I have fallen; how is this I am invincible I have more power than this where does my power come from I beat down those I love those stronger than me how can I lose? but I am losing and in disbelief I hear the words and I won’t believe it, can’t believe it HIV is for fags and kids in Africa- isn’t it? ISN’T IT? not any more. stripped of my dignity I stare at my arm proof of my indiscretions how far I have strayed from Christ how far I have run from sanity tracks tracking my every failure my every moment of weakness and an indelible virus has infected me much like the one in my head I have fallen; how is this?