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| In loving memory of Mitchell-Horne Nienaber Do not cry I did not die My time just came to part But I will always be close to your heart. I am resting in a peaceful place If you see me now I wear a happy face. God gives me a lot of care and love I am here in heaven above so do not cry because I didn't die. Keep me alive in your heart Because from there I'll never part When I died I kept on living I'm your angel up in heaven You'll always have my love seeing you through Remember I love all of you Author Unknown |
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| Mitch was born on the 30-01-1999 in Natal. He weighed 3,0kg and was a very healthy baby and boy until the age of six years old when he was diagnosed with ALL Leukemia. I then started writing a book for him so that one day when he was older he would understand what happened to him..... he could even maybe show his kids one day. My darling son never got to read his book. Dear Mitchell I am writing this book to you so that one day when you are older you will understand what has happened to you when you were young. Well my darling your cancer story starts like this..... You started getting a temperature the weekend of the 25th October 1998, we took you back and forward to the doctor that weekend and we were told you just had a bad viral infection. The Monday morning they did a test and told us that you have cancer. Mommy and daddy told the doctors that they were mad because you were such a healthy child. You were in the hospital for 2 weeks in East Londen and were very ill. We then had to take you to Cape Town for further test and that is were you will start your chemo. In Cape Town they did further test's on you as the doctors did not know what type of Leukemia you had. They did test's on you for 2 weeks and then at the end of the day they told us they didnt think you had cancer..... you will not believe how happy mommy and daddy were. We believed God had healed you. The doctors told us to be safe we had to take you for a blood test once a week which you didn't mind doing. Well, we were so happy to be back home. You went back to school for the last two weeks and even took part in your school concert. You were still a bit weak at times but you insisted on going to school. We could not believe how well you were doing as you were very sick. You went every Friday for a blood test for 6 weeks and then we would get a phone call from Dr Pohl saying everything is fine...praise God. Every test showed no sign's of cancer. Then on the 3rd of December we got the call from Dr Pohl... I can remember it so well it took him awhile to say hello.... then I knew something was wrong...... Your Doctor was such a lovely person. He then told us that the cancer was back and we had to be in Cape Town on Monday the 6th of Dec. We were very scared and I was very angry, I at times was angry with God, because I believed that God healed you, but then instead God prepared us in Cape Town for what was going to happen. On the 8th of December they finally diagnosed your cancer...you had All Leukemia and that you would have to have chemo for 3 years........ they said it was one of the better Leukemia's we were very grateful for that. Your chemo started on the same day. You did so well even the doctors were shocked. You did not mind the needles or the tablets or drips but boy they must not give you syrup then you would go mad. You were such a brave little boy. You were at times a bit moody with chemo but then other day's you were so happy. You started getting a big appetite...you could eat everything you see. Something I will never forget your first night in hospital, we just left to unpack our stuff you called the doctor to tell them you were hungry. They said they would make you something. When asked what do you want...you said you wanted spare ribs and chips....as hospitals dont have ribs they phoned us and we bought you a take away. The rest of your stay in Cape Town went well. We all went to a sea cottage where we stayed and we just took you in every day for your treatment. Some days were good...some a bit bad, but nothing to serious. They said you were a star patient you got so good you even reset your drip at times...which every time almost gave me a heart attack, you even told them which vein to use for your chemo. The great news came after so many weeks that we could go back home and you could have some of the chemo there but will have to return in April 1999.... Back home in January everything went great you have by now picked up alot of weight. It looked so funny because you were always so thin. Your hair didn't fall out that much, all your cousin's shaved there hair just in case your hair started falling out. You could not wait to start school, you even tried to fit in your old school clothes...but believe me they did not fit. Then the morning of the 14th of January 1999 you woke up with a fever we took you to the hospital and they put a drip on...your mouth was full of sores. This was my last entry into the book...............Mitchell just got worse by the day he went into a depression but 48 hours later he was out of it. By the Monday Mitch just started getting worse they told us it was because his blood count was so low. They then put a reverse barring system in his room we had to wear masks and gowns before we came into his room, by that time it was only myself and Dean who was allowed in. The sores (septicemia) in his mouth got so bad we had to feed him threw his nose...he drank alot of coke. Even though he was so sick he still joked and smiled at us. On the Wednesday they told us he had some water on his lungs. They put another drip on him he had so many. Still the doctors were hopeful he would overcome the virus. THURSDAY 21 JANUARY 1999 Mitchell looked like a angel that morning. I dont think he ever looked more beautiful than that morning. We still watched a movie together and spoke. We phoned the minister that morning and asked if they could come and anoint Mitch with oil which they did at 13hoo. Mitch said he wanted daddy to come and visit him...that was 3 hours before he died. Dean came around and he still spoke to us and gave us a smile his veins collapsed before that but we still did not think anything because we know that it happens when they are on chemo. I went for a walk and when I came back into his room they had put Mitch on oxygen. I just stood there and started crying. I just couldn't stop crying. Mitch, then asked me what was wrong...I told him I bumped my toe. He then said dont worry mommy...it wont be sore long. He was then anointed with oil and Dean and I just couldn't stop crying. Still we or the doctors didn't think anything wrong. The doctor ordered a xray to see his lungs. They told us then that they have to drain his lungs as there was to much water on them. Before we went out the room he still asked Dean for some coke as we stood at his bed...we told him that we love him he said I love you too mommy and daddy I will see you now now......... that was his last words he has spoken. The doctors drained his lungs and told us he will breathe easier now and everything will be okay. We went back into his room and he did not respond to us. His breathing was very bad and his eyes were high up in his head, we then called the doctor and they told us to please leave the room. Dean and I just stood there wanting to know what is going on he screamed at us and told us to get out and the door was shut behind us. Still we had no idea. Then the worst nightmare started when they told us that Mitch is no longer here anymore. The septicemia went to his brain, they say he went into a coma. We are very grateful that Mitch had no pain when he died. Dean and I spent 2 hours with Mitchell after he died. He looked so beautiful. He looked like an angel...he his our angel...up in heaven now. Mitch was so very brave right through his Leukemia treatment, he never complained once. When Mitch said I love you to and mommy daddy I will see you now now.......... for him up in heaven it is now now...for us it feels like for ever. Mitchell's live ended on earth at 14h24 on the 21 January 1999. |
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| To my darling son Mitchell memories of you are the loveliest things that last from day to day They cant get lost, they cant wear out and they can never ever be taken away from mommy I love and miss you more than words can say Until I see you again my darling angel Love Mommy |
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| This poem was written by Mitchell's Brother Gareth Dear Mitchell I wish you were not dead I think of you every day and wish you could come back to us, I will then be very happy If there was a wish I could have it would be: to have you alive on earth I know you are in a better place know I will give my life to be with you I miss you and love you Gareth |
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| Mitch you are the brightest shining star in Heaven! |
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