The Biggest Lie

Whether I did the right thing or not, God knew. What I only knew was that, I saved a mortal life at least.
Becky was my secretary. She had a pair of charming eyes that mesmerized all walking men on earth, including me, who was a young man in early twenties desiring for a girlfriend. So as she, longing to meet another half for the rest of her life. Therefore, within a month since we met, we started dating.
Yet, my gorgeous secondary buddy, Ian, had gotten involved in the affairs. In those days, he was the one who never had the nerve to compete with me. I had always been the one who had everything under control, but not him. He looked up to me in our teens.
For that reason, when I discovered their discreet behaviour committed at my back, both of them were scared to death. At that moment, I put all the blame on Ian.
“You Judas!” I bellowed at him, who was shaking noticeably. Though I paid no attention to it at the time being, because of my anger, which was boiling inside my body. I swore at him, which had to have frightened Becky. She dashed out from the room where we were in. I fell into my chair exhaustedly. Ian stole a glance at me, and then crept out of the room and went for Becky.
After the burning fire died down inside me, a consideration of what I had done made me regret.
My assistant supplied me the information about the direction they had taken. Using some logical judgement, I tried the uppermost floor in the building. I found Ian attempting to persuade Becky to step down from the edge.
When Becky spotted me, she screeched, “Ah! Miles! (That was my name.)” Tears were rolling down from her appealing eyes. “I don’t mean to hurt you! I just… I just can’t help it! I love you, Miles. I always do. But I can’t live without Ian! I just can’t refrain from loving him! I’m sorry, Miles!”
I was sure that I heard my heart break. Ian’s eyes were begging me. I always knew it’s meaning: let him have her. If I said no, undoubtedly Becky would jump off. Well, what choice did I have?
So, I, fighting back my tears, mumbled, “You need not apologize. I don’t love you anymore.” It was the biggest lie in my life. I did not wait to listen to what they said. If I did, I would be the one who committed suicide in no doubt.
Sitting in my office and snuffling, I picked up my G-2 Pilot blue ball pen and wrote down the following sentence in my diary, “Today, I’ve lost my girl and buddy.”

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於２００３年１０月２６日
域多星球