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Oct 2004 (Sat) 今日gei 感覺好怪~~~ 我都唔知點講..............仲 知係d 唔好gei 感覺la.......今日依舊係死o下死o下.......... but 比以前仲死........ 好似愈o黎愈病咁........ 我真係好想大病一場~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 咁樣可能令我好d......... 唔駛咁辛苦~!!!
琴晚佢打o左俾我....... 種感覺唔知點咁......... 好似好陌生~ 我同佢都好耐無講電話la....... 一時間有d 唔係幾習慣~~~ 佢琴晚講gei o野...... 我都唔知有咩用意~ 只係知佢好想將之前發生過gei o野話我知....... 但係......................... 我有d 唔明佢想講咩.................. 我發覺我愈o黎愈唔明佢la................ 同佢gei 距離好似愈o黎愈遠~~~ 我好驚有一日會發生一d 我唔想佢發生gei o野~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 我琴日喊o左好耐~ 唔係coz 佢對我唔好~反而我覺得佢對我好好ar..... but 佢.............. 一時俾失望我~一時俾希望我~ 令到我都唔知點好~!!!!!! 自從佢同我講o左個我唔想聽gei 消息之後,我個心就好似有個洞~!!! d 血不停不停咁流....... 唔知幾時會停~ but........ 總有一日會流乾流淨~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 天ar................... 我依家已經好辛苦ga la........ 你仲我辛苦到幾時ar?? 幾時sin 可以停ar?? 我依家已經痛到無咩知覺la.............. 痛到麻木曬la........"痛" .............. 依家對我o黎講.............. 已經無咩野la...............~!!!! 我依家同一個植物人都差唔多........... 無曬感覺.......... 愈o黎愈唔知自己想點...........??? 愈o黎愈唔知自己.......仲有能力做d 咩........???我都好想一個人靜o下.............去一個好靜,無煩惱,唔會痛,好free gei 地方~!!!!! 咩人都唔理~ 咩事都唔做~ 橫掂都無人理我ga la...... 我走o左,可能無人會知~~~
我依家成日都o係度諗............ 咩都要身邊gei 人擔心我~~~ 自己唔開心就好la..... 點解仲要令到身邊gei 人都唔開心ar??? 自己愈o黎愈衰........... 愈o黎愈憎我自己la............. 可能........................依個世界上無o左"我"真會好d~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Name: 阿豆 ~^____^~ Birth: 15 July Sex: Female Location: H. K. ICQ: 73057280
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