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3o.11.o5
the invasion...
so they'll be here in... a bit. or more than a bit. like... a couple of hours maybe. well, dad's about to leave to go pick them up from the airport... a part of me is heaps excited, and another part if kind of dreading it. blah. ah wellz. =)
wednesday-itis as jill calls it. blah. ah well. but did get to history blog today, amidst that stupid jack the ripper video... and so now gmail conversations don't need to be read as carefully. =) hehe. ah wellz.
well, guess who got their braces off? =))) tis so awesome... but really weird feeling too... but madness. =)) hehe.
what else to write? blah. lol. this is silly.
anyway... camp tomorrow. should really pack before they get here... herm... *shrug* blah.
degrassi this arvo... was the sweet battle of the bands ep. =) hehe. so yeah... can't complain. =0) hehhee..
stupid you... butch walker sound not bad. and that song you told me yesterday? sounds sweet... awwww... ah wellz. go find it, download it and then we'll be cool. =) heheh.
blah. nothing to blog. can finall archive november... =) hehe.
~xox
29.11.o5
somewhere in between
will post up lyrics in a widdle bit... =) but today was good. kind of went on high for the most part...
felt so much better than yesterday. maybe that was because of gmail conversations this morning... i think i just needed to let it all out to someone other than YOU. lol. so yeah... thanks you two (and the third one who wasn't really there... lol sorry for the spam! hahah). twas much appreciated. =)
then... matrix reloaded is actually pretty good. =) i'm liking it for the second time watching it, coz i've seen the first one now. =) so there ya go. i've found a think-y movie to like. *nods*
more boredom... then stocktake. finall got the stuff going for ms t's present. =) which shall be cool. stupid harshi for being sick tomorrow... blaaaah. ah wellz. hummz..
then watched the core in science, which is getting good.. hopefully we get to actually finish it... blah.
i'm in such a non-campy mood... relos are coming tomorrow night, so have been furiously packing. woo.hoo. i get kicked out of my room. =( awww... poor widdle.. lindy. =)
so more stocktake laterwards... and then kat and josie just had to bring up my pimpin' ways... uh. yeah... lolz. ah wellz. twas amusing. year seven seems so long ago now... *sigh* so much simpler though... but then might not have been friends with some of the people i'm friends with now, if i'd just stayed in year 7... so i dunno. it's a bit... think-y. and the matrix is enough think-y time for me. =) hehe
anyhooooooo... boredom strikes in the midst of eco study. i try, i really do. yet most times it never feels like enough. and then what i don't understand is why most times i do better than others, others who deserve it so much more than i do. and that's why i can never figure this whole thing out... *sigh* too much think-y...
this is my 60th entry on this "new" bloggie... sad huh? ah wellz. shall be sad to leave it for camp... lol. that is exactly how sad i am. =) hehe.
but this blog is my baby. =)
~xox
28.11.o5
beauty of taping...
taped VM today. =) so exciting!! hehehe. but dunno when i will get to watch it... blah. hopefully tomorrow arvo. =)
speaking of which, today arvo, watched a lot like love which was good. =) thanks chris. =) hehe. the movie was sweet... "don't, you'll ruin it".... hehhee. =) yeah. twas good. though i didn't like amanda peet in it... but meh. still good. =)
later... just watched VM. twas good. but dramaless. maybe i have ruined it for myself by reading it... but meh. =) shall still be good. hehehhe..
anyhooos... dancing today was boring. danced with ashwin.. and then... blah. kinda boring. not all it was cracked up to be. ah wellz. twas fun going kinda high i guess... lol.
well, was in a bit of a poo-ey mood today... *shrug* just... blah. there were a lot of things... and there's something that i want to tell you... but i can't. why? just coz if i do then it kind of makes it all real... *sigh*
and you? well... *sigh* convos yesterday were good. like, after the first party... and yeah... then later... but yeah. i'm just all... soon, you will have to choose between what is right, and what is easy... hahha. =) love ya though. and thanks.
nothing else much to write... gonna upload some photos... check the photo page... =)
~xox
27.11.o5
busyness.
rain rain go away, come again another day...
just back from por por winnie's thing, and kind of preparing to go to aunty mavis' tonight. so many things... blaaaaah. but will get to watch sotp then. =) hehehehe...
nothing much to really blog... party twas fun. have some photos, but will post them up later. too lazy to upload and resize them now. blaaaah. pfft. ah wellz.
i'm bored. i have nothing to do. someone entertain meeee..
OMG!! VM starts tomorrow! i'm excited. =) hehee... not that i don't already know what happens but blah. =) shall be good.
blaaaaaaah.
maybe i'll edit. but i just felt the usual urge to blog, because, hey, i have no life. =)
edit: well, aunty mavis' was cool. pizza and kfc. i just had pizza. =) watched sotp. and bec's cousins are cool. =)
herm... nothing else... doing eco. like a good girl. gah. too much stuff.
~xox
26.11.o5
woo.hoo.
so today was chinese oral test... blaaaaah. got 95% for being able to read this thing.... then went to parra!!!!!
and as you can see, i am excited, so what do you think happened when i got there?? I BOUGHT SHOES!!!! wooohoooo for mee!!! =))) weeeee.. *pause*.. yeah, ok, i'll shut up. what do they look like? black and... um... i dunno. they're weird. but they were under 40 bux so i'm not complaining! =) thanks to pat who told me that VNC was there in the first place. =) hehe. yay! i have SHOES!
so what else? um... nothing really... but woooot. i have shoes. =) hehe.
i'm kind of a bit... blah about myself at the moment. like... the whole... not being me thing. *shrug* i dunno... it's like i'm never really myself, so much that half the time i can't really figure out who i am... um... yeah... gonna stop before i get all "emo" on you. =P pfft.
blog seems lonely and empty lately... but meh. dunno. fighting with the rentals again... over petty things... and just trying to be... *breathes*... ><"
haven't listened to this song in a while...:
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
~ bad day daniel powter
and then heard this while trying on shoes in VNC today...:
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
~ you're beautiful james blunt
yeah... sweetness... but stupid vid... ><" lolz. mel and i made up the dream vid for that song... twould be so cool to actually make it but yeah... ><" lolz. hahaha.
anyhoo... that'll do for now. =) lyrics and all that jazz. might edit later... but yer....
edit: just played dress ups. =) twas fun. =) hehe...
~xox
25.11.o5
boo.hoo.poo.
so we went. we saw. and i came home with nothing. blaaaaaah. stupid stupid MYER... pfft.
so, shall i start with the good things today? or the crap things?
good things: um... mufti. =) the rain (running around and getting all wet... lol), hanging with trish, bludgyness... the stooges' stall... hahaa, who wants to be a millionaire (and resulting prizes)... hanging at towers in the arvo (moi, trish, lee, chris and matt lam and dulak and mone before...) feel free to add on if you want... lol. ><"
crap things: the rain (pants were annoyingly wet), dodgy spring fair live (DODGY!!!), the stooges' dodgy stall, no shoes!! (someone STOLE them!!!), lost my earring (while i was walking home i realised... pfft)
moments: toby and groin ball, i love you baby and if it's quite alright, i need you baby, getting wet (lol), the rain, winning blossom, boredom, looking for a suit for matt lam... hum.
slept on the bus when i was coming home... lol. good thing that i woke up just before my stop... could have been an even worse day. =) lol. nah, today was alright. i think the pros outweigh the cons... but now i have to go back to shoe shopping... *sigh* pecheeeerrrr (say it out loud... it actually sounds like that stupid sound i've been making all week)... dad is all pissy coz it means that he has to drive mum and i around... but hopefully will be able to go to parra on sunday... apparently there's more shoe stores there... *fumes*
anywayz... i have chinese oral test tomorrow... and i have no idea what i'm supposed to be doing... pecheeeeerrrr... haha. this could get amusing.
blah. that'll do for blog. i'm sure you'll all live... *sigh*
i don't wanna go shoe shopping!!!
i don't want a lot for christmas
there is just one thing i need
i don't care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
baby all i want for christmas is you
haha. had it in my head... love actually is AWESOME... =) hehe. but actually... xmas... earrings. someone get me earrings. dammit. i HATE losing earrings... pecheeeeeerrrrrr... ><" lolz. =) i am getting so addicted to that word.
edit:
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oh yeah. question four is kind of worded funny... it's more of, which of the groups below contains a country/countries that i have not been to... if that makes sense...
~xox
24.11.o5
she shopped, she saw, she came home with nothing...
gah. screw this whole shopping thing. i give up. (anyone for shoe shopping at towers tomorrow arvo?) hehee. ah well.
anywayz... spring fair tomorrow. shall be fun. hopefully...
many... hujungous mozzie bite on my ankle... so itchy... every time i walk. gaaaah. stupid mozzies.
gah. finished VM scripts. now i really have nothing to do... blah. ah wellz... now what to do... could totally go back to nano-ing... lolz. but hum...
i'm gonna get back to writing those other randoms that i started ages ago... the ones that i got all geared up for... and then dropped once i discovered... icons? lol. probably something like that... ack. ><"
hum... i wanna make some more icons... better get back to getty/sxc.hu to look for images... lalala...
but no. writing. =) weee.
wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean... will never hear this song and not htink about that time in the car when we were singing it. just the three of us. one of our finer moments. =)
blah. nothing to doooo... and no one is taaaaalking... lol. nah. it's ok. =)
blah. everyone is pooo. i am tooo.
i just insulted myself with my very wonderful poetry. woot. ><"
~xox
23.11.o5
*hits reply*
this whole thing is really confusing me... but ah wellz. whatever comes, comes i guess.
starting season 2. =) hehe. and OMG... woah. big way to start off the season. then again, i guess to make it work you need the huge beginning. ah wellz. up to ep 6 and it's good. anywayz...
i can't really think about what else to blog anymore... already thinking up new layouts... haha. OH. forgot to show you hag icons rach! lol. ah wellz.
formal... coming up... need to go shopping... blaaaaaaaaah. someone do my haaaaiiiir... better ask... *sigh* dunno how to do it... i can't believe i'm actually googling it... ><" shame on me... SHAME i tell you... but now i can't wait. =) better ask soon... blah.
posting pointless post. (look at the alliteration there! it's killing me... ><")
~xox
22.11.o5
stupid.
crapped up... gah.
but finished veronica mars, season 1. sooooo awesomely good. =) the ending is like... AAAAH!! and you're like... WAH?!?!??! *breathes* so good. =) but i'll stop reading for a bit to regain some semblance of a life. =) lol.
i've been moody lately. just standing in a crowd and being all... yeah. ah wellz. I'M NOT EMO!!
lalala. bored. nothing to blog. nothing interesting happening lately. want a period by period?
slept in this morning. got dropped. double comp and just did some LJ stuff and read VM. lolz. recess and... something. stupid banana... double english and we're wathcing the matrix. it's good. i actually understand it this time round. hahaha. eco and randoms. maths and stocktake. westlife! woot. haha. lunch and the whole "sit in crowd do nothing feel funny" thing. science and brain dissection. *shudder* i just sat there. and then maths... which was actual maths. brain hurt. home. and then sleep. =) how incredibly uninteresting was that?
meh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!!!
~xox
21.11.o5
maybe tonight by < insert name here > kate dearaugo
OMG... idol final... eeeee. emily or kate. i know who i voted for. ;) hehe...
ok. but that's not the reason why i'm high... coz i was watching idol right... (or listening) and then one of those channel ten ads came on... and i SWEAR that i heard something about one tree hill?!??!?!?! =)))))) eeeeeeeee!!! hehehe. so yes... the lunacy begins. =)
*goes to check tape*
AAAAAAAAAAAH! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
AAAAAAAAAAAH! ok. i so have to get over this obsession. and OI! when do i get season 2? =))))
ok. final is going good. it's like... not even going anywhere. i hate this stupid thing... waiting for them to sing and all that... aaaah. i liked the top 13 singing thing though. that's awesome. =) hehe..
i am sooo high. i can't believe all this stuff is coming back... they should SO put summerland back on!
anywayz... darling harbour was pretty good today. =) hehe. and... yeah. nothing else interesting...
i've been holding on
to a love gone wrong
it's true, for too long
the hurt it left inside
has made me wanna hide
too much, and i do
i'm not afraid to be alone
the truth is i'm alright
but something has been missing from my life
maybe tonight, maybe i'll fall
maybe he'll crash through my walls
maybe at last, love will come back
and take me deep into its arms
maybe the heart that comes apart
finally mends
maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
cried a lot of tears
faced a lot of tears
to get right here
every chapter ends
before the right one can begin again
in the story of love
maybe tonight, maybe i'll fall
maybe he'll crash through my walls
maybe at last, love will come back
and take me deep into its arms
maybe the heart that comes apart
finally mends
maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
i'm ready for another chance
and right now that's enough
i know i will survive whatever comes
maybe tonight, maybe i'll fall
maybe he'll crash through my walls
maybe at last, love will come back
and take me deep into its arms
maybe the heart that comes apart
finally mends
maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
~ maybe tonight kate dearaugo
woot. once again, the person that i didn't want to win, didn't want to win. =) hehe. so w00t. and pya, you just keep on w00ting yeah? =)
edit: i got so excited about everything, that i forgot to recount to you the whole bus ordeal this afternoon! lolz. so what happened was old northern road got blocked at exelsior "road". so then our bus (damn the dodgy 2513) had to u turn and then go around and find its way around gilroy and stuff... then finally got to towers at 4. so for real missed oakhill bus this time! haha. then ran down to bus stop.. but the bus wasn't there. freaked (haha. froke) out for a bit... then waited... and waited. then finally, one of the glenorie bus dudes came and said something about how it got stuck. then it clicked... the bus comes from tara... comes along old northern road... doh! so we had to wait for a replacement... then got home. late. *sigh*
guess who has a westlife cd??? =) haha. *does happy dance* am i supposed to leave you now, when you're looking that, i can't believe what i just gave away now i can't take it back... sweetness. =)
song that reminds me of childhood: swear it again. hahaha. =) awesomeness.
~xox
2o.11.o5
*sniffles* and *zzzzs*
grrrr.
i hate being sick.
hopefully i'm not too screwed up to go to dinner tonight! *frowns*
edit: back from dinner. twas good. =) had fun. and julian aka "babee" aka CAB is so cute. =) hehe. interesting convos... and there was one "strange" person... haha. =) but yeah... twas good. miscommunication a bit... haha. so CAGs were different... lalala. :$ but yeah. felt little. =)
anyhoo... darling harbour tomorrow... so that shall be cool. i hope. =/
~xox
19.11.o5
adding to the noise...
i'll comeback and blog again later after youth group... but just found out something rather interesting... about tables nonetheless... ><"
so, we thought we'd have a democracy right? but the final two options we get are changed from the ones that won the voting... so that one particular person could have it their way? sorry. no can do. you know what? after everything, it's about time i start using names... for this short brief period anyway... heard that dulak changed idea 2 so that it suited her? if i'm getting this wrong, please correct me before i make an even bigger fool of myself... but yeah... this is stupid. this whole voting thing. gah. just... whatever.
ok. i'm going to get off that topic... coz it's only going to get me all angry and bitter and i'll end up an old lady who doesn't even have any cats. *sigh*
the walls will tumble... but i'm not gonna cry... my heart won't crumble... if we ever say goodbye ~ jericho hilary duff
meh.
ok. will come back and right more later. an hour before YG and then... yeah. =)
can't wait till dinner tomorrow night. babeeee. =) hehehhee.
< insert further ramblings here... when i get back from youth >
so here i am, back after youth. forgiveness... brought it all back to the fore of my mind... so yeah. *sigh*
i've posted up some icons. again, the lyrics are the links?!? =) hehe. best day >> "photos"... so that's how you get there. =) hehe. and then i made banner thing for my icons. =) hehe. that was fun. but yeah... nothing much else...
anyhoo... nothing else. honestly.
~xox
18.11.o5
circles and circles
hated today. like seriously hated it. just... ARGH. stupid stupid stupid. everything was just crap and blah and blergh-y. *sigh* *breathes*
so yeah. today was that day when every thing going on this whole week kind of just came crashing down. i'm sorry to all the people that i grrr-ed at and the people that i kind of just... blergh-ed at. this formal table thing has just been getting to me the whole week, and i guess i just wanted to avoid the whole thing. but noooo... today... *sigh* i'm not pissed at you. i'm just spacing from her. =) ok? not that you read this. and then, you? yeah. i have a problem. a huge problem. there's actually two of you, though i don't think one of you actually REALISES! stupid. and YOU? you won't talk to me... but some thing is up and whatever it is... *hugs* and so i might have hurt a couple of people today, and i'm sorry.
the claws come out. rah.
10 things i hate about the formal.
1. i hate the way that everyone just HAS to go with someone.
2. i hate the way that everyone gets all hyped up about the shopping.
3. i hate the way that we have to organise tables and it gets all screwy.
4. i hate the way that it's all anyone talks about for a whole month before hand.
5. i hate the way that it screws up relationships.
6. i hate the way that we all have to dress up for one stupid night.
7. i hate the way that it makes me feel all crap and blergh-y.
8. i hate the way that some people aren't going.
9. i hate the way that there are going to be all these problems and ten, twenty years down the track, it's not even going to matter.
10. but mostly i hate the way that no matter how much i hate about it, i'm still going to go.
now for lyrics...
You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything
~ fall to pieces avril lavigne
mmm... but ok. today wasn't so crap. i dunno. i think there's something about bludging that makes "maths" so much more interesting. =) it's been great guys! =) gonna miss bludging maths every period, but meh. =) hehe. but yeah... that's probably been one of the only good things this week. then again, all we did in stocktake today was do formal tables... *sigh*
oh yeah (not that it's really gonna matter, coz it's all the way down here...) but... you DO know that the lyrics are the links, yeah? coz it took pya me telling her for her to figure it out... lolz. =) but yeah...
hum. that'll do pig.
~xox
17.11.o5
staring into hands.
ok. this may sound REALLy up myself... but i love this webby. =) i just like looking at it! =) hehe. ok. gonna shut up now. :$
today was uneventful. but yeah was in a crappy mood. i think it all started this morning with a hell of a lot of fakeness and all that jazz. but yeah... i dunno. *shrug* just stuff i guess. but there were certainly good parts of the day... like, going home. =) haha. nah... um... eco was full quiet. then recess which i can't even remember. but too much talk about formal and stuff. just... gah with the formal already. maths stocktake and waaay too much SC stuff! haha. disney fest... that lasted two periods! eek. but meh. we had hagan for geo apparently, so no problems. =) science and the day after tomorrow... which is GOOD! at least i like it. and damn emmy rossum for being so pretty! comp studies was bludgy, a quiet lunch and found out some thing! OMG! haha. then... english (BLUDGE!) and then eco, which was full bagging out robinson about how she can't remember names. lolz.
still going on about being pissy at a certain someone... *shrug* it's just so FRUSTRATING!!! grrrr... ><" *breathes* but trying to get over it coz it's not healthy. but GAH! just go DIE already... or not... but ssssh.
lalala. kind of high now though. dunno why. but icon shopping at tissuebox again, and awesome quotes. i love this quote: the only difference between you and a bucket of poo is the bucket. HAHAH. =) weee... and found on fire ones too. =) so that is majorly awesome. =) herm... i love icons. =) hehee.
formal awards... *shrug* i hate the formal. want to boycott it. grr.... just... argh. piece of crap.
maybe that's kind of why i was gah today. too much formal talk. *sigh* i dunno. it's all just taking it's toll on me.
"how did you go from such good friends to this?" i don't know. how did we. *shrug* but it's coz i'm just not sure if i'm wanting that anymore... is that bad? maybe. but... mmm...
randomness...
it's not supposed to hurt this way... so go and think about whatever you need to think about, go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about and come back to me when you notice how you feel.... ~ why avril lavigne
interesting... and for songs? i dunno. me was thinking spice girls. =) hahaha. then we came up with usual "dance" songs... macarena... chicken dance... OMG!! THE NUTBUSH!! hahaha. and then sway! hahah.
and you know, we still haven't done ballroom in pe. =) haha.
blergh. ok. thinking about the bad parts of today have made me blah again. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
edit: oh yeah. it's just amazing how colourful the english language can be, especially when used at the most random moments... like yelling out "f***ing whore" to someone simply walking home... herm....
~xox
16.11.o5
turnover.
i doubt that anyone is complaining. still black and white. but this time more white than black. =) i like this one. i think i will settle with it for a while before i decide to change my mind. =)
today was good. or ok. whatever. no stocktake today so went to maths. maaan, talk about overload. lolz.
sport as usual but total arghness with certain people. and the thing about that is that it's hard being pissed at people when they have no idea that you're pissed at them. waste of time and energy. lol.
anyway, nothing to write. (OMG! degrassi! hahahaha!!) but comment and tell me you love the layout. =) hehehe.
edit: go the socceroos. =) (not that i really care!! but mr. goalie was awesome!)
~xox
15.11.o5
absence makes the heart grow fonder stronger
as you can see, i'm still alive and not dead yet. so i dunno. but maybe that's just coz today was strike... so i guess we'll see what happens in the end.
since no one wants to hear an emo spiel... i will go on to tell you how awesomely awesome today was. =)
so strike yeah? first two periods hung out at f block with all the other early people, doing eco. =) hehe. then found out some interesting news... lolz. which would later affect latter parts of the day. =)
then recess, which i don't really remember...
then it was off to the now dreaded english... HOWEVER... guess what we watched??? =))) hehe. pride and prejudice... with THE original mr. darcy. =) hehe. awesome awesome.
eco... and it was actually kind of ok for once. kind of zoned in and out but yeah... ><"
maths and stocktake. lolz. haha. sooo much of a bludge. harshi, mel, beck, chris and moi. sorry to bore you with our talk chris! haha. and fudge. lolz.
lunch was majorly windy and then lots of talk about the thing we were talking about in the morning... *wink wink nudge nudge* lolz. =) hehe.
science and some random video about the brain (that isn't quite so random, considering all the other classes have watched it too..) didn't really pay attention, but the eco textbook is so hard to understand!!!! (hurry up!!)
maths and more bludging. =) honestly didn't do anything this time round... but mrs corfield was cool and gave us sudokus. =) much fun. haha. yeah... *nids*
then home... and major windyness... *sigh* eek. ><"
then slept. zzzz. =) so bad. but ah wellz.
and now i'm here. working on a new layout. colours anybody?
~xox
14.11.o5
guess what?
well, i won't even make you guess. i fudged up big time. so, you know how i said i was ok? now? i'm not. maybe it'll cost me season 2 (please?!?!?) but... *sigh* too bad.
anywayz... there's nothing else to really write. meh. lee got out. meh.
can she even be bothered to feel
when it seems like everything is crashing down
a world once so secure
now, with everything
falling, like there's been an
earthquake, shaking the
foundations of her life
nothing being spared
not her pride, her emotions, her heart
the walls are being built up
already, stronger, to withstand
the aftershocks, if they come
which they will
ghosts to haunt her
of the past
where things weren't as simple
but neither are they now
so she closes up
hiding behind the walls
but the fear is still there
maybe they'll ambush her
behind the steel walls
and trap her
until she starves
maybe they'll torture her
demanding more information
or maybe they'll just leave her
in silence
which could kill her
all she wanted was to
let it all out
and open up
somehow
and then the choice
she made
backfired
and now
she means nothing
i want to be angry, but i guess i lost the right to that when i put it up for all the world to see.
~xox
13.11.o5
sms _____ to nineteen ten ten
idol-ing... and it ain't so bad. i'm just sad that there isn't anyone that i'm really going for. though i guess
kate- heaven (suits her), like a prayer (not strong enough)
lee- faith (massively punked up), tainted love (he's getting the punk whiney sound...)
emily- hit me baby one more time (why?!?), i will always love you (suits her but a bit flat...)
my decision? the same as this morning. i like all the songs that they all did. =) but i just don't like any of THEM. so woulda gone with dan england though. =)
ok. hands down can officially be added to the list of songs that make me cry. ><" *sigh* maybe just coz it's the acoustic version. anyone wanna get me acoustic version of vindicated? his voice is good. and yes rach, he isn't too bad looking. ;) hehe.
can we kick them all out? like, seriously, can they all get voted off? three way tie? and then bring back.. dan and anne. =) and there you go.
thought i'd kick some boyziimen in here for a bit...
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try
When I get courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart ’cause they just
Can’t compare to you
~ four seasons of loneliness boyziimen
interesting... anywayz. should prolly post.
hahaha. degrassi... muahahaha. =)
~xox
12.11.o5
late night art...
i should sooo be nano-ing right now. i did some this morning though... just have to type it up. meh. will do.
why do you need ribbon? huh? you confused me love. ah wellz.
icon shopping again... i get knocked down, but i get up again, you're never gonna keep me down... lol. amusing. as are gmail convos. =) hehe.
ooh. making some more icons. with my funny pictures... =) like the ones that i was attempting to do during SC when i had finished early (although i can't even remember the ones that i did, and the ones that i COULD remember, don't nearly look as good as they did the first time round... which means that they look shoody as shod right now.. *sigh*)
ok. it's been a while since i last wrote the above... like... 3 hours... but was gmailing with trish. and got to talking about things on the news... kind of in a round about i don't really want to say what we were talking about right here kind of way. and feel really sorry for her (not trish) and what she must be going through. and then reminds me of that other time... and recently as well... life and death and everything between and all that jazz...
drops of jupiter... sweetness. and sidewalks... man. love it. =)
back after a while... eep. i'm in trouble.
i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone...
randoms... *sigh* so i've... i have the urge to swear right here... but i won't... i've screwed up. and it's because i was selfish and wanted to think about myself for once and sort myself out for a while. but now it gets complicated. no amount of apolgies can make it up.
trust is like a crystal vase. once it's broken it's gone forever.
wrong? or right?
i'm just a damn hypocrite.
damn me for thinking of it in the first place. damn me for writing it. damn me for wanting something for myself. damn me for doing the spontaneous thing in my life for once. damn me for just trying to sort it out. damn me.
written and sent
into something so untangible
wondering who will find it
friends at first
no complications.
then craziness
insane, writing, over and over
everything, feelings and such
then exposure
and then falling apart.
and JG gets forgotten.
hurt, pain and distrust
for once not on my part.
for others
and it's my fault.
so i've become just like one of them.
hating myself for it.
apologies over and over again
won't change it all
and now the wall is being built back up
fear closes in
until someone else walks by
with a key
to her heart that will let the walls
crumble back down
and open up, vulnerable
to the outside world
vulnerable to feeling
the pain, hurt, distrust
like she caused other people
not so long ago.
but for now, the wall has been rebuilt
and JG is no longer.
for herself, she comes close to tears,
closing a part of her
that she was just getting to know
but change occurs
and she has to just
let it
go.
enough.
~xox
11.11.o5
season 2!!!
and so now season 2 is kind of within grasp, no? =)) (so desperate it's not funny....)
writing. but some people have found it. but i'm glad that they didn't not tell me about it. so that's good. =) ><" *sigh* ah wellz.
maid in manhattan. jlo. haha. it's amusing. sweet too. =) hehehe. happy feelings. =) hehe. sweetness. =) "the first lunch was a mistake. the second would be complete torture." hehhee. =) "what defines us is how we rise after falling." =) lionel is awesome. =) *chokes* *tear* omg... he just found out... and they're talking... waaaaah. :'( catching tear drops in my hand... you'll be on my mind forever...
awww... it's over.
now better go back to that chinese... ><" *sigh*
~xox
1o.11.o5
scattered excerpts...
i'm back to writing sequel. =) hehe. and thought i'd put some randoms throughout this post..
this was amusing. =) some randoms there...i only got 6/8... *shrug* ah wellz.
She apologised to me too, but I don't know, I just couldn't find the sincerity that I used to try and find so that things could be ok.
ooh. interesting. lol. but if you know it all, you'd know exactly what i'm talking about.
stuff was bludgy today. i hate this weather. hot hot hot. then rain. when i'm walking home. just peachy. ><" *sigh* ah wellz.
things seem weird lately... and i'm not sure why it's making me so... like i am. *sigh*
hey YOU: comment. or tag. one or the other. don't shock me by bringing up stuff in msn convos! =) hehehe. like now!
christmas carols. =) hehe. reminds me of old times. but sad... remembering old christmas parties. and they were every year. and i haven't been for a while. and i still remember singing christmas carols. the spoken: that i never did. hahaha. yeah. awesome fun sometimes. and now... not sure.
Ok. So maybe I kind of built it up into something a little too big for my little heart to take when it didn't come through.
again, if you know me, you should know.
you know what is awesome? beauty and the beast. all i want for christmas... =) hehe.
this is very fragmented... you know what else rocks? grease! pya, do not even comment about this. i already know what you think! hahaa. and save the last dance... or more specifically the song from it. hehe. =) i love it.
OOOH. almost forgot. you want my snapshot of icons that i did during SC procrastination? they're not that good... but enough to satisfy me.
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MB is awesome. =) hehe. sweet + soulful. sometimes. lol. other times just jazz. =) feel good mix. [haha. told you i'm a 106.5 baby.]
this has been long and pointless enough. i'll let you guys go. and 3000 words? nowhere near. *sigh*
but before i leave... [i do NOT mean this, just simply repeating what dulak said this morning.] "i hate eeyore. he's such as ASShole."
that almost comes close to my moo joke! =) hehehe. [admittedly, i cracked up for a bit all into roll call. hehee.]
almost had you... and now i'm destined to spend my life missing you... ~ almost bowling for soup
~xox
o9.11.o5
take a ride to the boardwalk...
playing monopoly with pya. YOU'RE GOING DOWN! *shrug* pause. or maybe it won't be for as long as we expected...
anyway... bludgy day today. maths and english are like... ><" do they honestly expect us to absorb anything?? but damn eco man!! ><" *sigh* ah wellz...
no fair. chris downloaded 3.05!! lol. the script isn't up yet!! =(((( *sigh* i can't even remember what happened the ep before... oh. right. something about ellie yeah? *shrug* ah wellz. i think i'll just rely on pya to tell me when it's up. =) hehe.
anyone want to ask me how my nano is going?? =) hehehe.
jay told me to get lyrics. while i'm there, i might as well post them...
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
~ i will follow you into the dark death cab for cutie
so there you go. lol. so many covers jay! hehe. but awesome stuff. =) acousticy good too. hehe. =)
bowling today. did not so good, but meh. anywayz... better get back to writing... ><" it's not going so well... *sigh*
~xox
o8.11.o5
like al pacino's cash...
gone! and is pure bliss. =)
now i go to visit people. should have before but scary. ><" tis all good now though. =)
anyway... it's all over... and i dunno what to do with myself anymore. workiong on a new layout, trying to nano, and making oth icons. maybe i'll post soime up laterwards... =) hehehe. they're... interesting. love animation pro. or whatever it is. but yeah... *nods*
my newest song obsession? *scrunches face up* hands down shush you! *grumbles* promise matchbook romance... this calls for a lyric post!
What would you say
And now the stars aren't out tonight
I feel like i've lost everything when you're gone
I never thought I'd be the one to say
...
Take my hand and never let me go,
Make this last forever
...
I'll fall asleep tonight
Would your forget everyone, forget everyhting
And start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Well promise me you'll never let me go
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like good bye
And these memories can't replace
These wishes i wish and dreams i chase
Well take this broken heart and make it right
Left remebering what it's like
To have you here with me
I thought you should know
You're not making this easy
Please dont, well please dont leave me
Take my hand and never let me go
Promise me, you'll never let go
Never let go, never let go
You'll never let go
Cause that brings me closer to you
~ promise matchbook romance
sweet... =) hehe. anyway, i'm off.
~xox
o7.11.o5
get a hole lot more out of life... LIFESAVERS
or sour skittles... but that's just what floats my boat. hehehe. =) anyway... yeah....
this brief moment of procrastination...
nano is going horrible.
studying is going horrible.
SC? well, it could be worse. like... having to do geo and history tomorrow.
i am so dead.
please excuse me while i go scream in the corner.
ok. back. bye.
~xox
o6.11.o5
and i walk freeeeee
hahaha. i love it when aunty joyce leads. she's so hilarious. and i walk free today was just a reminder of everything that we did... all the effort and all that. *nods*
i want to make an icon that says that i'm a 106.5 girl. =) hehe. listening ot it on the way home from church today, and jewel is awesome. =) hehe.
so my major procrastination of the moment? nanowrimo. tis going to be AWESOME. =) hehe. chick lit meets rich bitch for the 50 billionth time. =) i dunno how it's going to work out though... we'll just have to see. gimme a buzz if you decide to do it and then i'll add you as a friend. or if you just want to see my profile to see how i'm going. =) meh. wth. i'll just post it up here anyway.... here ya go.
so school cert tomorrow, hey? ><" grr... i hate this whole SC idea. it's freaking me out. so hence i should probably be studying, yeah? well... *shrug* history is scaring me with all the extended respoinse questions, for which i have no idea, and same goes for geo. for science i think i'm gonna be ok... i just need to read up on some of last years stuff, like the microbes unit and... the whole universe bit. ><" *sigh* sooo majorly iffed.
so anyway... back to nanowrimo-ing... as of now shortened to nano. =)
~xox
o5.11.o5
words alone can't fix me
but they can always help. writing again. writing just a little bit of everything, and i'm finally updating one of my OLD old stories. =) thanks to that productive session on the bus pya. =) haha.
got this of nick... so you all have to do it. i got 11... see how you go! =) [i made a semi-grahpic thing for it too! ok ok. it's just a print screen but STILL!]
anywayz... sc and it's going ok. not amazing. but it'll do for now.
finished reading all the scripts today! =) they were SOOOO good! SQUEE!!!! so i can't wait to watch second season! hahaha. =))))
anywayz... nothing else to blog. i just have to get back to SC-ing. ><"
~xox
o4.11.o5
< insert love here > is love
icon shopping is so yesterday... *launches into song* now it's colourbars ALL THE WAY! =) hehe. anywayz... i might post some up here laterwards... but they just put the whole layout out of whack.. ><" and i hate that
i'm impressed. matchbook romance sounds like a stupid name. but they're good. =) i thought that they were gonna be screamy and such... but turns out that they're not. =) so i like. muchly. =)
soul today was good. like... yeah. i really think that i should get back to going... *sigh* must remember...
omgoshnes... i swear that sandra bullock has alyssa milano eyes...
anyway.. back to where i was before... power of your love. makes me just... sit back and relax, kind of? just to know that He's there... but *shrug* i dunno... sometimes i forget, i think, and just take it all on board myself...
Because I'm thinking about
a brand new hope
the one I've never known
cause now I know
it's all that I wanted
~ macy's day parade greenday
maltesers are love. =) haha. yeah. someone should make one.
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
~ beautiful letdown switchfoot
i've never listened/noticed the words to this properly... they're good. at my SF boys are awesome too. =) "SF" reminds me of savind francesca... THAT boy is awesome too. =) hehe.
almost finished reading season 2...
LUCAS: And Hansel said to Gretel, let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home. Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things. This year… I lost my way.
NATHAN: And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel.
PEYTON: The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I travelled alone, Sometimes, there were others who took the wheel and took my heart. But when the destination was reached… it wasn’t me who arrived it wasn’t me at all.
BROOKE: And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely.
MOUTH: Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you’ve been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.
how true... this year has been crazy. SC and i'm not studying. does this worry me? apparently not...
oh. it's the JEW ep...
All I can say,
I should of said,
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place,
While we still have time.
~ work jew
man. i am so addicted. hahaha. mouth and erica! haha. cuteness. =) everyone loves mouth. =)
hahhaa. i just found a OTH is love. =) weeee...
OMGOSHNESS!!! HAYLEY IS A COOOOOW! and OMG... JAKE!!! eee...
JAKE: (Desolately) You know, I coulda held you in my arms forever. (Pause) It still wouldn’t have been long enough.
awwwww... =(((( i don't want to watch these last eps... i'm already on the verge of tears... =((( and cried reading another one...
well, it's past 12... so i think i should go to sleep... but READING!!!... when i'm done then. =)
~xox
o3.11.o5
since when was 9 a late night?
late night shopping to look for shoes, but expensive, ugly and waaay to weird. *sigh* ah wellz. i hate shopping.
eco was... good today. i think i'm actually beginning to like it, which is a bit weird. maybe that's just coz i'm actually understanding it now. lol. ><" but yeah. isn't so weird anymore...
since when is nathan doing the literary quotes? huh? stupid... and woah. what did i miss?~!??! PYA!! here... and search for... wife... dan and karen?? huh!??!?!??! oh. ok. i think i get it. AU? yeah? like... that buffy ep where thingy wished buffy had never come to sunnydale?
anywayz. bought some bargain bin singles. =) vindicated, lostprophets and alter bridge. no idea. but they were cheap. =) so yeah... now have an acoustic version of hands down.
anywayz. not much to blog.
~xox
o2.11.o5
no labels?!?
australian princess is such an amusing show. i dunno... it has like... all these random bits. and jackie o is weird in it too, but ah well. some of the stuff sounds so outrageous... elimination time... oooh...
anywayz... something. oh, right. today, wasn't as bad as i had expected it to be. but people seem to have changed. it's interesting, but yeah, i dunno what's going on. it's kind of scary how people can influence other people... and sometimes it kind of worries me. *shrug*
i fall asleep with my friends around me
only place i know, i feel safe
i'm gonna call this home
...
don't it feel like sunshine afterall
the world we love forever, gone
we're only just as happy
as everyone else seems to think we are
~ the world we love jimmy eat world
it's been a while since i've done lyrics. watching house... when is the date episode going to be!?!? hum... next week apparently..
scripts! *sigh* ep 13 of season 2... so... emo. =) but brooke's speech was gooood. she replaced lucas' usual literary quote. interesting... and woah. OMG... did it all happen... omg... pya, dez. one of you. get online... NOW! grr.... (obsessed? i'm not obsessed!!) and yay for mouth who saves the day! =) hehehe. you gotta love him.
uh... hello. i have eco homework...
~xox
o1.11.o5
as was said last almost summertime...
summer lovin' had me a blast, summer lovin' happened so fast... awesome grease. =) such a classic movie that. =)
double english today... and this is what i got...
The future, a time so uncertain
Where no one can see what happens.
There are those who claim to see
Through crystal glass balls
And cards with mysterious figures.
Movies show us a future of robotics,
A life full of new scientific discoveries
And cars that fly through the air, like the Jetsons.
Thoughts of world issues: global warming, terrorism.
And what about the end of the world?
Maybe that is our future, and after that
There won't even be a future.
Maybe we should just leave it to our own imaginations,
Form our own ideas of the world to come.
Then maybe the future will laugh at our ideas,
As the world moves on,
The nature of change progressing.
And for me, what does my future hold?
I don't know.
And I think I kind of like it that way.
somewhat bleak... but it's the only thing i've written that i actually semi like...
today was... i dunno. actually on a high. but i reckon that by tomorrow it'll be gone. *sigh* the whole rec sport didn't turn out quite as ok as i thought it would... not that it's BAD... just... it could have been better.
stalker boy? hahaha. =)
~xox