Pity The Child
                             By Shaun Hately

Notes: This story is based on "Highlander: The Series" which is owned by 
Rysher TPE. The concept of immortals as contained in the work is
likewise the property of Rysher TPE. However Peter Woodley is mine.

There is some slightly strong language, and adult concepts contained in
the story, so if you are easily offended be warned.

The character of Peter Woodley is introduced in my story "This Cursed
Blade I Bear", and "Pity The Child" takes place after the events
described in that story (sometime around 1970, if you're interested in
the date). Comments to: drednort@bud.swin.edu.au

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"Pity the child, but not forever, not if he stays that way, 
He can have all he ever wanted, if he's prepared to pay."                                                                                      
                                              - From the musical "Chess"

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My name is Peter Woodley and I am immortal. I may appear to you a child
but I am far older than you can imagine. I was born in 1770, on the
streets of London.

You don't seem surprised at that statement but then you have been
following me quite a while. You're persistent, I'll grant you that, 10
years tracking a child across three continents. I commend you on your
fortitude. But understand this, please, you would not be here now, if I
did not choose to speak to you. And if I did not want to give you a
warning. For your own safety forget me, stop following me, and return
home. You've wasted 10 years of your short life, and what is the result? 
Nothing. You may have gathered some little part of the truth, some part
of a great secret, but who will believe you? You place yourself in
danger, and you place me in danger. It has to stop.

Yes, I'm in danger. In your efforts to protect me from harm you have
brought me to the attention of people whom I did not want to find me.
Others like me. Somehow they discovered what you were following and used 
you as a guide to me. I don't appreciate being woken by a man who wants
to separate my head from my body because some stupid bitch of a child
welfare worker thinks I am in danger. The only danger to me is of your
making. Even now, I feel I am under constant observation, constantly
watched, and all because of you. I don't need your protection, I am
quite able to protect myself. I have been alone since before you were
born, and I am quite capable of protecting myself. I don't need your
help, and I don't deserve it.

Don't look at me like that! I don't want your pity. Pity. I've just told 
you I'm immortal, I've introduced you to a concept far beyond your
experience. I am to you what you are to a dog. You should be terrified,
you should be on your knees begging for your life. Instead you sit there 
pitying me, pitying the poor, lonely child. I don't want it, I don't
deserve it. I am a killer, you'd better understand that. I am the scum
of this planet. I killed my stepfather and my Mother, the only people
who ever gave me love. I killed them with this sword.

That's got your attention, hasn't it? "The child has a sword. How
dangerous." Don't worry, I know how to use it. I don't run with it, I'm
very careful. I was taught that. The only times that I've cut anyone
with this blade were quite deliberate. It was the act of a cold blooded
killer. Spare your sympathy for someone who wants it and leave me alone. 
Go home to your family, they won't always be there. Believe me, I know.

If I tell you what you want to know, will you go? I'm sorry I yelled,
but you must understand how many problems you cause me. It isn't easy
being what I am. The last thing I need is you around to "protect" me.
I'm not a child. I may look thirteen but I was walking this earth, when
your mothers, mothers, mother was in nappies. If I'm lucky, and if I'm
good enough, I'll still be here long after you've passed on. And you're
not helping. I have to protect you as well as myself, and that forces me 
to take risks that I don't relish.

Yes, I do have to protect you. Why? You're a social worker, you figure
it out. I am responsible for the danger you are in, no matter how
inadvertently, and so I must protect you. It is my obligation - no, my
duty. And more, it is the only right thing to do. I take that seriously. 
I'm no saint, I'm probably the most evil "child" on this planet, but I
must protect you though it cost me my life.

Again, that look is on your face. If you must pity me, pity me for what
I deserve. My loneliness, my wretchedness is my own fault. I had all
that I could ever want, and I threw it away. I've made my bed, and I'll
lie in it. If you must shower me with compassion, consider the basic day 
to day problems my condition imparts.

It's simple. I am an eternal child. I can never grow up. I'm not Peter
Pan and I don't want to be. Think of what I can never experience. I was
sixteen when I became an immortal, when I stopped aging. Think about
being sixteen, the angst of adolescence. I've had that for two hundred
years, and I'm never going to get over it. I'm never going to have a
decent relationship with a woman. Any mature woman who wanted me, would
have problems, and I'm not just referring to legal ones.  Some of my
elders within our select community, bemoan the problems they have
getting driver's licences because of their age. I'd like to get a
licence someday too, but I'm just not old enough. The worst problem is
people like you, well meaning busybodies who worry about the poor,
homeless child, and try to put me in foster homes and orphanages. I'm
homeless for a reason, two reasons actually. The first is, that I burnt
the only real home I ever had down to the ground, and the second is I
just can't stay in one place. People notice kids who just don't get any
older, and that's dangerous. There're people after me, dangerous people
who want to cut off my head. I fight them when I have to, but I don't
like doing it. They're bigger than me, stronger than me, and some are
better with the blade. Each time that I stand and fight, I come one
battle closer to my last. Make no mistake, one day I will die in battle. 
There can be only one of us left in the end, and it won't be me. I'm
afraid of death, you know. I died once before, before I knew I was
immortal. They hanged me for . . . I don't want to talk about it any
more.

There's only two immortals that I can trust not to take my head, a
priest in Paris and a woman in Bonn. That's it. Two of my own kind on
this entire planet whom I can trust. And I can't trust mortals. With all 
due respect to yourself, I'm only telling you this for your own
protection. It isn't because I'm willing to trust you. I want you gone
from my life, and I want to be alone. That's because I can't trust you,
or I won't if you prefer. I am not willing to take the risk of trusting
anyone else, and certainly not a mortal. I don't intend any offence, but 
our affairs are not part of your world, and shouldn't be. Rather than
let that happen, I would kill every immortal on this world. Some of us
feel that we are born to rule the planet. I know that if I ruled, the
world would suffer. I just don't have the strength to resist my nature.
I was born a killer, and I would eventually cause the world great grief, 
and I believe that there are none among us capable of the sacrifice
required to safeguard the world. None among us.

I'm sure you realise my nature by now. I threatened you earlier, and
I'm sorry for it. Sorry for it now, but at the time I could have killed
you. It was only an oath I swore on this blade I bear that prevented me
from doing so. I will never kill another woman as long as I shall live.
That is all that protected you, the oath of a killer. You have no right
to be alive right now, you should be dead, but you are not. Mark that
statement well. It describes my existence perfectly.

Nothing gives me the right to be an immortal, nothing. And being
immortal gives me no special rights or privileges. But sometimes, we
forget that. And so do you. Man is the most wonderful of nature's
creations. A reasoning form of life, intelligent, compassionate, loving
and caring. And you corrupt the world. So it is with us, we have so much 
potential to improve existence, and yet we fight among ourselves for
some mythical prize. Together we could wield so much power for good, and 
yet we create so much evil. It is said that power corrupts, and I know
that is true. But that doesn't stop me lusting after power sometimes, in 
my enormous arrogance. 

I said that man is the most wonderful of nature's creations. I don't
include my own kind. We are an abomination, some form of unnatural
demon. Some of us struggle to do good, other lapse into evil, but all of 
us are cursed with immortality. That's right, it's a curse. You think it 
sounds wonderful, but only because you don't have to endure it. Have you 
experienced grief in your life? Do you know what it is like to lose
someone that you love? Do you know what it is like to be afraid to love
anyone because you know they will die before you? If you don't, I hope
you never do. But if you do, imagine that feeling multiplied over and
over again, and expand upon it. All life is suffering, and so eternal
life is eternal suffering. Pain without end, and without relief. And
then reflect upon my existence. My nature, the nature of my entire
people, forces me to fight and kill to survive. Do you understand the
guilt that creates? Can you understand the feeling of utter horror that
forms in my mind when I am forced to take a head? Of course not. Such
things are beyond your understanding.

I did not choose to be what I am. I do not know if I was chosen. But I
do know this, I would give all my eternal life for just a few short
years of mortality.

Please leave me now, and don't return. You have the option I have never
had. You can choose a normal life over one full of strange events and
constant risks to your life. I ask only on thing of you. Judge me, if
you must, but do not pity me. You haven't any right to do so.

And I am not worthy of your pity.


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