| I did all I could To make them happy with me But no matter how hard I try I'll never be the person everyone wants me to be I'm sick of changing Changing, living these lies Because no matter what I do I'll never be OK in their eyes. I'm sick of trying Trying to be like they want me to Because I can never do nothing right No matter what I do |
| No Matter |
| They think they know Know everything there is to know about me But they don't have a clue About just who, I really be They act like I'm dumb Like I don't hear the things they say If they asked me straight up They might know me one day But I don't care what I hear Because I know it's not true I don't care what they say And I don't care what they do They want me to be just like them But I can't change who I be I can't be just like them I need to be me |
| Me |
| I can't live here anymore With those others and with me I've lied all through my life So the truth I can't even see I used to know everything About my sould and my mind But now I just seek my answers The truth I can't even find I don't know why I do some of the things I do They're pissed at me I'm just as irratated too Its like I can't think And I just do what they say Everything is the same Day to day, everyday Whats the use to living Without hope in your being I can't tell my emotions I can't tell what I'm feeling My life is like a drug My life is like a disease It controls my every move Moments, I'm unable to seize Maybe someday I'll figure out Just who I really be Because I don't think I can stand Not knowing me |
| Knowing Me |
| Why do I walk alone Alone with my shadow My only compainion No matter where I go, it follows Why do I sleep alone? Alone, in my shadow's arms The only one to keep me safe Away from all the nightly harms Why do I dream alone? Draming with my shadow alone To let my mind run free Alone, with my dreams to roam Why do I sit alone Beside me, Shadow is there We're alone together We sit alone, as a pair Why do I wake alone? Only my show to greet me Waking me up gently When I'm depressed and sleepy Shadow and me Our feelings are hollow My only companion My Shadow |
| Shadow |
| A is for asking Because they all take advantage of me C is for caring Don't know why I'm too caring to see Each time I say yes Follow me, pain follow Great barriors keeping me blind Hollow, my feelings hollow I don't care what they ask Just as long as they accept me Kindness causes corruption Longing to be free My feelings for everyone aren't good no more No more, they notice me never Only when they want something Pleaswe pain, please get better Quietly I wait Raining in my soul Slowly, never changing Too empty, my heart's a hole U don't care about me Vastly I want a true friend Waiting for the pain to repair Xpressing nothing for it's my end You don't care Zero friends, the number unfair |
| ABCs |
| What do I do To make me so wrong I've tried so hard to please them Tried so hard to stay strong But I don't think I can take Not being accepted anymore They've caused this throbbing sting My energy is sore I'm sick of listening To all their lies They'll never know anything Like how everynight I cry I hate they don't know me I dont really want them to Because I hate people like that Since all their lies are true |
| Lies |
| I cry when I'm alone So everyone thinks I'm OK But no one can relize I want to take my life everyday I don't cry in front of them It's too painful to come out and express The stinging I feel inside Inside, I'm just a mess |
| I feel like I'm imprisoned And locked tight with life's chains I feel I'm unable to be me And locked tight with life's strains I feel like I'm dying The pain is killing me Killing me slowly, I'm imprisoned In my own life, I can't be free I wish I wasn't dying slowly For my life's pain I wish I could unlock The chains |
| Cry |
| Imprisoned in My Chains |
| When the pain is here I need to face it Embrace it When the happiness is there I need to chase it Embrace it When the feelings are fair I need to taste them Embrace them When I'm lonely I can't waste it I can't embrace it |
| Embrace It |
| I cry these tears each night And feel this intolerable pain I wish I could clean the hurt away And wash it off like rain The pain isn?t a scratch anymore I waited too long So now it turned into a scar The pain isn?t ever gone |
| Pain |
| I lay here on my bed Just thinking in my head Staring at nothing Wishing my whole life would end Just wishing That this pain would mend Why can?t I be normal Why can?t I be like you? What did I do to deserve such pain What the fuck, what did I do? I?m so mad at the world For making my life this way Tears flow uncontrollably down my face Thinking about everyday It seems I can?t finish a sentence Without breaking down in tears I can?t finish a thought Without breaking down from my stinging fears I want to quit I need to quit It feels like I?m being suffacated By my throbbing tension I feel like I?m gonna shrivel away From all the pain and depression Damn, how I wish I?d die And just be numbed frozen in a cold space Being in hell forever Would be better than suffering in this fucking place |
| Untitled |
| No more pain No more crying inside No more guilt No more feeling bad that I?ve lied No more sacrifice No more strains No more lock-downs No more bodily chains No more feeling No more breathing No more failure No more leaving No more needles No more knives No more pain No more life |
| No More |
| I?m remembering Those times I cried I?m remembering Those times you lied I?m remembering Feeling bad inside I?m remembering Trying to hide From you I remember Us together You made promises Like I?ll love you forever You looked me in the eye Saying shit like I?ll never lie But I?ll go on Without you But I?ll live No matter what you do |
| Remembering |
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