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31.12.o5
new year's eve.
no plans. we made them, tentatively... or maybe mostly out of boredom. but ah wellz. i shall stay at home and watch the fireworks. =)
i forgot to say, yesterday, that my dad bought an album for me! so i sorted through all the formal photos yesterday... and i never realised how many of them there were... and i don't think i'm going to be able to fit them all in... and pya? keep my invitation ok??? hehehe... *nods* anywayz...
was supposed to get SF today... but me doesn't think that it will eventuate... *sigh* and i was soo looking forward to getting it... but ah wellz.
what to write... lalala... so it's all sorted, hopefully, which is good. =)
how come air conditioning doesn't feel like it does anything, huh??
maaan... this casting is definitely harder than expected. coz, i don't want to pick people that are pretty well known... so i'm going through a whole bunch of soapie websites. haha.
anyhoo... only got a bit of time left... shall post.
~xox
3o.12.o5
everything seemed to be alright.
how much longer will this keep getting stronger, i wonder what she's doing when i'm singing myself to sleep, coz he's faker, so see you later, i wonder when she'll realise that she means a lot more to me... he loves her definitely maybe fm static.
i love that song. i love love love that song. and it's playing again... aaah. lisa's stuff rocks. =) hehehe.
so dad bought me my album today, so i had to start sorting through all the formal photos that i had accumulated. still haven't managed to get jay's photos though!! grrr... lol. ah wellz. shall have to bug her... when she gets back! *whines* ah wellz.
talking today... things are... crazy? weird? ok? i dunno. they will be ok anyway...
getting into chapter three again... not so bad.
i guess it's my fault. if i had wanted to avoid all the trouble that writing has caused me so far, i shouldn't have started posting my stuff on the net. this is so frustrating. but i guess it's all ok now.
gah. i'm an idiot.
anywayz, today was so hot. baaah. so no cookies for me. ah wellz. oh yeah, yesterday i finished reading the wedding which is the kind of sequel to the notebook... so yeah, twas good and majorly sweet. i'm just a sucker for romance. =) hehe.
so back to reading fps again, rather than writing my own, but chapter three is almost done. =)
anywayz... me thinks that i shall post. before dinner.
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
not exactly true...
~xox
29.12.o5
writing.
please do not disturb.
i'm on a roll. i just finished the second chapter and have since posted it.
i'm coming up with pictures and stuff... can anyone think of any obscure actors that might fit... or just any obscure actors? i don't like going with mainstream ones coz of the image of the characters that play... get me? even music people will do... hummz... i've got my mains, but in reality the age is pretty different so it's a bit weird... ah wellz.
anywayz... i think i shall go and post those two now. =)
oh yeah, going to the city, so post. for real. ok?
~xox
28.12.o5
going back.
on lj at the moment, and the theme is to write about the year, month by month. i think i shall post it here, while editing a bit out... but yeah, just gotta finish it first.
For the month of January I did pretty much nothing. Summer holidays are perhaps the most boring of all, since they go on forever. But the first two days of January I was in Hong Kong, but then I came back. There was all that stuff about the tsunami, so watched a lot of those fundraising concerts. It was nice not to be at school, but ultimately very boring. Did a whole lot of back to school shopping, which I love... We had R+, a girl's day for my church. It was awesome. We learnt about relationships and all this stuff... twas good. And the cooking was muchos fun. Dad made me clear out a lot of my work from primary school, and it left me kind of feeling empty...
February brought on my birthday, though I didn't exactly do anything. But I got a bunch of CDs that I had been wanting, so that was awesome. My friends from school just gave me some cash, and I put it in to by my own digital camera. It's an old kind of dodgy one, but oh well. I'm sure I'll live with it. =) Hehe. But yeah, we started school on the first. Oh yeah, then I lent my Missy Higgins CD to my friend, and then she scratched it and there was fiddly bits with trust and all that, but it got sorted. The purchaase of my Switchfoot CD, The Beautiful Letdown brought on a new obsession (one that still exists all the way down in December). This month was also the month of change. Well, the beginning of it anyway. We had the swimming carnival, whichc ultimately resulted in the guys all coming to our group and making things weird. Then the beginning of the message board, which ultimately resulted in fudginess with people, a ruined friendship (for a little while) and a whole lot of bitching. Which sucked.
In March we had our Passover meal, as a kind of look into stuff. That was with our Sunday School class and that might have just been the beginning of stuff... 25th marked my friend's birthday and it was fun. It was good to catch up and all that again. Then Easter and the Easter Show was fun. Yeah... March was pretty much uneventful it seems.
Our geography camp to Kosciuszko in April was pretty significant in changes as well. Lots of talking and then figured out a little, that I kind of liked him. Which was weird for a bit. Holidays began and I spent a very good day out with my besties. Another friend's birthday... the same friend that I had a falling out with in February. But it was all good, and I got to upload some of my photos from digital camera for the very first time. Oh yeah, and then I switched blogs, from blogger to spaces. It was a pretty hard decision for me, since I had been with blogger for forever, but spaces was so much easier. Oh yeah... I started my story, which would evidently wind up having me in a huge weirdness with a lot of people, but more about that later.
In May I made my official final post in blogger, saying that I was moving to spaces. People got married, which made me think a lot about change and all that. My internet screwed up for a while, but then got it fixed. Thankfully. I redid my piano 8th grade and got a nice looking A, which was a huge relief. Then I stopped piano altogether and it was kind of sad, seeing as I had seen this old lady almost every week since I was 7, and now I wasn't going to be seeing her at all. There was the whole party ordeal, for yet another friend's birthday. It kind of sorted itself out and we ordered my new laptop. Then there was The Breakup, which pretty much affected a lot of people, but then I got to talk to each of them more, and got closer to em, which was good. I got into FM Static and Hawk Nelson, which I'm still into... =) Got my confirmation for my work experience application at the Supreme Court, which started to get me all excited about it all. And then I started posting The Story (NGIR).
June brought my new laptop, which was muchos exciting for me. Then I found out that he liked someone else. And it was all... bad for a while. But I still liked him anyway. I had a dinner with my friends and her family, which was pretty cool, unlike anything I'd really been able to do before, so it was kind of cool that my mum let me. I got back into Saving Francesca by Melina Marchetta, and found out the sweetness of Will Trombal. *swoon* hahaha. It seems that this month was pretty uneventful. Although... made cookies for a friend's birthday, which was fun.
Most of July was spent in Singapore, where I did a lot of family stuff, shopping and the like. Bought my formal dress... Also went to Kuala Lumpur for a bit, which was cool too, and got my hair cut, layered. Interesting... When I came back felt all out of loop with everyone. When we went back to school, we started talking about subject selections and stuff, and I had a hard time doing mine. But I figured it out in the end (only to change them later on). Became obsessed with the song Bad Day by Daniel Powter. Had Rice, an evangelism event. Got me thinking about a lot of other things, but in the end it was kind of ok. I stopped spaces on the 31st.
I think August was kind of the beginning of my being a little bit emo. Went back on the "stopping spaces" thing big time. Found out that the school can have access to our blogs, since we access them at school, which got me a little paranoid. Had the second Rice eventful, which was awesome. Another kind of big change happened... Had work experience, which was an awesome week of freedom and such. It was really good, but kind of freaked me out about the whole law and lawyer thing. Oh yeah. My digital camera was stuffing up big time, got it sent in for repairs and then it got fixed! Something started that I didn't really realise until later. Then on the 31st I headed off to the South Coast for the first day of our band tour.
Band tour at the beginning of September was awesome, despite the weirdness at times. Then there was the wedding and it brought back all this stuff. I had to write a speech for an English assessment and I wrote it about change. It was weird actually, but it seemed that I finally got some respect from some people that hadn't ever really thought of me before. I had another thing with friends and stuff towards the middle of the month and it wasn't all that good. Then I made that post that was my thoughts of everyone. A lot of stuff happened with the formal as well, and it got me into a huge mood about going with people just for the sake of it. And then got talking to someone and then found out that he was planning to ask me too. There were grade sport trials and the weirdness that I felt for a while. Then it was another friend's birthday party and it was all good. Holidays started and then... Lots of clarinet practicing. Started my new geocities site, and then finally quit on the blogger thing (at least the whole daily blogging thing). Oh yeah, and on the 30th, a close family friend was abused and got sent to hospital.
Church camp was so awesome. October brought a whole change in feelings too. I started my icon phase and my Kurt Halsey phase. Went to visit the family friend. Got into One Tree Hill and that was cool. Then had another fight and all that. Had yearlies, but was constantly distracted by one thing or another. Finally did my 6th grade clarinet exam and got a nice B+, which I was happy with. Then I quit that as well. And felt weird for it to be all over, like piano, but I dealt. For something not so emo-ish, I saw Pride and Prejudice which was really good. She broke up with him, after a long time of me being kind of shoved in the middle. Found out that a friend might be moving away, and it really scared me. The whole band thing came up and it was weird for me for a while, but then I got over it. Had to organise camp groups for peer support camp, and they were a bit... not so good, but I dealt.
November seemed to be made up of a lot of One Tree Hill season two reading. I got into Jimmy Eat World too, and then there was more talking. Had the School Certificate, and I ended up doing pretty well. The accident, and then visiting, but it was ok. Became obsessed with the song Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional. Oh yeah, then the story got discovered and there was all this stuff and... yeah. Then it got out to more people and then he read it and it was all weird. Felt really bad about it a lot of the time, and then pissy at several people for a while. Talking started, towards the beginning of the month and yeah... Started thinking about other things as well, and felt weird for a while with certain people. I changed to my hnds_dwn site. Got more fudginess with the formal. Started reading Veronica Mars scripts which was really good. Spring Fair at school was cool, and more thinking, but things turned out all ok. And yeah, figured out things for real. And then weirdness that one day... Cousins came on the 30th from Singapore.
Finally, we reach December. Westlife obsession revisted. Had peer support camp, which ended up being alright, but that one afternoon spent on the hill got me thinking about a lot of things. Started Backstreet Boys phase too. Our formal table thing fell through but then we fixed it by just moving, which turned out to be ok anyway. A few afternoons and... yeah. Had my whole cookie phase, then recognition assembly where I played with Something for Helen and then formal, which ended up being... ok. Papa John's Garden was awesome and then the weirdness wasn't as bad. My first HSC assessment for economics was on the 12th and I was fully freaking out about it. Then spent the day with people, which was nice. Then holidays. Bummed around a bit, saw Harry Potter and then hung. Made more cookies with friends, hung with the relos and then it was Christmas. It was alright, dinners and lunches and stuff. And finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha. Oh yeah, and lots of talking. Some weirdness for a day or two... but yeah. =) AND i got my braces off! squee!
And then we come to today. Three more days till the new year, and what have I got to prove that I made it through this year? Too much maybe.
that took forever. went through blogs and all that coz i couldn't really remember everything..,. but yeah.
now i am tired from all that... wow. cut out some stuff though... more personal stuff. =)
so wow, that was one hell of a long year. bring on 2oo6.
~xox
27.12.o5
tis the season to be...
well anything but merry by the sounds of things in my house... but let's do this properly shall we...
went to sleep at 4 this morning, after packing my room (after yet another screaming match) and reading memoirs of a geisha which i am almost finished with. which reminds me... before i go on the net i shall finish it... tis really goooood. =)
woke up to my dad fiddling with something that i had put away last night... this morning... yeah... and to mum going "towers or hornsby?" i was drifting in and out so i didn't say anything in reply. then woke up for real, after mum's continued yelling and then we set off to hornsby, by request of me, seeing as the whole last couple of weeks it seems like i've been living there. lol.
got to hornsby, spent forever trying to find a parking space... then only went to the "usual" shops since the rentals don't really like to go on anywhere else. only bought a baby present for karen and bobby and... shampoo. randoms. lol. but yeah, my project for the hols (besides the forced packing and cleaning of my room) is to make a formal album. so now i have to go and buy one (there was this really nice one at myer but pricey and not really worth it since it only had 5 pages or so, but there was an alright one at kmart, but mum reckons that we should wait till there's a sale or something... cheapo asians. lol.) and i also have to print off a bunch of the photos that i have managed to collect on my computer... lol.
so yeah, then came home, read more of memoirs and then did more packing and such... to the sweet blissful tunes of switchfoot. maaaan, i'll never get tired of em. =)
but yeah... lots of arguing and... yeah. but now i have finished memoirs (just had dinner and was reading through dinner) and can't wait to see it. =) hehee.
i like cold showers.
~xox
26.12.o5
corny american accent...
happy birthday natty! not that you ever come here, but that's not the point. =)
since i have nothing to do (other than packing, which i did this morning...) and there's no one online to talk to... lolz. i've resigned myself to writing again. i'm trying to pick up the stories that i left for forever and yeah... just trying to get them up again.
someone please explain this whole odoyle thing to me? coz i am so lost and i... yeah. just lost. bah. since i have nothing better to do... something to do with billy madison? and then there's an actual band called odoyle rules... *shakes head* whatever.
dinner was good last night. chongs (uncle alan), chongs (uncle henry), chongs (uncle michael), tsangs and us. then later aunty eileen and uncle roger. twas good. salmon was soooo yummy. singing and stuff later was awesome.... then got me thinking a bit...
A ray of hope flitters in the sky
A shiny star lights up way up high
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born
A silent wish sails the seven seas
The winds have changed whisperin the trees
And the walls of doubt crumble tossed and torn
This comes to pass when a child is born
A rosy fume settles all around
You’ve got the feel you’re on solid ground
For a spell or two no-one seems forlorn
This comes to pass when a child is born
(spoken)
And all of this happened
Because whe world is waiting
Waiting for one child
Black, white, yellow, no one knows
But a child that would grow up and turn tears to laughter
Hate to love, war to peace
And everyone to everyone’s neighbour
Misery and suffering would be forgotten forever
It’s all a dream and illusion now
It must come true, sometimes soon somehow
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born
When a child is born
~ when a child is born christmas carol
just reminds me of a lot tis all... *sigh*
anywayz. yes, shall post it now. most likely going to natty's tonight... and SF is most likely to be coming around on SATURDAY!!! *weeeeeee*
~xox
25.12.o5
heat.
sweet sweet motown music. dad argues that the originals are better, and secretly i kinda agree with him, but don't let him hear me say that!
you and i must make a pact
we must bring salvation back
where there is love
i'll be there...
just call my name
and i'll be there.
woke up late this morning. rushing. then to church. uncle henry was funny. hehe. but yeah, twas good. planned dinner tonight. =) wish i could go early, but can't. dad needs to cook
so yeah, now i am sitting, after leftover lunch... and just motowning.
nothing much to write...
oh yeah. last night, did lots of packing. seems that everything that used to be stacked neatly (if rather dusty) on my shelves is now on the floor. this amounts to my "packing". lol. just cleared the computer table for the fiftieth time this holidays... but my floor is still not visible. but my shelves, on the other hand are looking very empty... lol.
merry christmas everyone. =) hope that you're enjoying it as much as i am! =)
thanks for everything everyone... =) i really shoulda sent around that email like rach did...
~xox
24.12.o5
wah, so much shopping.
so did all my last minute christmas shopping today. spent too much money maybe. but ah wellz. =) hope you don't already have it... coz if you do then i dunno whats imma gonna dooo... ><"
just finished reading marmalade boy. twas good. sweet and what not. corny and totally cliched... but nods. good stuff. =)
so tomorrow is christmas. how about that. another year gone by. a lot has happened. a lot of things happened that i try to forget about...
but let's not go there. =) it's christmas (almost) so happiness and such should ensue.
so a very merry christmas to all of you. =)
cookies were good last night. =) familiarity tis right rach... talking was good too. it's been a while. and now, when is our date with sotp??? lol. piccys to come, thanks to rachy
now spot the boy! hahaha. =) yes, rachy was there too, but there's no photographic evidence... stupid rach. =)
now i go to... i dunno actually! lol. but *nods* merry christmas etc etc. =)
edit: posted up my vm icons that i've made so far... using caps up to ep 4 this week. click "best day" and then scroll down till you get to the icons thing, click it and then scroll all the way down...
~xox
23.12.o5
marmalade boy.
omg. kill me now. i'm reading anime. kill me.
so yeah, ye gave me this a fair while ago... and i am only just starting to read it now... but it's pretty good. it takes a while getting used to the whole reading from right to left thingo... but tis going ok. =) i already know the story... but it's amusing. lol
going to towers later. to buy stuff. do we still even need to buy stuff? hummz... i dunno. bah.
anywayz.... leaving at... 2 to meet at 3. sounds good. =)
nothing at the moment. maybe shall eat something...
~xox
22.12.o5
bj2 and dryness.
so went to natty's today with the intention to go skating...
caught the train from penno at 9:01am and got there at around 9:12... haha. according to the cityrail timetable anyway, but i have my doubts. nat and jo were there, on time... walked back. breakfast-ish. eggballs and some awesome cookies (ten times better than mine!) hung and watched bridget jones: the edge of reason and then had lunch... chicken and salad, but we all know my status on salad. =)
then scabbed some of nat's stuff, by way of cds and books, then headed to macquarie. driving there, my arm was a bit itchy/ticklish... so brushed hair away... only it wasn't hair. IT jumped onto the back of the seat infront of me and i shrieked. nat saw IT and shrieked. aunty joyce asked why we were shrieking so we go "it's a bug!!! aaaH!" SHE gets freaked so she's leaning forward in her chair and uncle calvin is like "huh?" so nat goes "STOP THE CAR!!! STOP THE CAR!!!" so he does, and the three of us pile out, while he is left to deal with the problem of the... grasshopper.
eventful... lol. get to macquarie for the 1:30-3:30 session, waiting with all these fobby looking people.
skating was good. but painful in the end. was good... =)
came back... and piano-ed until it was time to go.
missed mum's train. finally got to penno. rentals were pissed. *sigh*
dinner and all that jazz. then i read... *sigh* how to write exactly what i think/feel in a completely cryptic way when you're already going to know what it's about. *sigh*
so i'm not going to. for once in my life i might just make it private.
today was good. until then. now i just feel weird. but that doesn't mean it's bad. is it bad? i dunno.
but now we've talked so...
~xox
21.12.o5
photos and goodbyes.
so i'm going to upload a whole bunch of photos... photos from jenolan caves/blue mtns, then photos from luna park, then photos from yesterday (although i didn't really get that many...)
so anyway... yesterday was good. there were moments when i just didn't really want to be there... thanks for the sms. =) twas right about then that i got over myself... so we watched scrubs and then i hung around outside with dulak and beck (and terry and max) for a bit... then hung with trish while the stooges went swimming... hung around for a bit (it was the WINDOW!!) and then the "men" started the bbq... ended up being ok. haha. i had my doubts. and the garlic bread was awesome. =) *bows* lol.
then it was time for... i dunno... randoms. lots of nintendo... and random talking... playing with birdie (It, CJ and... what else was it called?)... people left to go to don moore (more about that later...) while the rest of us settled down to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, a weird movie that fully messed with my head... twas pretty good though. =) jim carey was weird, as was kate winslet.. but meh.
by the time we had finished, they (not gonna say who) weren't back from don moore yet... not happy jan. *looks disapprovingly* but yeah... things eventually turned out semi ok...
cut cake... have photos of that. =) and yeah... =) then sat outside with people... "do you have a peanut tree?" hahahaha. =)
it turned out all good in the end. =) could have been better *cough* but yeah. =) love ya lee. =)
now i am about to go and send my relos to the airport. =( will miss em... until we go back to singapore next year. =)
oh yeah, comments for yesterday have been fixed...
~xox
2o.12.o5
i like my house.
being alone (or almost) is awesome. just the music and me (and the heat and the boredom, but let's not go there...)
supposed to be going to lee's... but dad has to come back from whatever it is that he's doing and send me there. lunch has called and been eaten... instead i am supposed to be writing. but i can't think. bah.
shall do some photos and give you a brief glimpse. i'm not going to make an actual album-ish thingo for it... actually maybe i will... bah.
ok... photos are done. =)
done... but i have to go now... heading over to lee's already. =)
~xox
19.12.o5
luna park has the potential to suck big time.
well, maybe i shall do the photos. i don't really have the energy to do it anymore. after all that formal photo-ing... photos just don't seem to appeal to me anymore. baaah.
when we went last night, it ended up being closed. so spent the night in the city, looking at christmas lights. i wonder, was i ever such a brat when i was little? hummz...
so went to luna park today. went on the rides, etc etc... blah blah. you don't want to know all the details. they were good, we had fun, that's all that matters.
went to koorong after. good. bought stuff. so natty. bday?!??! bah. can't think. *sigh* SF is coming along later... waiting for 15% off... bah.
ok. so in a completely bah-y stage... and i dunno why, so i'm just gonna go listen to some music, write that email i have been promising you and then... shall read again through this story and see how things go with it. bah. *sigh*
i am in SUCH a weird mood. pms galore. bah.
~xox
18.12.o5
compulsive blogger at your service.
so i might be going to luna park tonight... MIGHT... so just in case, i shall blog now. =)
but what about... OOH. read emails, and found out something VERY interesting... and tis... SWEET and cute, but could somehow maybe change things again. i know what was said, and all... but still... i just don't now if i'm ready for all this change and all that... *sigh* but you ROCK. =)
ok. look out for the edit. because i have a feeling that there will be one.
in any case, have to wake up at... 8... then shall church. and remember my tapes! =) and i didn't tape gg... just in case you thought i was going to... ><"
~xox
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churched and present talking... hope plans for thursday turn out. =) iceskating is always different depending on the people i guess... lolz. =) so shall be fun... hopefully i can get there.
oh yeah.. the photos won't be coming up. i can't be bothered... lol. sorry.
anywayz... nothing much to write. like i said... been thinking... and like... yeah. i dunno. ah wellz. =)
to you, things shall be ok, ok? =) stop freaking out about it!!! because it's gonna be ok!!! i think. and if it isn't... then you can come and bash me. =) ok?... not ok for me... but you know... if it makes you feel better... lolz.
~xox
17.12.o5
my mix, 106.5
i was so lookking forward to my carols thingo this year... but *sigh* missed it again... ah wellz... got to listen to it in the car on the way home....
so left at 8, then headed off to the blue mountains... not exactly that eventful, but you know... with the relos and all that, twas alright, i guess. three sisters and all that jazz, walking and you know... then went to some chinese restaurant and ate. so so... then to jenolan caves and blah. walked and pants got gross... think spring fair day (lol) though not as wet, but dirtier. haha.
nothing really much to report. just carols on the way home... nikki webster should go crawl into a hole and die. i mean... AAARGH!... (and don't you dare start singing...) but human nature. =)
oh yeah. and i thought about what i wanted for christmas... the motown album. =) and switchfoot... nothing is sound... and now i shall go and find dc for ya... all over again... shall talk to b... hummz...
photos of today shall come tomorrow... because i REALLY can't be bothered to do it now. =)
nothing else to random you with. but been thinking... *sigh*
~xox
16.12.o5
what do you wanna do? i dunno, what do you wanna do?
so spent most of the day at towers... but shall recount to all you loverly people about today's happenings (since you know, total lack of emo-ness and all that...)
woke up at 7am this morning. normal time if i was planning to go to school. which i did. finished off my kakuro... then realised that i'd stuffed it. pissy-ness to the max. =) then went to catch bus...
got to oakhill, talking to some of the year 9s... got to school then went to see dowler. she said that they'd be in 8:30-9:00... then saw trish and helen and then went to library to find chris. did sudoku. or tried to. i think my brain is getting fried over the holidays... ><" lol. ah well. waited... then we went to see dowler and then they were there!! hehe. then trish left to go change her details and then the city, chris went to see savage and helen and i went to look at photos. photos are AWESOME. =)
then took bus to towers, after waiting for ages for it to come... helen went home then chris and i just walked around... randoms. lol. rach got there around 10:20 then we random-ed around... went to timezone, and... bball-ed and that crocodile/alligator gam-ed... lolz. 38 tickets... and why do III get stuck with them? lolz. thanks for shouting games for me, miss pov. =)
went to food court and ate. well rach and chris did. i scabbed fries off rach's happy meal... =) thanks love-y.
then just sat and talked... twas good. then rach left. did more walking with chris. then went home.
*yawn* me is tired....
people that we saw today.... rhys, yin and beck... and apparently jana saw me... and then sorry to spud who we didn't see! =( hhehe.
got home ok... slept on bus... woke up just before my stop... ><" and now i have an empty house, which is sweeet. =)
spent arvo uploading some of the pro photos... they're up now. =) how productive... lol
heading off to jenolan caves... so i might actually not blog tomorrow... =( no matter how random anyway... =) hehhee. coz i know you love to read my random ramblings. =) teeheeee...
~xox
15.12.o5
potential weirdness
so this afternoon i shall be going to visit my ex-music teachers. yeah. plural. *freaks out* shall be weird... but cool. xmas and all that... i have no idea when we're going... but then shall head to the city... so *shrug* i dunno.
gave you the wrong number!! AAARGH. go check your email!!
anywayz... going back to writing my nano... which shall amuse... only one of you, who's not even here anyway. lol. =) hehe...
this is random. compulsive blogger at your service... currently entertaining myself with photo-ing... this compilation is seriously getting out of hand... *shrug*
anywayz... this is purely randomness. and have nothing even vaguley d+m to talk about... which is good i guess.
i was somewhat amusingly on a high yesterday... and i have since kind of died.
OH! i finished that stupid kakuro thingo... and now i am going to go and print some more... what else am i supposed to do in the car to the city eh? teehee... this shall be fun. =)
~xox
14.12.o5
cedric <333 [stole that from my fellow WAP]
teehee... well today was good. despite the two hours or so in total that i spent on public transport/walking... loved a GDO that hasn't been had in a while. =)
so woke up... at 9:45. this may seem early... but the intended leaving time of 10 was nearing and i rushed and everything. had 5 minutes to spare. but skipped brekkie as usual. =) hehe. so twas a mad rush down to pya's house. and then i got to the bus stop (i had no idea that there was an actual STOP... like, big yellow sign kind of stop...) and then i waited...
and waited...
the bus finally got there, and i got on (damn those smart bus drivers... had to pay $1.30... lol. cheapo asian moi.) and settled down to read yish's book (which i still have from like... three weeks ago...). it's pretty good. =) and tops too that it's chicklit/christian. =) yay. not too many of those around...
got to towers (early as it turned out) and saw a whole bunch of school people. anj, ellyn, chan, nat y, and then helena who came later... and rhys, nikhil and... ok. can't remember who else. rach came... then we went to walk... twas random... but fun. =) hehe. saw jay and joe... walking... winded up at asian grocery store on bottom floor bought cheapo pocky...
i'mn allergic to peanuts!! haha. yeah yeah. =)
then winded up at food for less. ended up coming out with nerds, gobstoppers and dried apple.
you know what i've always wanted to do? buy those, you know, noodles that come in cups... and then go to the parents' room and get hot water and eat them... and i thought iii was a cheap asian. =) hehe.
so yeah... just walking. pet shop and sneezes. then just sat outside the cinema for a bit. bought donut king stuff... then went in. =)
we were seated in the middle... ended up drinking most of frozen coke before it had even started. lol. but *nods* twas good. then previews... i love previews. =) and yeah... then it started and *nods* it was good. shut up to all those people who think it was crap. because XP i don't care! =) hehehe... yeah. they cut out bits, but i didn't really remember the book anyway... so lol. humz.... cedric was.. mmm... hehehe... he's too hot to die! and yeah... we all gotta love our little ronniekins. =) hehe. so yeah, i liked it. and not enough r/hr for me but ah wellz. was still sweet when she was like "omg you should have asked me before viktor did"... teehee... but yeah... still good. and liked snape in that bit where they're talking and stuff and he keeps hitting them.... lol.
we saw harry potter 4. you know, when people see a movie they should just say "yeah, i saw < insert movie title here >" teehee... our walking conversations are rather... erm... interesting..
had a good time love. it's been a while and when are we gonna have our SoTP day, huh? sleepover, indeed...
and so now i am back... watched degrassi this arvo... twas good. =) it always is. hehee.
ok. i think that's sufficiently long enough. =) notice how i have been having less and less d+ms? lolz. tis quite enjoyable actually... this whole rambling about daily routine thingo... but just wait till i get into a mood again. XP
~xox
13.12.o5
food awaits.
honestly, despite the whole eco thing yesterday... how much fun-er was yesterday than today, my first official day of the holidays? tis sad huh...
ok. so i wrote that around 1-ish... and the day was looking pleasantly boring. did some photo stuff and... what ELSE did i do? oh yeah, i wrote... lol. twas good.
then dad came home and chucked a spaz about how i'm wasting my life infront of the computer... spent the rest of the day in a bad mood... so RAAAAR.. *sigh*
anyway... yeah... spent most of the day (after i got offline) packing like i was supposed to, getting yelled at... *sigh*
had enough. threw a tantrum. tears and everything... *sigh* it's been a while since i've been like that... dad left to pick up mum so i went outside to the backyard with my diary and what turned out to be a shoddy pen. wrote until my pen screwed up... which was long enough for me to stop fuming... *sigh* then went to study/room and played SF real loud. i think i like having the study as my room since my cds are there, as is the cd player... get my drift? and i only need SF to calm me down. i ended up falling asleep and.. yeah. just had dinner. blah.
so anywayz... what's happening in YOUR world? *sigh* stupid stupid stupid..
i'm pretty bummed out... *sigh* after writing about... yeah... felt all crap again. but not thinking about it anymore... coz that just makes it too pyscho... blah.
anywayz.. nothing really all that interesting to blog. this evening was nice, just sitting... and SF-ing. i haven't done that solely in a while. and now look... coz you're on fire when he's near you... sweetness...
lalala... shall post...
I won't be your winter
I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
I will be here
~ your winter sister hazel
yeah well... =)
~xox
12.12.o5
i should sleep...
but just had the urge to post this...
Heavenly Father, Loving Lord,
As I come to pray,
I know that You hear each word I say;
Thank you for my family,
Thank you for my friends;
They're so special,
Please watch over them.
And I thank you God, Dear Father,
For each creature, great and small,
But I thank you, God,
For Jesus most of all.
Heavenly Father, please forgive
All my sins, I pray;
Help me to be true to you each day.
When I'm lonely, or afriad,
I know you'll be there;
Thank you that I'm always in Your care.
~ susan's prayer from papa john's musical garden (sung by trisha!)
~xox
edit:
so today was eco. got to school at normal time (but dropped instead of stinky bus!) then hung at library. was full weird for a bit, coz no one was there and twas just me and the librarians, fully looking at me... lolz. then people came and was basically our whole class and all the year 11s... lolz. mass study session... tried to study outside, but was too itchy. lol. mel and harshi stayed outside... felt like ages. but yeah... thanks to chris for hands down. =) caaaalmness... well, not really but lol.
the thing itself was... only ok. kind of made up some things, coz i had no idea, and i'm too scared to look it all up now to check, coz i'm pretty sure i didn't do crash hot. *sigh* ah wellz.
after eco went to towers (but not before seeing mr. d and getting band stamps! hehehe yay!) with chris, while the other dudes had already gone. got to towers then just randomly walking around... saw toph, rhys and tom... got boost after walking one whole round... lol. then saw joe and josh... sat with for a bit... then louisa and bomi came... then they all left. sat more then jong, jay and pallav came... funny asian/curry-ness.. lol.
went to buy condensed milk (more cookies on the way!) and then went back to timezone to watch them play pool. they're SOOOO asian/curry!!! lol. played air hockey with chris... close... i won 6-5. =) then went to bus... conveniently it just came. =) hehe. so then went home. walked.. twas weird to see all the jpps people walking home... lolz. but cool. came home and watched that amanda bynes thingo.... what i like about you twas pretty good... like how it carries on... lol. holiday tv! =) heheh
whelpz, today was good. =) now i am back to my photo pimping.
11.12.o5
happy bday zab!
sorry that i had to miss belmontes today... but hope you have a good time. if i don't talk to you before saturday, have a good trip, don't miss us too much and come back soon! =)) (and go watch p+p for THAT scene...)
so stupidly spent most of yesterday doing photos or sleeping... and didn't do quite as much eco as i had planned to. so now i am lagging behind, and starting to majorly freak out. i need time management big time. but yeah... this shall be brief.
thanks for the talks last night (and this morning)! it's been really good and yeah... still not feeling quite up to it, but better, and i guess that's better than nothing. so thanks.
musical was good last night. the kids rocked their hearts out. trisha made me teary, adrian was such a crooner, selena was a cutie, and papa john was just awesome. you guys rocked! encore, i say, encore!
photos shall come. tomorrow.
but for now, i dutifully go back to eco. since that is what i should be doing. *sigh*
~xox
1o.12.o5
a formal run down to be...
well, being the blog obsessed person i am... here i go leaving a space for the entry that shall be the formal entry.
photos will come, but will only post on spaces, and must collate with everyone else. then, and only then, shall i post it up here on geocities. =) hehee.
twas fun. =) write up to come...
stats: (before i forget...)
number of bobby pins in my hair: 48 (thanks amy + son!)
and that's it for now... not many photos... and half of them are random anyway. but *shrug* shall post later today... after i get to sleep.
~xox [12:34 am... edit to come later when i wake up again...]
so... recog was good. we played alright i guess, though was kind of getting stressed in the morning seeing as no one was there yet... eventually, we set up and we were all good... then by the time the assembly started, they'd moved all of our equipment. so we went up to perform and then began the first of our worries... yin tripped over the mike cord... and it fell, going bang. started off without anymore hitches... then yin forgot the words to the second verse. i screwed up some of my chords, and as usual forgot to go to the bridge... ah wellz. twas still all good in the end. =) got SC and did as well as i wanted to. =) hehe...
caught bus to towers with pya and ren, then went to library with pya and got books... then went back to pya's... walked home, and waited around for people to come. mum came home, we fixed dress (even though it was still loose and kept bugging me the whole night...) and then son and amy came. =) thanks so much! you guys rocked, and soooo many people were admiring your work. couldn't have done it without you guys! so yeah... i really liked the hair.
took us about 1 and a half hours... then left for rsl. dad came to take a couple of photos... but missed a bunch of other people. relying on other people to post their photos up somewhere... =) hehe... so yeah, everyone looked really hot and was just getting so psycho in the beginning... =) hehe. yeah. twas cool. then went inside, and twas really nice. sat at our "random" table... ate bits then took heaps of photos. lee and me: sluts r us... hahaha.. but yeah. twas weird and random... but *shrug* people might as well take the photos when we'll smile and show our faces. =) hahaha... yeah... waiting for the cd with all the photos on it... awards and all that... can't recite them to you off the top of my head... but yeah... twas funny. =) hahaha...
"danced" in bits... while other people were full into it... then sat back down for more awards... again, can't recite to you. hung with lee the whole night and then just went walking. music was way loud (but awesome) so ended up just trying to read each other's minds. lolz. twas lotsa fun lee. =)
dessert was good and the final three awards: best dressed guy (raja!), best dressed chick (specka!) and best couple (tanveer+jasse)... nods... then more dancing... the actual DANCE dance ones... e.g 5, 6, 7, 8 and the macarena... and the chicken dance, ymca... haha. twas awesome. =)
and yeah... felt bad about that whole dance thingo... so yeah... sorry!!! and just coz i SUCK!! ><" but yeah... year 12 =) hahaha...
so twas good... then went home. took forever to get the pins out my hair... and was getting sad all over again that i lost one of my stabby things.. so then i had a shower to get all the guck outta my hair and off my face. and now i am here.
while everyone else it at jay's. i shall study tomorrow morning... i shall, i shall... *sigh*
photos are being uploaded onto spaces right now... so go check it out. =) and link me to other photos. =) would love ya forever. =)
~xox [1:12 am]
what else to write... humz... i can't remember details... i've got a massively sore throat... but i came away feeling rather... i dunno... sad? like, it's all over... that and it just brings the eco thing all the more closer... and yeah... i dunno... maybe there might have been ways to make the night better than it already was... but *shrug* won't dwell on that... lolz. love you all. =) thanks for a great night. =)
so anyway... back to normal, regular, random blogging... just did this blogthing...
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 "But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so moving on" In 2005, you moved on. |
interesting... lolz. it depends on what i put that is most likely on my playlist...
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 "My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating" In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care. |
coz then i could get that... lolz. *shrug* meh. both sound pretty... ok...
(ok... so i can't get it out of my mind how half the formal was screwed up... yeah... pretty much came home just feeling like ship...)
should so be studying for eco... meanwhile, the rentals and the relos are out at bondi... *sigh* ok. should get back to studying... then shall talk.
photos posted and will be collated over time...
~xox [15:30]
o9.12.o5
addicted to you.
my blog my blog, i love you so, that wherever i am and whereever i go, i am always thinking of you, and what i shall write, whether it is cold, or day or night. my poetry sucks, and i should spare you the pain, of my rhymes and randoms that you'll no doubt see again.
ok. that was amusing... anyway... formal today. officially... hope things go ok with resources for this arvo...
and recog shall be fine. =)
i shall post an extensive post about the formal on saturday, since *drumroll* i don't have to go to chinese!!!! hehehe.. =) yay!
but i should be eco-ing... humz... this is like HSC dude... what the hell are you doing??? (talks to self...)
*sigh* i shall be fiiiine... everything shall be fiiiine.
despite the fact that i feel like i let myself down by doing not as well as i usually do...
good morning sunshine! =) i shall be awake in... less than 7 hours... =)
ooh... if you're coming on saturday... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE bring season 2?? =) *hopes*
anywayz... that's it. see you all today.
and i'm glad you all liked the cookies and stuff. =) hehe.
~xox
o8.12.o5
check this out!
that's an ebay listing for a friend... jewellery and all that. check it out. =)
so yeah... today was... hot amongst other things. lolz. had to organise the whole thing for ms. t... glad that she liked it and props to harshi and her mum for getting it! SOOO pretty! =) hahaha... twas awesome though. *tear* last maths class with our class... it's been mad fun. =) then geo... kinda sad to lose sheridan... she's an awesome teacher. have fun all those people with her next year for legal! =) humz... then period 5 we were supposed to perform for dowler, but then the whole scripture thing was going on... so they were moving stuff and all that... and then yeah, we didn't end up doing it. got into a bit of a pissed off mood over the whole thing... i'd like to blame the heat, but i can't really... i'm gonna go find a post that i wrote in computing... period 6 after all the drama... ><"
you know that full happy mood i've been in for the past... week and a bit? yeah, well consider that trashed, stomped on, and eaten by whales. (or turtles if you wish)... all this recog thing... and i just wasted my last ever science period walking around the school being the messenger girl... a rollercoaster of moods and stuff... *shrug* i dunno. i'm just BLAH...
so yeah... that's what i was feeling. sorry to people that i snapped at.
english we had a party, which was pretty awesome... thanks to mrs. ingersoll who basically brought all the food... didn't enjoy it much because i was still moody etc... meh.
what to write... so that was like the last day of year 10. basically anyway. did the whole peersupport thingo this morning. our group seems... haha. nah tis cool. lee and moi... yet again... =) hehehe...
waiting for english classes to be put up tomorrow morning...
recog shall be cool tomorrow. (think positive...)
glad that you had fun love! and photos are awesome. =)
so i think i'm just going to keep in a (semi)positive frame of mind... and tomorrow (the WHOLE of it) shall be just fine... i hope.
*sigh* i shall not be blogging tomorrow... unless i blog tomorrow MORNING.. (ie 12-ish) humz... *shrug* we'll see.
ok. so i'm gonna go... not really in a blogging mood... i think i'm still a bit... ><" about the whole recog thing... but we did it during lunch, and dowler said that it was fine... but yeah... *shrug*
You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don't ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are.
Blue | 71% | ||
Pink | 61% | ||
Yellow | 50% | ||
Green | 46% | ||
White | 39% | ||
Purple | 36% | ||
Black | 25% | ||
Red | 21% | ||
Orange | 0% |
~What colour is your heart?~
created with QuizFarm.com
i so don't think so.
~xox
o7.12.o5
i wish i had a cookie cutter...
then my cookies would rock... but oh well, i had fun anyway... i love cooking. =) and i was a good girl and did all the washing up too! =) hehehe... but back to my daily recount...
whelpz, this morning, the bus drove past me... i mean just HOW could he do that huh?? ME?!?!? hehehe... but meh. so then dad sent me to oakhill, caught the bus to school.. then went to uniform shop yet again. bought tie... but then again didn't want to buy stupid shirts that no one can fit properly (except stupid people like trish, ye, alicia and lee... and other people too... but i can't remember... stupid.) maths and we were doing work!! *whines* lolz. english fully bludged doing storeroom stuff... didn't end up joing KP's class coz you were all doing something random... so we bummed. we're having a party tomorrow!!! =0 hehehe. recess was in the music room... at least our stuff was, while we went around getting permission for practice... geo and that stupid vid... practice was good today. science was bludgy since we basically spent half of it just looking up at SS classes... legal and dumas shall be AWESOME!!! hehehe... but business.... *shudder* hahaha... i'm sure it'll be ok... somehow... i'll live! =) i mean, i have my MUMMY there to protect me!! hehehe... then actually went to science, where we'd joined with johns' class.... just randomed... sport and twas hot.. but trish got to come! (thanks jessie for your pe uniform!!!) hahaha.. =) so i came... NOT last! hahaha. played air hockey which was fun too. =) hehehe... and then what else... came back, then hung, watching scrubs... which was amusing for a while... heheh... then went to dentist to get plate retainer... and it feels funny. it's like a mould of my teeth... but clear... *shrug* tis pretty... gross... hahaha. =) but me shall be a good girl and actually WEAR it! =) heehee...
oh yeah.. got to buy ingredients for cookies after... sweeet. =) hehehe... came home and then rested for a bit, then started making them... the first couple turned out to be HUGE... but yeah... then after much experimentation i got them down to normal, ok size... =) hehe. made two batches... and now simply have to wrap them up all prettiful. =) hehehe...
maaaan... can't believe that today is the third last day... then thursday then friday... (then monday... blergh. let's not think abotu that just yet....) but yeah... this year has been awesome. the ending more so than the beginning... but tis sad... *sigh* i dunno... feel like things are really gonna change next year... i dunno... i just have this feeling... *shrug* i dunno... i think i'll just... stop "i dunno"-ing...
hope you're having fun tonight. you look like a HAG all the time. don't worry!
what to write... nothing much. but subtlety in the bathroom... ingenious.. hahaha. =)
shall post so y'all have something to read while i go and wrap. =)
mmm... cookies... =)
wrapping and lotsa trays...
guess what's cooking...?
COOKIES!!
ok.that's enough. =)
~xox
o6.12.o5
madness.
after this "evening" i'm starting to get really freaked about the whole formal deal... blah. but shall recount properly as i should. =)
today was pretty boring... last ever computing double... which was kind of sad, in a way, but spent the most of it gmailing and tb-ing. =) hehe. nothing else to do anywayz... recess comprised of me... doing something, which i can't remember... hummmz... *shrug* ah wellz. double english was boring as (poetry and all that just doesn't sit perfect with me...) and then eco, which was pretty bludgy, which worries me considering we have an assessment on MONDAY!! maths and had to actually MATHS... lunch was spent running around the school with jessie getting permission for periods 7 and 8. then spent periods 7 and 8 rehearsing... did randoms too which was cool. felt very... added-on though... should have been ye.... *shrug* visited ST for a bit... my wonderful services. =) i love ST i really do. =) hehehe. anyway... yin and alicia got busted though... ren and moi kinda feel bad... =/ and i wasn't really all that sympathetic to it either...
so then this afternoon, after school, went to towers with pya, jay, chris and adam. pya was getting earrings (which we found at diva, but are yet to buy) and some hair thing... (i KNOW what it is!!! lol) then went with chris to buy shoes... though HE didn't get anything either...
jay: (to salesman) how much are these shoes? *shows him shoe*
dude: $99.95
jay: (to chris, within earshot of dude) that's like five cents off your limit.
just love the bluntness. =) hehehe
so yeah... then walked home... "slowly"... sorry guys.. i figured that (since it was 4:55) i would be able to get home in time to tape degrassi if i walked really fast... so i did... and got home in record time... 5:15!!!! usually i'd get home at like... 5:40 or something... haha. ok, just coz i walk slow. =) hehehe. but maaan... twas so hot!! lol. dumped my stuff at home... then ran down to amy's house... amy, nat, steph, jeanne and moni were there (as well as trisha!) but steph left after a bit... so yeah... spent about an hour and a half there... their hair looked SOOO good; they both had it up and everything... maaaan... and loved the sparkly clips and stuff in nat's hair! make up was done expertly by moni... "this may feel really thick, but it looks hot and that's the look that we're going for!" hehee. =) *nods* twas muchos fun. thanks to aunty joyce (and later uncle stan) for putting up with me when i brought myself over uninvited... =) hehehe
you better take lots of photos tomorrow, my dear! =) hehehe... i'll call you... *hugs*
so yeah... had steamboat for dinner... and now i am blogging, after having served ice cream... "as you wish"... maaaan... princess bride is AWESOME!!! hahaha... ok, so at the time i thought that it was really crap... especially every time duffy told hagan that we hadn't watched it yet... lolz. but yeah... "my name is inigo montoya, you killed my father, prepare to die"... lolz. =) love it. hehehe.
so that will end my post.
and OOH! i finally got my hands on stars... SF! =) hehehe... my 30 bux from sunday is sooo going towards nothing is sound!! =) weeee!! i will finally own it!!! and actually be able to listen to it!!!
thanks to lisa ye for her cd! =) love it! and something else that i was supposed to write... *shrug* humz... don't remember... ah wellz.
that was a long-ish blog entry... and pretty from deepness... haven't had on of them in a while...
GAAH... i just remembered... then forgot again... BLAH!
~xox
o5.12.o5
don't you just hate it when...
it seems that some people can't make up their mind about certain things, so by changing their mind at a later date, they kind of screw things up for other people... but blah. didn't turn out so bad in the end anyway.
ok. so it's not really all that screwed up... just that helen decided that she DID in fact want to go to the formal, making our nice, even 30 into a yucky gross 31... there was space on sach's table but... she kinda wanted to sit with them. so we shifted people (after initially forgetting nee...) and i found myself, with lee, on the "random" table... if you don't mind me calling it that... lol. =) hehehe. but yeah. i think it shall be ok. it might even be better since i'm not with the whole... group drama thing... blah. but yeah... might be a tad weird... but meh.
today was so damn hot. it really is summer weather now... ><" too hot for my liking...
it's finally just dawning on me how close this eco thing really is... but yay to mrs. robinson for making us notes... that are good. =) hehe. see? i've already done some study! *nods*
i really like this song jay... i will follow you into the dark... tis pretty sweet... but haven't listened to some of the other dcfc stuff... so will have to see... lol. i'm currently resisting that whole thing, but we'll see i guess.
found out maths classes today... shall be AWESOME... mrs. tomanovic AGAIN!!! =))) hehehe. so awesome. =) feel sorry for the people who got the random teacher... but lol. i'm happy. =) and i don't feel that way very often... =) hehe.
but the whole eco thing is freaking me out...
woohooo.. hair. =) hehe. i'm getting excited about it all over again... =)
oooh... have to tell about dancing... hehe. twas a bit gross because twas so hot... but it's been cool. =) started off with eric... man... i suck and have no co-ordination... then went full on this circle thing and had to dance with everyone... lolz. twas funny... and lee and i now have plans... *does that thing with the fingers... you know when you like... like mr burns in the simpsons..* ok... it totally loses its effect when you have to explain it... lolz. ah wellz. =) but WHAT??? it'd be... interesting... hahaha. =) and then was badgering elon about The Formal... haha. twas amusing... =) oh yeah... and stupid lee and the water... though i liked actually DRINKING it... iiiiice...
ok. randomness. nothing much else... could post lyrics...
my blog is going back to pure randomness... that's because of the lack of drama.. which is a good thing i guess! =) hehe... though you know... there has been some thinking going on...
~xox
o4.12.o5
blihblahblihblah
translated as: huge poo.... BAAAAH... so plans for hair fell through... and spend most of today trying to figure out an alternative....
so yeah... but blah. son, steph, rach and becs... and possibly amy... i dunno. maybe i'm shooting too high... blah. stupid formal. stupid stupid stupid. hence the blihblahblihblah. lolz. humz... ah wellz... whatever. i've given up.
finished yesterday's samurai sudoku and it was good. =) so yeah... blaaaah
happy 22nd birthday ecc! prizegiving, lunch and items... twas good. =) nods... despite crappy hair-ness... maybe i'm just obsessing... BLAH.
this blog is very dead. i have nothing to blog about. that is definitely a first. and like... i have a poem-y kind of mood going on... but like... nothing to actually WRITE... maybe i should just lyrics this... =) nah. will attempt to write... i haven't done it in a while...
as the walls close in
she hears the screams
of something inside her
warning her to
get out.
but she can't
because her mind traps her there
before she can escape
and she keeps thinking
circles around
and around
until she's dizzy
and can't even think straight anymore
the only thoughts going around
are the same, exactly
but even they aren't
clear enough to make sense.
ok. i'll leave it to the pros....
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby
Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
I promise you
~ this i promise you nsync
yeah...
so i am back to looking up hair... something simple... but blah. i think i might just kind of give up and just go dead straight and out. blah. easy. but just need to get stuff and all that... make up?? don't even ask me... BLAH.
ok. that'll do. until later anyway... and what's up with recog anyway? what are we doing?? sucks that you have to play drums when you don't want to... but like... just say so! *shrug* easier said than done i guess... sticking my nose out of it now...
that's it for today... maybe i'll edit later...
~xox
o3.12.o5
the tension is here...
man i love these guys. they are simply awesome. =) (beat bsb!! then again... depends on the mood...)
so chinese went alright... i studied it all...
and where did i sleep last night? i forgot to tell you about the air mattress that we have... that i have to sleep on... but it has a puncture in it.. so make that had to sleep on... so yeah... no i am basically sleeping on the floor. woopdidoo... ><" blah. ah wellz.
i like the silence of the house, with only music playing... tis so awesome... and there's nothing quite like it... =)
i am so blog obsessed... nothing has happened... yet i am compulsively blogging...
ok. so i've been thinking a lot... too much... whatever... and it's like... blah. future and all that... it scares me... it really does. and like... i dunno, i used to think that i'd be able to just move on and all that, but i've figured that there are a couple of people that i couldn't stand to lose... yet it already feels like i'm losing them.
what am i talking about??? i have no idea. blah.
anywayz... not really sure what else to write... maybe i'll edit it later... with something vaguely interesting... *shrug* who knows...
he loves her definitely maybe... love that song. i really do.
ok. now i'm just crapping on... for the sake of it?
ok. there's something that i do want to write... but i don't have the guts to write it here, not knowing who reads. so it will remain safely on my computer... confused and alone in a crowd of acquaintances
b . l . a . h
edit: tabulas.com is so awesome. =) hehe... search me, and you'll probably find me. not that hard to take a stab at! lolz. anyway... yeah. spent my arvo doing that... BAD influence poo! lolz. but yeah... twas fun, and i like the look of it now. =)
and i think i figured out why the second entry wasn't showing up! hopefully it'll be fixed now!
love you no matter what. hope tonight goes well.
edit2: well dinner was pretty good with the "family"... yeah... food was ok i guess. but man my cousins are crazy... lol. i guess i wouldn't have it any other way... lol. didn't end up taping oth... since i figured that it wasn't anywhere near as fun watching them again... besides, i can just get it off you later! =) hahaha.... so yeah, taped gg for those who want it. rach, will give to pya first.. then give to you NEXT sunday? is that cool? coz i'll give you VM tomorrow...? anywayz... blah. nothing. eco... *sigh*
~xox
o2.12.o5
cllrybch.
edit: trust is a huge issue. smile for me yeah? *hugs*
back back back... enjoyable. =) muchly. =) recap to follow... with many bits forgotten in everything...
and i figured that i didn't end up having to miss a day of updating! lol. ok... saaaaad....
anywayz... so got picked up by pya's dad (thanks!) then went back to their house, coz pya was running late. (predictable! hehehe) got to school, mingled... blah. roll call then on to bus. stole chris' ipod (taaas!), bsb-ed all the way. =)
got to the place, then... then... something... lol. oh. dumped stuff in that room. then went to amphitheatre and had one of those talk thingoes, you know, instructions yadayada... morning tea, back to amphitheatre then off to "initiative" which was basically a teamwork/communication thingo. 3 planks and a rope and you had to get to the other side using planks. took us a bit then got going. our group was pretty cool, so no worries. =) then did the "get two planks down to the bottom" thingo.. we won. =) w00t. hehe. (just for you pya!) back for lunch (chicken thingo in a roll plus some other stuff?? mini peaches!!!) then went to do "challenge", which was a whole bunch of "challenges"... the swing one. we did good. =) (i did good... kneed jeffery in the balls...) hehe. then... the maze, which was cool.
me: *hears voices... REAL voices* omg! we're going to crash!! are we going to crash??? we're going to crash!!
pya: *stiffles laughter*
shut up. =) heehhee... then... balance thingo which was pretty cool. (must steal that photo off yish!) and then The Wall... lol. caps and everything. =) hehehe... yeah. ok, so i did make it over... scratches and all. =) ouch. lolz. but twas cool. rizzuto and tom... haha. then... went back to get changed for beach. couldn't be bothered. go anti-beach me. =) lol. then got there... no beach?!?!?! but got to go on the sand and stuff. some people went swimming... then... maaaan. i can't remember all the funny bits. ah wellz. so sand castle.... that died. and nee's elephant that toby stepped on. then toby the mermaid. =0 haha. twas fun. =) nice and sunny, just the way i like it. =) so yeah... toby the mermaid. (see photos... lol) then came back, then just lay on the lawn, half watching the bballers, half just lying. twas sweetness. =) and nice talking. =) herm... then eventually dinner (roast and stuff). humz... then games and stuff... did random HUGE games... though thankfully we came in late, so we weren't right in the front... so hence didn't get picked. twas cool though... then trivia... 10 outta 10 (thanks to yish and her awesome rendition of "i'm a little teapot"!!! hehehe) then more games and stuff... "honey if you love me" was hilarious. =) hahaha. then the pocket game... we did not so good on that! lol. jong and his smelly socks... then steph and her biggest piece of earwax... ><" lolz. then JINGLES!! haha. like church camp.. and like church camp, group came second. ah. wellz. and then we thought of a billion... ><" lolz. *sigh* overall came second too (but might've won if we had won jingle thingo... since the team that one was supposed to have been out but... blah). then... "supper" with awesome chocolate biscuits and had awesome convos in the line. (love ya t!) heheh... then... "sleep"... got steve's shoe... tried to fix shoelace... (eventually did, thanks to lee's scissors, jay's safety pin and water!) then hung around... bed, talked for a bit, then drifted off into sweet oblivion...
woke up to nee's nudging, even though i was on the verge of waking up already anyway... packed etc... stupid dudes playing ball so early! lol. how can you HAVE that much energy in the morning??? pfft. then breakfast... camp eggs... *makes face* lol. then bags to auditorium, then amphitheatre again... went off to do abseiling... too chicken to do the 10... so just did 5 and then became photogirl. =) then back to place, morning tea (awesomely awesome slice!!!!) then did leadership. games were cool... and talks and blah. "mixing" hahaha. nods. lunch (roll and salad-y stuff...). hanging on the lawn... just lying down. =) sweeet. back to amphitheatre (it's really cool... i like it... twas like... the meeting place of the whole thing)... on to buses... stole ipod again!! hehehe. =) then bsb-ed and westlif-ed back to school. =) umz... got to school, collected money... solo... mmm... then... just randoms. =) hehee.
if i had to choose a camp theme song? i'd have to get two... lol.
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know
~ just want you to know backstreet boys
and
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you...but
Love is all I have to give
~ all i have to give backstreet boys
what? we bsb-ed on the bus there??? what did you expect? lolz.
after all the drama over rooms, turned out ok. maybe we would have talked more if there had been different people, but oh well. twas heaps fun. =) awesomeness. photos are posted too, so go and check... and since there are some incompetents... will throw in the link here...
hope you like... and then check out spaces for more. just too hard to format them all... blah.
so what now? should actualy be studying for chinese exam tomorrow.. but wanna ask my mum if she'll write me a note... and get an extension... since i ahven't really been around to study for it anywayz... blah.
~xox
o1.12.o5
westlife.
niceness. =) hehe. lots of fun. but should so go to sleep now...
All they know
Is when we fight
They never see us in the loving times
What do they know
They don't know
A thing
And they don't know
How the laughter flies
Only the stories
Most of which are lies
What do they know
They don't know
A thing
How can you understand
A love so strong
When you never shared that with someone
And when all the lies are dead and gone
We'll still be here
We'll prove them wrong
Cause they don't feel
Your touch at night
The way your hair falls in the morning light
What do they know
They don't know
A thing
How can you understand
A love so strong
When you never shared that with someone
And when all the lies are dead and gone
We'll still be here
We'll prove them wrong
Cause all they know is how to criticize
They'll never take a chance in their own lives
What do they know
They dont know
A thing
And all I know
Is they don't know a thing
~ what do they know westlife
the screen is going funny colours... *blink blink*
sleep.. but going to miss one day of posting... *SHOCK HORROR!!* lol. ah wellz. i am sure i will survive... hehehe..
gnite. and have a good thursday and friday. have fun at HP today!
~xox