Welcome and Beware

I want to kill someone
Was what I said today
And as I said it seriously
They just joked away

Sitting here, bored, waiting
Scribbling my unpublished notes
I started to think a little
Especially about all my doubts

I try to hint how I feel
But I am just so demented and vague
You ignore me and chat away to importance
While into my chair I sag

I get so confused and aggravated
And try to get away
I scream into my pillow
Realizing I have no say

I think I am going to burst
Scream and destroy this earth
Horrible words spill out
I wish I hadn’t come to birth

I hate you, I hate this, everything
One lie after one lie
I’m starting to sob uncontrollably
I’ll soon curl up and die

Maybe I’ve gone overboard
I guess I’ll never know
For I was to keep quiet
And that’s how my story goes

Ashton Pettigrew