my wrong
i'd find my peace.
though i seem strong
i'm ill at ease.
the same old song
that will nto cease:
when will i belong?

4.16.02
The Race

Everyday I fall behind
Farther from the pack
My spirit is starving
For energy from you

I cant seem to catch up
My heart is burning
And my limbs are weary
I was not prepared for this

My fear pushes you on
So dont look back like that
Not supposed to see me
As I fall, hard and fast

So hard to sustain
The happy sunny girl
So sad to watch her
She's withering away

Please let the vision fade
Interred with dust and dirt
Keep your sight forward now
And you'll cross the fninish line.
Don't Look at Me Like That

Often Times, I envy the pretty one,
The desireable ones everyone wants
To love.  More often still, I know that
Existing like that is not for me.

Cause I like to keep things simple
My friends shall forever remain so
Dont try to come seeking me, Yea
I've seen you look at me like that.

I've got to clear things up.  Please,
Understand that No One is good enough.
Just One.  I love having you around.
I want you to say around, now.

I hear it all too often, and I cant
Believe what you see me as.  No, that
Isnt me.  Oh, you forget yourself.
--I have a heart and it bleeds too.--

You wont ever be able to understand
Just what is best for me.  I know.
Only One.  I wont justify myself.
Dont you look at me like that.
Our Song

The melody paints the setting,
The lyrics bring me to you.
It secretly tells our story.
Dont you hear it too?

We shall stay ever embracing
In the chords of our song.
I am yours, You are mind
Nothing will ever go wrong

Slowly memories filter in
I remember the happy times
Smile at my innocence
And twirl with the rhymes

Suddenly the key change
Untainted happiness is ours
I am lifted off the ground
With loves that outshines the stars

Can I stay with you,
Forever and a day?
You know I'd give anything
Just to stay this way

Nothing will ever go wrong
Here inside our song.
  Messing Up

   When I wake up in someone else's bed
   Will you say it was yours instead?
   And when I find I find I'm lead astray
   Will you let me stay?
   Cause I dont like what I'm becoming
   I'm running to a beat someone else is drumming
   No, no, I can't choose a dream
   It makes me scream
   When they talk that way I feel dumb
   My hands are going numb
   If you are grinding your teeth
   How will you be able to eat?
   The sidewalk is all torn up
   We're not made of the right stuff
   In the light of the moon
   We begin to fix the ruins