into my veins and pray that the
triple cocktail
will have thinned my blood
it will just seep until it runs out
my blood is tainted
my mind is tainted
my love is pure and i am losing it
every day i feel less like a man
and more like
the angel she always said i'd be
i'm closer every time my heart beats
and the virus attacks another
white blood cell
and i look in the mirror and
see a horrifying monster
i'm so far from being
the angel she always says she sees in me
2/16/03