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| In Loving Memory Alexandria Marie Brown August 30, 1999 - September 19, 2001 |
| Time may hide our sadness. A smile may hide our tears, But the memories you have left us... Will remain through the years. |
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| Allie was born 2 weeks late on August 30, 1999 in the morning. She cried a lot when she was young, and I didn't know it was cancer that made her cry. I made excuses for it like teething, earache, gas pain or whatever. I didn't know she had the cancer until she developed a very high fever. I rushed her to the doctor and they said she was anemic. So, they sent Allie to a specialist, His name was Dr. Chu. I will never forget that grim day whenever he told me my baby girl had CML. I couldn't believe it. She went into the hospital and underwent treatments. About 2 months later she started the fevers again. So they ran more tests and found out it mutated into ALL. So now she's going through even more chemo! At this time, Dr. Chu said she should have a Bone Marrow Transplant and that is the only way to save her life. So I went along and made arrangements to get her a BMT. We were at Cardinal Glennon Hospital in St. Louis, but thet couldn't do the BMT there, so we made the trip up to Omaha, Nebraska, to the University of Omaha Medical Center. I chose that place because it was close to family, so that if I needed anything, they were right there. Well, Allie went into the hospital, and for 2 days they gave her a strong chemo followed by 3 days of radiation. After a while, the drugs and radiation took its toll on her young fragile body. She couldn't breathe on her own, so they placed her on a respirator. Each day I prayed, cried and thought about her and what she's going through. I told God she is in your hands. If it be your will, let her live, if not, let it be your will not mine. She went on the respirator on August 19, 2001. She celebrated her birthday on it. Actually, her family celebrated her birthday, because she wasn't conscious. While she was on there, they still ran tests to see what was causing her to have a hard time breathing. Her lungs became use to the machine, so after about 1 month on it, they turned off the vent. She died the same day. It hurts looking back to all the pain and suffering she endured. I remember her central line becoming infected, so I had to help hold her down while they placed a temporary IV in her. Needless to say, she suffered greatly. She isn't suffering anymore down here on earth, because she is with the great family of God on high; But as for me, I cannot sleep sometimes because of the memory of her looking at me and crying for me. Her last words before they put her on that respirator was, "MOMMY". I felt helpless, completely helpless. Now I have the daily tasks of explaining to her older sisters what happened to her. Allie has 2 sisters, Kyrie (11) and Brittany (4). Cancer needs to be stopped one way or another! |
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| He Only Took My Hand Last night while I was trying to sleep, My son's voice I did hear I opened my eyes and looked around, But he did not appear. He said:"Mom you've got to listen, You've got to understand God didn't take me from you, mom He only took my hand. When I called out in pain that night, The instant that I died, He reached down and took my hand, And pulled me to His side. He pulled me up and saved me From the misery and pain. My body was hurt so badly inside, I could never be the same. My search is really over now, I've found happiness within, All the answers to my empty dreams And all that might have been. I love you all and miss you so, And I'll always be nearby. My body's gone forever, But my spirit will never die! And so, you must all go on now, Live one day at a time. Just understand- God did not take me from you, He only took my hand. Author Unknown |
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| Memories are like threads of gold... They never tarnish or grow old. |
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| Alexandria is also on the One Voice Foundation "Faces Of Angels" webpage, The Leukemia Memorial Wall, and also on the Cancer Kids Memorial Wall. Please stop by these sites also. Thanks! |
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