12.06.2003 Thur.

重申一次....日記係我o既...我只係將每一日我睇唔過眼...我o既所思所想寫o係度......唔鍾意睇到o既...大抵可以不理.....無謂辛苦自己丫...

我認我近排態度超不友善...我自己係好情緒不穩... 好憫....多謝阿杰o既o個篇野....sorry...我唔太同意你o既講法.....尋日我話成班係廢人..我唔記得講....其實係包埋我自己喎.....我冇要求任何人去睇我面色.....好多時..我只係想講心底o既說話...竟然會俾人話我幫阿sir講野...咁我冇野好講...我覺得最緊要係知自己廢囉....今日睇返彩色世界(colourful world)有句對白...滕滕講o既「知恥近乎勇」囉.....要知衰...先有翻身o既餘地o架.....我冇人咁叻...冇人咁幸福....o係學校就係咁乜都冇....你話我自大....自已為了不起...你錯喇.....我可以話俾你聽...我係一個極度自卑心重o既人.....就係因為我唔夠人好...唔夠人叻.....我妒忌....我唔抵得.....正正因為我o既唔抵得..就促使到我要去進步...去叻過晒o係我前面o既人.....我相信永遠都會有人o係我前面.....但...宜家o既我...一d 都唔會放棄....鬆懈....其實我呢年幾兩年o既目標係好明確...好簡單jei...我要入到U.....that's all!!

今日起身o既時候...心情勁靚靚o架......但返到學校...上左一堂之後...我o既靚心情都走晒lu.....見到d 同學仔..親親愛愛....日日就o係度談談情....說說愛....我都有情緒o架....我會妒忌....我會唔抵得o架......今朝都同polly 傾過....佢叫我諗下一d 佢地就算日日見都未必做過o既野.....我好感激polly....多謝佢....其實同佢傾完之後, 都冇乜野lu.....

尋日俾左本手冊miss chow 記優點...今日拎返....嘩....又多3個優點喇....^^ 攪到我on duty o個時....都唔多想on lu.....^^

chem test 派返lu.....好唔滿意o既成績16分.......下次一定要努力努先得.....

今日第一次同edwin 講自己個心up 埋up 埋o既野.....send 左個message 同佢講...我唔開心.....因為樣樣野都好似做唔到我期望咁.....好辛苦.....覺得自己好冇用...好差...好唔得......佢放工先睇到問我咩事..我又訓緊覺....未醒...個腦轉唔到...之後, 醒d 先再phone 佢....同佢講....我好咁o既感覺....係好多好多複雜o既野炒埋一碟先會攪到自己咁.....>.< 所以都唔係好知點講.....佢話佢部電話唔識震呀....用左唔係好耐咋....就咁喇..真係唔掂....

edwin 放左學之後, 再打俾我...我已經睇完阿杰篇野.....唉.......糟人誤解......以為我係一個好強好自大o既女仔......錯喇....我極度自卑呀......一路講俾edwin 聽....一路忍住唔喊....斷下斷下先講到少少......edwin 第一次聽到我靜左都冇話要收線呀.....但最尾都係喊左....一喊又講唔到野.....之後講多左一陣就收左線lu....今日心情好少少少先講埋落去...^^ o係o個一刻我好慶幸原來其實自己都有一個咁好o既男朋友.....所以我漸漸知道好多野都唔洗恨o架....因為其實自己已經有啦...終於諗通polly 今日同我講o既野.....^^

其實心情o係收左線之後, 都平伏唔到....直到阿屎同ava 打唻同我傾左一陣.....我又開心返喇......^^ 可能我就係需要呢一d同我冇乜日常生活上o既摩擦o既朋友仔...次次同佢地一齊都好開心....好多野講....即使已經隔左咁耐冇見.....依然開心....^^犀利!!!

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