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CHAPTER 21

ONCE WE WERE ON THE ROAD I KEPT STARRIG OUT THE WINDOW
WISHING I STILL HAD MY FRIENDS WITH ME.JUSTIN CAME OUT
OF THE BACK WONDERING WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. HE SAT NEXT
TO ME AND PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME.I WAS A LITTLE
STARTLED BY IT AND JUMPED." HEY EVERYTHING OK?" "YEA,
IM JUST THINKING."I SAID AS I PLACED MY HEAD ON HIS
SHOULDER. "DONT WORRY THEY'LL MAKE IT ALRIGHT.PLUS
THEY SAID THEY WOULD CALL YOU ONCE THEY GOT HOME."
"YEA I KNOW BUT THATS NOT WHAT IM THINKING ABOUT." I
SAID AS I KEPT LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW OUT TO THE DARK
SKY."WELL THEN WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT YOU KNOW
TALKING ABOUT IT HELPS.AND IMM THE PERFECT GUY TO TAK
TO!" HE SAID WITH A BIG SMILE. I SMILED BACK AT
HIM."YEA I KNOW, WELL THE THING IS THAT MONIKA ASKED
ME SOMETHING AND ITS BEEN BUGGIN ME, I MEAN WELL ITS
HARD TO EXPLAIN." I SAID LOOKING DOWN TO MY HANDS
WHICH I WAS FIDGETING WITH."WELL WHY DONT YOU TELL ME
WHAT SE SAID THATS BUGGIN YOU AND ILL TRY TO
UNDERSTAND." HE SAID LOOKING AT ME."WELL ITS KINDA.."
JUSTIN LIFTED MY CHIN UP WITH HIS HAND SO I WAS
LOOKING AT HIM IN THE EYE."LISTEN IT CANT BE THAT BAD
YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO TALK TO ME ABOUT
ANYTHING." "OK JUST PROMISE YOU WONT GET ALL WEIRD ON
ME." I SAID AS I WAS PLEDING WITH MYSELF NOT TO TELL
HIMM THE TRUTH. "I PROMISE NOW TELL ME." "OK HERE
GOES." I SAID AS I SHIFTED MY BODY SO MY BACK WAS
AGAINST THE WINDOW AND I WAS FACING HIM.MY LES WERE
KINDA SQUSHED SO JUSTIN TOOK MY LEGS AND PLACED THEM
OVER HIS LAP THEN WITH HIS HANDS HE RUBBED THEM."DO
YOU FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT BETWEEN US?" HE
LOOKED AT ME AND SAID "WHAT?WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" THEN I
LOOKED DOWN AND SAID " WELL MONIKA AND PAM ASKED ME IF
THERE WAS SOMETHING GOING ON BETWEEN US?I GUESS TO
THEM IT LOOKED LIKE WE ARE A COUPLE.THEN AFTER SHE
SAID THAT IT MADE ME THINK, BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THINGS
HAVE CHANGED BETWEEN US SINCE WE ARE BOTH OLDER NOW."
I LOOKED BACK UP TO JUSTIN TO SEE HIS REACTION.HE JUST
SAT THERE AND DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.BY THIS TIME HE
HAD STOP RUBBING MY LEGS AND HIS HANDS WERE PLACED ON
THE TABLE.WITH THAT I KNEW HE DIDNT LIKE ME.I STOOD UP
AND JUMPED OVER THE TABLE AND STARTED TO LEAVE TO MY
BUNK.I STOPPED MIDWAY AND LOOKED BACK AT HIM
"NEVERMIND IT WAS A STUPID OF ME TO MENTION IT.WE ARE
JUST GOOS FRIENDS."THEN I TURNED AND JUMPED INTO MY
BUNK.I HAVE KNOWN HIM MY WHOLE LIFE AND HE NEVER SAW
ME IN THAT LIGHT.YET I ALWAYS COMPARED THE GUYS I WENT
OUT WITH TO HIM.I COULD ALWAYS SEE HIM AS SOMETHING
MORE THEN A FRIEND.I THOUGHT TO MYSELF AS I DUG MY
FACE DEEPER INTO MY PILLOW AND STARTED TO CRY WHEN
JUSTIN OPENED THE CURTAIN TO MY BUNK.LUCKLIY I HAD MY
BACK TOWARDS HIM AND I WIPED AWAY MY TEARS.THEN I
TURNED OVER TO SEE HIM SITTING THERE.HE WENT TO SAY
SOMETHING BUT I WAS AFRAID OF WHAT HE MGHT SAY THAT I
INTERUPPTED HIM."LOOK WE'VE KNOWN EACHOTHER OUR WHOLE
LIVES,WE'VE GROWN SO CLOSE AND LOVE AND CARE FOR ONE
ANOTHER AS A BROTHER AND SISTER DO. I GUESS IT COULD
REALLY BE WEIRD IF WE EVER DID GET TOGETHER." I HAD TO
HIDE MY TRUE FEELINGS FOR HIM.I FAKED A SMILE.IT WAS
ALL A LIE.I DID WANT HIM AS SOMETHING MORE BUT I KNEW
HE COULDNT LIKE ME IN THAT WAY.HE SMILED BACK AND SAID
"WE HAVE KNOWN EACHOTHER TO LONG, BECAUSE YOU TOOK THE
WORDS RIGHT OUT OF MY MOUTH."RIGHT AS HE SAID THAT MY
HEART SANK AND SHATTERED FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME. I GOT
OUT OF MY BUNK A LITTLE WHILE AFTER I WAS DONE
CRYING.I WENT TO THE BACK AND HEADED TOWARDS WHERE ALL
THE GUYS WERE, EXCEPT JUSTIN. I WALKED IN AND SAT AT
THE END OF THE COUCH.I GRABBED A PILLOW AND HUGGED
IT.JOEY,LANCE,CHRIS AND JC WERE BUSY PLAYING VIDEO
GAMES THAT THEY DIDNT NOTICE ME COME IN. I JUST SAT
THERE AND WATCHED.THEN JOEY LOST SO HE CAME AND SAT
NEXT TO ME.HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME AND SMILED "WHAT
IS WRONG WITH MY SUGARPLUM?" I SMILED AT
HIM,"NOTHIN,JUST A LITTLE TIRED."I SAID AS I PUT MY
HEAD ON HIS SHOULDER AS TEARS CAME DOWN MY CHEEKS.
"HEY WHATS WRONG?" HE SAID CONCERNED AND MAKING ME
LOOK UP AT HIM.I LOOKED AT HIM AND THEN STARTED TO CRY
FULLON.I JUST COVERED MY FACE WITH MY HANDS AND JOEY
HUGGED ME."JOEY WHAT DID YOU DO??" JC SAID AS ALL THE
GUYS HEARD ME CRYING."NOTHING I SWEAR ALL I DID WAS
ASK HER WHATS WRONG?" THEY ALL LOOKED AT EACHOTHER.I
SLOWLY CALMED DOWN AND BACKED AWAY FROM JOEY.I LOOKED
UP AT JOEY AND THEN SAW ANOTHER 3 PAIRS OF EYES
STARRING AT ME.THEN JOEY ASKED ME "WHAT HAPPENED?"
JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO SPEAK JUSTIN WALKED IN THE
BACK."UMM.. THANKS JOEY FOR THE TALK BUT IM TIRED I'LL
SEE YOU GUYS IN THE MORNING.NIGHT."I SAID AS I PASSED
JUSTIN AND WAKED BACK TO MY BUNK.THE GUYS JUST LOOKED
AT EACHOTHER LIKE WHAT THE HEEL WAS THAT ABOUT.THEN
THEY FIGURED IT OUT IT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH JUSTIN
SO THEY LEFT IT AT THAT.I GOT BACK TO MY BUNK AND
CALLED MONIKA.I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPENED AND THE NEXT
THING I HEARD WAS A SCREAMING "I KNEW IT!!YOU DUCK!YOU
SHOULD OF TOLD HIM HOW YOU REALLY FEEL!!"I TOLD HER "I
CAN'T HE DOESNT FEEL THE SAMEWAY AND I DIDNT WANT TO
SET MYSELF FOR A HEARTBREAK EVEN THOUGHT I HAD ONE
ANYWAYS.AND I COULDNT DEAL WITH IT.I STARTED CRYING
AGAIN.THEN SHE TOLD ME "GRAB CHARLIE AND HOLD HIM
TIGHT."MEANWHILE JUSTIN WAS TALKING TO JC AND TELLING
HIM WHAT HAPPENED.THEN JC TOLD HIM HOW I WAS CRYING
BEFORE HE WAKED IN.THEN JUSTIN TOLD JC THE TRUTH ABOUT
HOW HE REALLY FELT ABOUT ME.I FELT TIRED AND I CRIED
MYSELF TO SLEEP.JC GOT JUSTIN TO THINK STRAIGHT AND
JUSTIN DECIDED TO TELL ME THE TRUTH.HE WENT TO MY BUNK
ONLY TO FIND ME SLEEPING PEACEFULLY.I KEPT THINKING
ABOUT HOW WE WILL ALWAYS BE JUST FRIENDS.I WOKE UP IN
THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO GET A WATER BOTTLED BECUZ
MY MOUTH WAS DRY.I COULDNT GO BACK TO SLEEP ANYWAYS.
AS I WAS WALKING TO THE FRIDGE I SAW SOMEONE'S HEAD ON
THE COUCH.I SAT ACROSS FROM HIM, IT WAS LANCE.HE
LOOKED OVER AT ME "COULDNT SLEEP?" "NO." I SAID AS I
LAID ACROSS THE OTHER COUCH.MY EYES WERE STILL RED AND
PUFFY CUZ LANCE ASKED ME "WHATS WRONG?" I EXPLAINED TO
HIM WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND THAT I DINDT MEAN ANYTHING
I SAID TO JUSTIN.I STARTED CRYING AGAIN AND LANCE CAME
AND SAT NEXT TO ME. HE HELD ME AND TOLD ME EVERYTHING
WOULD WORK OUT FOR THE BEST.ONLY IF I WANTED IT TO. WE
STAYED UP TALKING AND HE TOLD A SIMILAR SITUATION THAT
HAD HAPPENED WITH HIM AND PAM.SHE TOLD HIM HOW SHE
FELT BUT HE WASNT SURE AND NOW HE REGRETS NOT TELLING
HER HOW HE REALLY FEELS.WE BOTH FELL ASLEEP TALKING ON
THE COUCH.THE NEXT MORNING I WOKE UP TO HEARING
SOMETHING CHRUNCHY.I OPENED MY EYES TO SEE LANCES FACE
AND HS WAS STILL ASLEEP.I YAWNED AND STARTED TO
STRECH.THEN I HEARD "GOOD MORNING." FROM LANCE.I
SMILED AND SAID "THANK YOU FOR STAYING UP AND
LISTENING TO ME." "THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR." I JUST
HUGGED HIM AND SMILED."ITS NICE TO SEE YOU SMILING
AGAIN."HE SAID AS HE LOOKED AT ME."ITS NICE TO
ACTUALLY SMILE AGAIN." THEN WE HEARD "GOOD MORNING
SLEEPING BEAUTIES!" "GOOD MORNING CURLY FRY!" I DIDNT
EVEN HAVE TO LOOK UP TO KNOW WHO IT WAS. HE WAKED IN
THE ROOM AND SAT ON THE OTHER COUCH."WELL ARENT YOU
TWO CUDDLING." I SAT UP AND JUMPED OVER LANCE AND
STOOD IN FRONT OF JUSTIN. "ITS NOT LIKE YOU SHOULD
CARE." I SAID AS I WALKED OUT OF THE ROOM AND HEADED
TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT.I SAT BY THE WINDOW EATING MY
TOAST AND OJ.I KEPT TELLING MYSELF I HAVE TO TELL HIM
THE TRUTH.THE CONCERT CMING UP WAS THE LAST ONE I
COULD GO TO.THE ONE AFTER THAT I WOULD HAVE TO BE AT
THE AIRPORT RIGHT BEFORE THE GUYS HAD TO LEAVE FOR THE
SHOW.SO AFTER I WAS ONE EATING I TOLD LANCE TO SOMEHOW
KEEP JUSTIN BUSY WHILE I TALKED TO THEM.SO JOEY
VOLUNTEERED TO KEEP HIM PLAYING VIDEO GAMES TIL THEY
CAME BACK.SO I TALKED WITH JC,CHRIS AND LANCE AND WE
CAME UP WITH A PLAN FOR ME TO TELL JUSTIN THE TRUTH
AND THEY WERE GOIING TO HELP ME ALL THE WAY.I GOTTA
ADMIT I WAS GOING TO BE VERY NERVOUS.