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| August 17th, 1996-Our wedding day February 2, 1998-Charles Wayne Marottek III born 10 lbs 6 oz. By C-section, after a hard long labor March 2, 2000-Amanda Joy Marottek stillborn 3 lbs 15.4 oz. She had a 2 vessel cord that twisted and cut off her life supply. We are devastated. July 13th, 2000-Today I went off the Birth Control Pill. We have decided to put our family planning into God's hands. August 23rd, 2000-Got my period today Novemer 11th, 2000-I had a positive home pregnancy test, but when I went into the Dr. office, It was negative I was pretty sad. We want another baby so badly. I have not had my period since Aug, so what is up?? The Dr. said that they will not do anything for me until after a year of trying to conceive. That is so hard! (As, an after note, being written 1/04, I wonder if I had a very early miscarriage here??) January 23, 2001-Finally got my period again March 20th, 2001-Finally got another period. What gives?? |
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| July 13th, 2001 Well, today it has been one year since we started Trying To Conceive. I am still not pregnant. My heart breaks a little more each time a pregnancy test comes back negative. I try and I try to be positive about this. And I do a really good job of being positive when I am talking to others. But inside, I am just feeling so hopeless. We just moved to a new town, so I am dreading the whole finding a new Doctor routine. I know I will have to do it sooner or later. I just can't seem to get out of this rut right now. August 1, 2001 Today I decided that I need to call a Dr. and schedule and appointment to get myself checked out as to why I am not cycling. I have not had a period since March 2001. That is not great when you are TTC! I called around and asked a few people who they would recommend. Tomorrow I call. I just have to buck up and do it! August 14th, 2001- Today was my Dr. Appt. The Dr. was great! I had a physical and he sent for my records. He gave me a shot of progesterone, which should make me have my period in the next 10 days! Then I have to do the Ovulation Predictor Kits, until I ovulate. I have to go back in tomorrow morning at 8 for an insulin/glucose test. Then back in on the 30th as well. Also, DH has to have his sperm tested. So we shall see what happens! Aug 20th-YEAH!!!!!!! AF showed up!!! I bought an Ovulation Predictor Kit, so we will have to start doing them soon! Yeah! Have you ever heard of anyone that is excited about getting their period??? LOL |
| August 29th- Today I started the Ovulation Predictor Kit. It will be interesting! September 6th-I got a positive today on the OPK. SO I am really going to Ovulate!!!!! September 22- I never Ovulated! I am pretty disappointed in my body. It seems to always let me down! I spent a small fortune on those stupid kits too. Well, we are going to let nature take it's course and try to remember that God is in control! October 15th, 2001- Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I feel so alone and hopeless. As if we will never conceive. I have stopped charting. It is too depressing. I miss Amanda Joy today. Charlie is my source of comfort. What would I do without my little guy? He is so wonderful. If God never gives us another child, Charlie is enough. November 2, 2001 20 months ago, Amanda was stillborn. And still I am not pregnant. I find myself wondering what she would be like by now. I imagine her as a dark haired silly little girl. I think she would love Charlie and follow him everywhere. I can just see him getting exasperated at her. She drolling on all his toys, chewing them up. They would have been so cute together~! But now we are just kinda waiting for another baby. We haven't been really doctoring for it lately, just taking a break....hoping that it will happen on it's own, in God's perfect timing. Feb 4, 2002 It's been awhile since I updated this..wow! Well I finally got my period on my own. We started exercisizing and whaaa laaa, it came! So now let's hope I can conceive!!! |
| March 18, 2002, Well I tested a while ago, and it was negative. I was soo bummed. I have just been an emotional basket case lately, crying and crying and crying. Maybe it was too soon to test.....there goes my HOPE again. STILL no AF since beginning of Feb. I think I will wait a whiel to test again. March 2nd was Amanda's 2 year in Heaven anniversay. That was a hard day. May 4, 2002- I had a Dr. appt. today and got another shot of progesterone. The Dr. thinks that I do have PCOS. He wants to do a Laparoscopy. May 8, 2002- Finally got AF again. I have scheduled the Lap for May 23rd. We shall see what happens then. May 23rd. Today I had the Laparoscopy done. They also did a hysteroscopy, D & C, Ovarian Drilling, Laser WedgeResection, biopsys of my ovarys and endometrial lining. And a chromotubation with dye return. I got to go home this afternoon. I will be sore for a few days, but should be back to normal within a week! What a weird feeling to wake from the surgury and hear what all they did to me! I got to see the video of the surgury. It was strange to see my ovarys and uterus. They left a drainage tube in to drain any blood, the nurse took it out before I left the hospital, oh my! That was the grossest feeling when she pulled it out~! YUCK!!! I have an appointment for next thursday to get the results and find out where we go from here. |
| May 27th- the nurse called today to reconfirm my appointment, and to tell me that my lab results are back and there is NO CANCER!! YEAH!! But they did find some cysts. So I will have to talk to the Dr. about that on Thurs. I talked to my Dr. and he put me on Metformin. I am to go back in 3 weeks to see how I am reacting to the drug, and go from there. June 14th- Went to the Dr again. He said that he wants to see me again the end of August, unless I get Pregnant, and to contine the Met. Had a Neg pg test today and got a shot of progesterone to start up AF. We are continuing to pray for a preganancy soon! June 26 2002- No pregnancy yet, got AF (aunt flo) after the shot of progesterone. August 27- Got AF ON MY OWN!! Without the shot!! Yeah!!!!! Now we baby dance..... Sept 17th- I think I ovulated last week, so now we wait to see if I get AF or not........now we get to have The 2 week wait |