30.12.2003 Tue.

今日lunch 約左edwin 食飯.... 又係o個間餐廳.....今次我自己入左去坐呀......之前覺得自己一個入去坐住先好似唔係咁好...但原來都冇咩特別o者....

食完飯...edwin 陪左我行去自修室....^^ 我其實知佢幾趕o架..... 但佢都陪我呀....嘻嘻....^^

我特登好早就約左佢聽日陪我lu..... 我一路食飯o個時...一路好期待聽日添.....雖然未諗到做咩....

我溫書溫到3點幾......之後, 去左阿婆度.....幫兩個表弟睇功課.....同食晚飯....兩個阿姨都o係度呀........光姨仲俾左兩個東方文華o既朱古力cake 我返屋企食添呀.... ^^

edwin放左工打俾我....因為我之前搵佢..佢開緊會呀.... 今日佢去左踢波呀....

我就要去補習....

搭地鐵o個時....見返一個曾經問我借$ o既男人... 佢竟然再一次問我拎$ 囉...我之後, 真係勁勁嬲呀.... 唔開心到想喊呀... 我心諗.....之前o個次edwin 話佢分明呃我...我點到唔信....唔肯信係真...但係今日終於我要接受呢一個係事實....所以好唔開心呀...>.<

補習o個時..見到狗糧...講左俾狗糧聽......見到狗糧之前...又打左俾edwin....佢訓緊o架....因為佢9點幾先踢波.....我第一次唔開心打俾佢....我本身諗住佢訓覺唔嘈佢......但原來佢會理我o架.....我唔想因為o個個人而攪到我喊......所以一定要忍住唔喊...

今日補習o個度...test 呀.....有listening 囉...我聽到晒......但寫到幾多..我都係盡人事.......做唔晒卷呀...差幾條proof-reading......

夜晚返到屋企沖完涼....edwin 打俾我.....佢話聽日陪唔到我囉...佢話我又未諗到有咩好做.......所以佢d friend 話去bar 飲野.... 佢又應承佢d friend law...我梗係勁勁唔開心啦.... 仲攪到我咁期待喎.......>.< 但其實我喊晒.....我個腦同以前有d 唔痛....我以前....係真係好心痛....好頭痛.....諗好多野...但今次...我發覺得自己個腦一路喊.....一路都係空o架....>.< 唔開心係有...但其實我都真係有d 心淡..... 我o係o個時已經應承自己.......每一次我再約佢...我一定要佢firm 實我... 我唔想再因為呢d 野而俾佢hurt 我呀.....佢死都話2號陪返我.....聽日就冇得講....我講多左次聽日....佢又cup 左我線喇....>.<

阿gil 本身約我聽日打牌...我突然唔想打.....原來..我同佢地打...我想同佢地玩到夜一夜先返屋企.... 激下edwin........所以我未收聲就打左俾阿gil...我以為我可以control 到自己.....但原來唔得...我一聽到佢把聲...就喊到收唔到聲....攪到阿gil 好無奈...我話唔想打牌...等我講晒件事俾佢聽.... 佢就係咁幫我話edwin 唔o岩..係佢衰咁.... 攪到我喊得仲緊要....之後, 佢唔知講咩笑.,, 攪到我笑返....^^ 之後....我就再試下打俾edwin.....佢已經熄左手提呀....所以我知佢未訓.....所以我打左去佢屋企.....佢都仲係好勞氣....>.< 但我之後, 叫佢咁約定星期五就唔好反口咁佢都話ok.......咁之後, 我梗係開始做舒緩氣氛o既工作啦... 講下早d 訓呀...o個d .......之後, 佢d 態度都好返好多....

訓覺之前心情雖然平復...但我諗諗下...我聽晚會好似平安夜咁寂寞咁由阿gil 屋企走....我就好唔開心.......又開始喊....喊左一整晚....

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