June 30, 2001
i was off today. and i will be off for the remainder of the weekend. as well as next weekend. needless to say, i will probably be bored out of my mind, vegging out in front of the tv in the living room with the fan pointed at me going full blast. breakfast. snack. ice cream. lunch. snack. snack. ice cream. dinner. snack. snack. sleep. how pathetic.
well at least my .com is up and running without any banners. except for that geocities one. but they give me plenty of free space and a very minimal banner. and its relatively easy to redirect here. yes... if you're asking... i actually DID pay for the domain. not much tho. just $20 for a year... and seeing as how the internet has so much space on it, probably cheaper for the next few years onward.
im still excited about the new floorset we're going to have at the store. we get a whole new load of stuff for back to school. the down side is that denim is extremely heavy when packed in bulk and we will be wearing fall clothing during the summer months in el cajon and a broken air conditioner. bleh. but ill be looking cuuuuuute! like ohmyGod this is SOOOO CUTE! i need to be blonde.


June 28, 2001
Happy Birthday ERIK! yeah i havent forgotten (to look at your journal). so i wish you happy birthday. dont know what else to say cuz you're too old for anything and too young for everything else. you had your grand "im finally 21 and can drink legally" birthday last year. but not quite at the "oh my God im turning 30" birthday yet. but you are sooo close to your "hey im a guy in his mid-20s searching for love while i live life in an office building and accompany my cat in a 30-story apartment building downtown at night" birthday. hmm... guess you'll have to stay drunk til that happens. or something. happy birthday anyways. =) remind me again next year. (hey at least i didnt need reminding last year =P )
i hate staying home and doing nothing. i hate having too much to do in too little time. i wish that there was some median where i have enough to do to avoid boredom and still keep my sanity. im a LIBRA. i need that kind of balance in my life. all i did today was go to work and sit on my ass watching tv. not exactly productive if you ask me.
oh yeah... mr. erik carpio... happy birthday goes out to you for tomorrow. just so you know i havent forgotten your birthday either. but thanks for reminding me. its been waaaay too long since we had a talk like that.
i got my abercrombie & fitch card yesterday. i dont need it. but i like the fact that i can walk into any abercrombie and spend spend spend! not that i would. its a nice thought tho. and if i ever lose my job at AE, then at least i can crawl back to abercrombie. even tho i would probably rather drive up to carlsbad and shop at the AE up there instead of shop at abercrombie all AE-ed out. but if i go all the way to carlsbad then i would have to see EVILstacy and she will just annoy the fuck out of me and i would have to leave. and that would be a waste. no.. i think ill just keep my job at AE. and shop at abercrombie for gifts. HAH! solution! gooo mar!


6.27.01
holy monkey! so i signed back online, remembering the reason that i signed on in the first place a while back... pay $20 on my visa so i wont get charged an overlimit fee when aol smacks me in the face with their bill. i log on, check my balance, and there is an unexpected extra $350 on my available balance... an avid shoppers worst nightmare and best dream. what the hell? so i look around for an answer and there it was... they boosted my available credit. good and bad. good for my credit, bad for my shopping habit. at least they didnt raise the interest rate. but crap.... now i need to have more control over my spending... like that wasnt hard enough already.

June 27, 2001
can you believe it's almost july? seems like the past year has wizzed by so quickly that i havent had the chance to get anything accomplished. pretty soon, my second year in college will be over and ill be left in the dust stumbling over my work and whatever may happen because of how much happened... despite it not seeming to happen at all. whatever. i just know next year is gonna go quicker than this year. freshman year in high school was awesome.
look... mike iggy drew that. he musta been boreder than a mutha if he drew that. it's a starshots pic of me from waaaaay back in december of my senior year in high school. it was irma's bday and we had to have solo pics of ourselves by the next morning to turn in to the yearbook for our senior ad. btw... remind me to swing by morse sometime in the fall to pic up my senior ad pics. argh... i keep forgetting those. eek! but yeah.. thanks mike for being bored and drawing me. its a nice change from digitally enhanced pictures online. and by digitally enhanced i mean crappily-uploaded pictures online. eh. oh well.
damn its freakin hot today. and there's a fire in jamul. i was watching the news when they had some coverage on the fire and they were talking to wunna the neighbors... she was all "well it's considerably cool out here today. it's only about 90 degrees outside. we were expecting a scorcher but instead we had a lovely day with exception of the fire." oh my GOD! its freakin 90 degrees out there and they think its a lovely day. us coasters over here freak out when it hits 80 degrees. damn spoiled little perfect weather kiddies. hee. i love it.


June 26, 2001
Shrek is an awesome movie. somewhat predictable... but the kids will love it. im broke tho... about $15 in concessions. ouch. good hot dogs tho. yum.
i have to redo the iczer page. i re-uploaded the images so now i have to change the codes. but im lazy right now so leave me alone. im tired and i have work at 7 in the morning. damnit. groggy. tired... must sleep.
Ron came and visited today... with jason. i havent seen them in forever. just a quick visit. nothing really. no catching up or anything. damn im tired. lets see... what else happened.... i gained 5 pounds. damn.
uploading sucks big nuts. and mike nah doo drew my starshots pic. its pretty funny. its cool tho. ill post it when i upload them. or something. argh. nite nite people. me go beddybye.


June 25, 2001
about a week ago i ran out of Dove white. the soap i've been using for about 13 years of my life. i love that stuff. and i ran out. with no time to run to the store and pick up more. so i had two choices. 1)use my brother's Dial and feel yucky from the residue all day; or 2) use that body wash stuff that i got for christmas. i opted for the better smelling stuff. and now im hooked. i picked up a few different flavors from Bath & Body Works this afternoon and i am in fruit heaven... at least that's what my shower smells like.
i finally watched The Fast and the Furious. what can i say except.... damn civics. (there's a story to that, but ill get to it after the review) okay.. needless to say, there were a lot of nice cars in there. good mimicking of the racer persona. and those front bumpers all looked like rubber. from this movie i learned a few things: 1)if it is all hyped up to be like a phat movie, then there's too much hype put into it. this movie SOOOO did NOT live up to the hype. 2)i neeeed to learn how to drift. those race scenes were awesome. 3)asians are not always the bad guy, and the bad guy usually has a nice side... it's just behind all the greed and cockiness. 4)movie people suck at field research. that's all i can remember that i learned right now. but geez. you know... bleh
the civic story:::: after the movie... it was like all these stupid little stock civics got all cocky. revving everywhere, trying to be all fast. you could hear their little engines trying hard... but the car wasnt going anywhere. stupid civics.
oh yeah...my friend jeR used to wear this one monkey hat to school all the time. Tom from Blink RB wore it to a shoot and Mark signed it. download the videos here. they're::: goofing off:01 , the wait:01 , and roll film:01 ::: go get! go get! im working on getting pics too. yippeee!


June 24, 2001
the black and pink was making me all hot. i cant stand seeing black during the summer. i can just feel the heat being absorbed by my skin. arrgghhh. so i decided to go with a much cooler color. not cool as in hip... but cool as in the temperature. and not hip as in the bone.. but hip as in cool. and not bone as in the nasty... but bone as in protein structures in your body. nevermind. i think i took it too far.
tomorrow i finally get to see The Fast and the Furious. i know... i thought i would see it at the premier too... but alas... work and no date stopped me. i cant wait to scream "hey where's the turbo???" when they pop the hood of that eclipse. a buddy of mine's buddy was in the movie and said that they were talking about how phatty the turbo was in the lime green eclipse... and the camera got the wrong angle and apparently no one caught the mistake while editing... so they show a shot of what's under the hood the eclipse... naturally aspirated boyee.
and i just cant wait to see on the news about some stupid girl in a civic that tried to drive underneath a big rig. dumb girls in their civics. thinking that they're the shit just cuz they have a civic. not even knowing their engine types, hp, NOTHING. just thinking they're all bad and how much power those clear corners and euro tail lights their boyfriends bought for them adds. dumb girls in civics. dumb cocks in civic Sis. damnit.
im not trying to sound bitter or anything.... even though i sound as bitter as a coffee bean... but geeez! i cant stand those cocky ass civic drivers that think they're the shit. especially the civic Si that think that VTEC is all they need to win a race even when they have no driving skills. ugh. having a civic is like instant gratification of the need for speed to those who are cartech impaired. its ridiculous i tell yah. damn ignorant little fools. it makes me so angry just to think about them.... revving on us in their little 1.6 liter engine and still not backing off after they hear the blow off. oooohhhh a civic... im SCARED!!!! it has so many stickers in kanji! oh no! they spent 5 whole dollars on each sticker! oh my gosh! and the 1" exhaust is sooo loud! i think im gonna pee in my pants!
oh well. its always nice to see the look on their face as you pass them up without even trying. or when you hear them scrambling to find some power between blow offs. haha. okay. nevermind. i shouldnt talk... i drive a corolla... but i still have a bigger engine and more torque... so never mind. wow... what a cock i've become.


June 22, 2001
aol hates me. only cuz i hate it twice as much. but aol is the best thing ever for those of us who are computer illiterate. all you have to do is point and click. but then again.. thats with all of them right? i think i know how to surf the web. damnit. oh well. good job with the email addresses. and my little bros are on web restricted sns. but still.. that's no excuse to kick me off soooo many times (that's why i disappeared erik...i got booted). and the dial up takes forever and a day and its soooo not worth signing back on and getting kicked off again 5 minutes later. when i get a non-compaq computer, then ill get cable. til then, tying up the phone line isnt so bad.
so yesterday i started visiting all of these bloggers that i used to visit often. most of them lost their web addresses (or changed them) or are revamping or got fucked in the ass one way or another cuz they no longer wanna blog. eh. go figure. when they all go away, i still have erik's long lost journal entries to keep me entertained. all the way from july 1999? something like that. and a full year of entries in 2000. YEY!
and if all else fails, ill go back to asianavenue.


June 21, 2001
isnt catching up the greatest? specially if you have all the time in the world (well, 3 or 4 hours is good) to sit around in your friend's boyfriend's trunk and chill and talk and talk and talk. and not even get thirsty or hungry all the while because the conversation is so lively. or catching up with someone from waaaaay back when and conversing for hours on end like you used to when you were so much closer. stuff like that makes me wanna stay.
i just had the biggest urge to start singing "Rain" by Madonna.
oh yeah.. erik... today (thursday) i saw you on bonita road (im guessing coming from vons or cafe de cafe) at around two-ish. i was gonna scream your name... but my windows were shut. that wouldnt have been too smart.
good lord... just when i start planning for my financial future something comes up. so today, i ended up spending roughly $1grand (one grand dollar? no.. $1,000). had to change all four of my tires cuz my camber was waaaaay retarded. and i got the lifetime alignment deal for my car. and insured my tires too... i went to firestone... cant be too safe with those guys. and i gave my mommy her $500. geez. and i have no paycheck till monday. argh. and even that check's gonna be gone by the time the month is over. arrgghhhh.
raaaaiinnnn. feel it on your fingertips. hear it on my windowpane.. lalalalalala... raaaaaain. when you look into my eyes and blablabla.... i never knew the words. but that melody is in my head.


bedtime6.17.01
i hate mci. they billed me again for a month that i didnt use my phone. dumbfucks. only retards work at mci. and only assholes sell it.
i gotta come up with $500 by tomorrow night to pay for my mommy's income tax thingie. how the hell does she expect me to do that?

almost time for work 6.17.01
i just added a new beyondmaRfiles entry if you're interested. its nothing much... just an extension of that whole "i wanna get out of san diego thing." much too depressing... if you ask me. but at least its vented.

4-ish6.17.01
i was going through my hotmail box and i found an email from erik from a looong time ago.
emil's not even online all the time!! what a foooooooooool.. he's just saying that so that you would think that im ghosting which would mean that im dissing you so that you would think that i dont like you so that me and you dont become friends forever since he knows that im cooler than him and that would jeopardize his friendship with you cuz im just so hip.
i wonder what happened to emilio. he probably went off to a non-junior college and is off somewhere being a big success. that, or he's still working at mervyns in the shoe department. but last i heard he was cutting back on working hours and really focusing on school. so i bet he really is at a nonjuniorcollege being a success. damnit erik. we have to catch up.
scholastically, we totally suck right now. but you know.. socially... hehe... we're way up there arent we? i mean... having so much time to post every other minute and all. and posting to each other and all. wow. how popular can we be? ARGHH! i cant believe ive known you for like 2 years already and the only time we've actually been aware of each other's presence is that one time at mcdonalds. and you were in the drive thru. i should shut up before all 15 people who read this on a daily basis starts to think that we're losers. but then again, they read what we type all the time... so who's the loser now huh? oh... nevermind. it's still me.

afternoonish6.17.01
i cant find a decent rear bumper anywhere. how cheez. all i come across is a bunch of half naked underaged anorexic chicks trying to be car models. damnit. i cant slap a girl (oh yes i can!)... like i was saying... i cant slap a girl on the butt of the car and expect it to match the front bumper and sideskirts. damnit. im tired of the "import scene." i wish it could go back to the "racer scene." argh.

June 17, 2001
i reaaaallly wanna get out san diego now. over the past week, i've seen so many people from my past... friends, acquaintances, enemies... you name it, i've seen them. and it't not that i didnt enjoy seeing them. it's not like i did enjoy it either. it gave me a sense of ... i dont know. but being brought to the past like that just gave me this eerie feeling in my gut. like i didn't belong there. that seeing these people is wrong. that hugging them, or smiling, or attempting to catch up was wrong. granted it has only been a year since i last talked to a majority of them... but still. it feels like i should be somewhere else. i dont belong in san diego anymore. there are just way too many people that i know here. people that i dont want in my life anymore. people that were in the past that should stay in the past. it's not that im a different person, or maybe i am. it's not because i don't love it in this city, because i do. it's just that i feel that i have completely moved on and they havent. i can feel the pressure to be the same old maria that i was when they knew me. but im not that person anymore. almost everything i was in high school i have let go of. over the past year ive done a complete 180 in my ways of thinking. i dont have the same humor, same attitude, nothing. it's all too high school for me now.
and it feels so weird to me because there's this part of me that wants to relive high school all over again. because i didnt get to do so much. i missed out on all of the high school experiences.
but i dont want that anymore. i just wish that i had it all in high school. and seeing these people just brings me back to that misery that i felt my last 3 years there. nobody knew... and that's the worst part.
i dont belong here. maybe in 10 years when everyone else has grown up. maybe never again. or just maybe when i can go places and not see the same people hanging out in the same crowds doing the same things with the same attitudes just like it was in high school.


6.17.01
hahaha. okay. so i was reading what i've been writing the past few days. man. im such an idiot with my typos. under june 10, 2001, i wrote "man, i must have invited close to 10 people and only 2 showed up." you people musta been "okay, big whoop. you didnt even invite a lot of people. why the hell are you crying?" i swear i invited like 150 people that were all "yeah i really wanna go and save 20% and grub on your food!!!" does that make any better sense? cuz i swear i didnt invite only 10 people.
i should sleep.

stilljustbarely6.17.01
wow i feel so special! i just checked how many unique visitors have visited my page, and it comes to 795 unique viewers! that means that this site has touched the life for 795 different computers in the past year. wow! and that's not including the 300 or so unique viewers from my previous address. so out of 2061 maRfile hits, 795 visits were from different people. and only so few decide to revisit. awww... how sad. booo! i think i was getting more visits when i was at my old address.... http://www.members.theglobe.com/hondamiss/cheng. booooO!!!!!!!! no revisits. is my life that pathetic? man. i was all happy when i started this entry.. now its all bleh. you guys suck.

justbarely6.17.01
did you know that if you scroll through your friends on aim, it's either gonna say "internet," "unconfirmed internet," or "AOL"? i dont get it... what's the difference between internet and unconfirmed internet? and how come mine says unconfirmed internet and i use aol? and how come some people pay for aol and their cox cable modem? that gets expensive. and how come my sn never seems to answer anyone? and how come... nevermind. ill stop with the how comes.
im just really bored right now. im waiting for pooh bear to call. WHOOOAAAA! that's weird! right when i typed that in... my phone goes off. what a trip. but yeah. i was waiting for him to call me. just have to make sure he gets home safe cuz he was partying wif his iczer buddies... doin a little drinky drinky and they're headin out to the runs. i was just being the little worry wart. but... now i can head off to sleep cuz my honey is home! yey. nite nite world.
i wonder how many times i typed in the word come and head in the past two entries. let me know and ill give you a big wet one.

June 16, 2001
i promised the pooh bear that i would buy him his innercooler for his birthday. i have exactly a month before i gotta come up with the cash. and im running low on hours at work. i have no clue how im gonna pull this off. here i go tho... wish me luck. maybe i should take up stripping. but that wouldnt make him too happy. that wouldnt make the spectators too happy either. ew.
so last night i went to beejay's birthday party/laker game. (p.s. happy birthday beejay and rick) man... the guys there (cuz it was a mini cockfest) were like those guys on King of the Hill. beer in hand walking around their pretty little cars. then heading on inside for the last 3 minutes of the laker game.
that game sucked yesterday. it's like the sixers werent even trying. they'd get a good minute or two, but that was it. it was like they couldnt give a damn. and this was on their home court. how sad. and their fans were like "yeah, go sixers." no enthusiasm whatsoever. i mean... there was no way that the lakers would lose the championship, but the least the sixers coulda done was win on their court. that's just sad. or maybe they just lost because they wanted kobe to be happy.. .you know... since it is his hometown and everything. but still... how sad.
i was pissed about something. and i was gonna write about it too. but i forgot. i was venting outloud while i was driving so i just completely forgot about it. bleh.


June 15, 2001
can you believe it? I GOT STRAIGHT A's!!!!! AAAHHHHH! wow. that was cool. and technically, they were all A-'s. but that's okay. better than i had expected for this semester. wow. that's motivation for next semester when i have to take 21 units. ARGH.
while i was in the shower i was trying to think up a way to remove body hair without shaving, plucking, waxing or electrolysis. hmmm... something that will make the hair go away until you want it to come back. something that you can also use on your head hair to keep it the same length until you want it to grow. but the only thing i could think of was a time machine. but that wouldnt work too well either.


June 14, 2001
morse's graduation was at Cox cuz Tiger Stadium was too small to hold their class. oh man. the ratio of people in blue to people in white was like 9:1 or something like that. and over a hundred of their class flunked. how sad. how sad.
i got a lot (no, not really) accomplished today. well at least more than i expected. got my financial stuff out of the way. finally finished a work history form so that the next time i fill out an application, all the right stuff will be there including addresses, full names of supervisors, phone numbers, and dates i worked. woo. and im starting to get my academic shit straight.
i finally decided on a major. im gonna be a management major. not a business management major, cuz i dont wanna start my own business, but just manage something for like a big corporation dealing with customer service. then work my way up from there. cuz see, the way i see it, all of my undecided majors all fit into this one. i've wanted to be an accountant, a teacher, a psychologist, a business manager, a mechanical engineer and .. i think that's it. except for the mechanical engineer part, i think being a store manager requires me to do almost the same things as the rest. accountant: i gotta do good in this, otherwise my store's gonna go bankrupt from all the people stealing from me. teacher: i gotta train new-hires right? psychologist: evaluations, customer service, training, etc. yeah. i get to pass judgment on people. how awesome is that. business manager: well.. it's a business right? and i think i'll leave the mechanical engineer part as a hobby. you know... to keep the pooh bear's car up and running smoovely.
no, i didnt ask for eric with a C's number. i just saw him and said hi. i wanted to see if how his alleged mustang cobra and GST was doing.


June 13, 2001
so i go to COX arena today for the morse 01 graduation. wow... old school and new school all in one... too much to handle. no not really. i saw all these people there (well duh, there were hundreds of people there). no i mean people i actually knew (and not just "hey, i know him/her but i never talked to him/her.") ... but people i kicked it with from way back in the day. wow. i feel popular. but i didnt really get to kick it with anyone. i kept losing my family. now i know how those poor mexican kids feel when they're trying to cross the border with their families and get lost. (you know how it is right erik? you mexican. shave your own head. im lazy too. oh yeah... remember eric with a C from aa? the one that was all close to danny and was always bs-ing about everything? he was there too. and he gave me his number. WOOO! yeah. im popular. yeah yeah yeah. stop fooling yourself maR)
anyhoo... we spent about 4 hours at Todais. my God. that was fun. despite the boredom and all. but hey... we had seafood, family, all you can eat buffet, a nice car, and family. nothing can be sweeter (except glucose). yeah. didnt know i knew that word did yah? oh yeah. i saw nemo too. that's a whole nother story.
im at pooh bear's house. i should stop typing now. hee. they want me to go eat pizza. GRUBBUBBUBUB!


June 11, 2001
oops... i forgot my mommy and daddy's wedding anniversary yesterday. what a horrible horrible child i am.
erik, you're retarded. you're not shallow.. you're just bald (still?).
anyhoo i was chillins with beejay n reginald wif the pooh bear today. them three have been buddies since forever and have been through hell and back together. thing is tho... there were so many gaps that they didnt speak or ever hear from each other... and big gaps too. but at any given time, they would pick up outta nowhere and everything would be just cool. damnit. all my childhood buddies are back in the motherland. yargh.
that whole shallow friendship thing.. i guess its cuz it's so much like since-childhood friendships. im one of those deprived kids that never had the opportunity to go to school with the same people for thousands of years. i was district hoppin all over the place. damn san diego. if i lived in rancho cucamonga this wouldnt have happened.


June 10, 2001
what a big fat dis. geez. i must have invited close to 10 people who were excited to attend our little friends and family thing at work ... and about 2 showed up. geez. the least these so called friends could have done is tell me that they didnt want to show up. or that my frickin store was whatever whatever. not continuously tell me that they're excited to go and not show up. that's just plain rude. that's just plain sad. see.. that's why i dont like to have friends. cuz they like to walk all over you then leave you there hangin like a big dork. geez.
see... it's not that i like to have shallow friendships... i would love to have a set of friends that have been there with me since day one. ones that i could actually count on. ones that would actually support me in the shit that i do and try to accomplish. not like the ones that i do have now. my fair weather friends. just there when something's poppin.. but the second that i need something... *POOF* they're gone. see.. with shallow relationships, there are no strings attached. if you get dissed, you get dissed... not like you were close anyways. with shallow friends, they'll make you laff and make you feel better about yourself when you're with them. just because you dont kick it a lot, it doesnt mean that you cant receive compliments about what you're doing in your life. in a way, shallow friends are so much better than so called "real" friends... or at least better than the so called "real" friends that i have now.
im so tired of this shit. i need to crawl back into my little hole in the wall and just be that loner again. being social just isnt working for me. im trying too hard to be let down again. im fucking tired of it.
damnit. i cant believe that one event can bring me down so much. i cant believe that out of all of those people i invited, hardly anyone bothered to show up. or call. or even IM me while im online. and half of these people i always do favors for... favors that require me to go waaaay out of my way in order to make their life insignificantly better. yeah... i shouldnt expect anything in return... but still.. can you blame me?


June 9, 2001
so i was in the middle of playing The Sims and my little characters were in the best moods... just got paid, paid off their bills, got all of these monetary bonuses and were socializing with their friends in the hot tub. then *BLEEP* my computer restarts outta nowhere. damnit. that was a damn good game. argh. stupid compaqs.
my tootsies are killing me. but at least i got $5 outta the deal and 20 minutes of overtime. at work. yeah at work. i still talk about work. i still dunno what to bring to the potluck. im thinking of opening an account at costco and pickin me up some packages of uice and cookies and brownies and hotdogs. or something. costco is damn cool. better than walmart. yes.. better than walmart.


6.8.01
i swear apt107 must hate me or something. the past two articles i submitted weren't published. okay.. so the first one that wasnt published was an angry p.o.s. but still... it's apartment 107 where so called "anything goes." anything goes my ass. if it did, then my article woulda been posted and all those retarded cut and paste guestbook messages would stop in aa and apt107. but this last article i wrote... it wasn't even controversial or angry or anything. it was just entertaining and it gave advice. damnit. and it encouraged young, employed girls to buy stuff for their bf's cars. damnit. i think i created too much controversy already (HAH! yeah right.) so they dont want my name posted anymore. damnit. i hate this shit. oh well. back to the drawing boards.
i think im gonna need a palm pilot or something soon. whatever it is that will has that he can post from anywhere. this one time he blogged while he was taking a shit. that was just awesome. but im really lackin in entries. its all getting stuck in my head.. that's not healthy. i need a release. this is my vent and i dont get to it enough. damnit. argh. i need a gadget or something.
the way i figger, itll be around christmas time when i have all my credit cards payed off. but that's if i control my spending and pay at least $100 for each card per month. possible.. but not likely. so imma guess by february ill be all done. and by then ill get my $200 deposit back from cingular. ooh. that's when me and pooh will go and start payments on the new ALTEZZA!!! Yeye! the newest altezza... 2door, manual tranny... hells yeah. man. im gonna pee in my pants.

June 8, 2001
apparently in erik's eyes, i'm a fortune cookie. how neat-o! i get to tell people how they are in bed. eww... what alittle slut.
man... you know what the best way to get back at someone who just threw an insult at you is? tell them that that's what you really are. for example... someone says you're a retard... in a calm, slightly sarcastic tone, reply: "oh yeah, i forgot i was retarded. thanks for reminding me." that knocks them right offa their pedestal. cuz they get all confused and they leave you alone. funny. haha.
its weird how some people are just assholes. i dunno. nevermind. its just certain people that i wish i could tell to their face how much of a bastard they are. but then they drive away. or start acting like a little bitch or something. some people just cant take any critism. geez... if you cant handle the truth stop acting like such a bitch.


justbarely6.6.01
i think i woke up half of the neighborhood with my coughing. 2 hours of coughing. my throat is killing me. feels like someone sanded it down then stuck a rat in there to claw its way to the inside part of my neck and then shoved pop rocks down my throat. its that bad. i hope that was the end of it. i was tearing and who knows how much fluid escaped my nose and my throat during that coughing frenzy. ouch. i need some medicine. but if i take anymore i wont be able to function for the next 3 days. uh-oh.. here we go again....pray for me... i think im gonna die.

6.5.01
Iczer got shouts from the Team Saga on their apt107 page. how cool is that? so i left a little note to say my thanks. not likeim in Iczer or anything....cuz you know.. i have a corolla and all... and i have no money and all... cuz all of my paychecks ;go to paying bills and helping to finish the integra and all.... i dunno. it gets confusing when that subject arises. am i part of the team? am i not a part of the team? should i be present at the meetings? should i be inside with the other iczer girlfriends? should i be at home watching tv? should i just be at the body shop sanding down the car? i just dont know. because it feels like i own a part of the car because i love it as much as genel does, i take care of it, i help maintain it, i put in ideas for it.. but i just dont drive it. so where does that put me? nowhere really. i mean.. the guys dont mind if im at the meetings. they'll actually listen to what i have to say when i have something to say. they actually recognize my presence... but when it comes to roll call or anything... im nada. cuz i dont have my little fixed up corolla to show off. no turbo... no nos... no widebody.. just my plain ol stock coroila thats better than the average corolla. but you know... that's not up to iczer standards. damnit... im like wunna the drivers. wunna the girlfriends. argh. i hate being that kinda shit. that's the story of my freakin life right there.... better than you think, but not good enough to get attention. damnit. just suck the reakin life outta me why dont ya?
neeevermind. i dont think that whole thing was sposed to be vented out yet. im thinking about editing.
so anyhoo... im typing on my bed right now and my elbow is resting right in the middle of a spring. but it's very uncomfortable there. cuz of the way my arm is placed. but if i move my elbow in any direction in which the position iscomfortable, it ends up inside another spring in another uncomfortable position. and that is why it took me 5 minutes to just type that one sentence. or maybe i should just buy a new mattress.

June 5, 2001
remember when i said i was going on a mission to buy The Sims? i finally found it at the cheapest available price at Wal Mart. I actually took two trips there in one day. to two different ones. how cool am i? haha. anyhoo... its an awesome game. too bad it only takes up pretty much all of my waking time.... outside of work. kind of. i live my life like a Sim. that's what Genel said. pretty much because when im at work... i dont exist. then i get home and i have no time to do anything cuz im always tired or i always have to pee or shower or poo. that's pretty much all that Sims do... eat, sleep, poo, and work. cuz they're so slow at everything else. but their livin the high life right now. so its all good if i miss some ZZzzzs.
I still know what you did last summer is on USA right now. i remember watching it in the theater and i didnt remember the story. now im starting to remember why. get over it Jennifer, sequels to teen horror flicks suck. i wish the directors of these things could just remmeber that. and this whole Pearl Harbor is to Titanic like cheese is to CHEESE... man... whats up with that? its like they just added a 90s twist to it. Titanic was this whole Romeo and Juliet thing... and Pearl Harbor is like this Wild Things thang (you know.. the movie with Neve Campbell when she frenches that other chick on film... its not a porno you sicko... and just for the record... i watched Wild Things for the first time today... on USA --hah! i just rhymed!)
i finished a pack of invitations for that friends and family event. and i found out that it's a POTLUCK! WHOOOO! FOOD AND FRIENDS AND SHOPPING! oh my God.... how awesome... AND I GET PAID DURING THAT TIME! wowsers! if you havent received and invite yet, lemme know and ill bring ya one. you know the contact... maria@52govroom.com even tho you have to go to my geocities address... its nice to know that 52govroom.com is still there. hee. im surprised namezero hasnt ripped me off yet. WHEW.
im sleepy. i have work at 7. but im sick. so i know i wont be able to get to sleep for at least another hour or so. Ivett says i complain too much. she's wrong... right? yeah yeah yeah. denial denial. call me cleopatra* (*this dis provided by erik)


June 2, 2001
last year, at this time, i was chillin with my bro... really just chillin. having fun and enjoying the chance that he had to come by for my graduation. school life for me was pretty much non-existant and stress was nowhere to be found. this time around... i still wish it was last year when i was in high school. or not. im not really sure. ive been very unsure about a lot of things lately. which just scare me.
i washed my car today underneath the thick clouds. i bet its gonna rain. but at least i got all that crap off of my paint. last week i washed my car and then two birds pooped on it before the next morning. then it rained. then an average of 2 birds pooped on it everyday. i think the birds hate my car. it must be because when they are directly above it, other birds can see up their feathers. you know... cuz my car is so shiny and all. so they have to cover up the reflection of their heinies and poop on my car. wow. how nice of them. and all week long, the sun has been burning their crap into my paint. damnit.
oh yeah... VTEC has a nickname now... or formal name.. whatever. he got named "Adam" yesterday.... The Man Show came up... and the host's name is Adam Corolla. i still think Whos Line Is It Anyway is funnier.
i have work in 6 hours. time for a trip to Walmart to buy some snacks. i remember 2 summers ago they sold skittles and all this candy for 25cents per bag. and it wasnt old crap either. it was actually the fresh stuff. and they used to sell these BIG 2.5liter bottles of powerade for 75cents. that was just cool. i needed that powerade too.


June 1, 2001
HOLY CRAP! it's already June. didnt even realize it until i typed in "may 32, 2001" goooood job maR.i think i be needin that edumakeyshun now.
blablabla. i was gonna write something funny.. you know.. cuz im so free spirited and all (barf)... but then i just ran into the most rudest (most rudest? okay fobulous!), inconsiderate, unintelligent fools. so here we were.... me and my two nels (genel and jeanelle)and we walk into the grossmont Claim Jumpers. I guess they thought we were there to wait on people to beg for their scraps or something... because there were 6 waitresses/hostesses standing around doing absolutely NOTHING while i stood there just watching. *HELLO PEOPLE... YOU MUST REALLY WANT YOUR PLACE TO GET BURNED DOWN!* (p.s. that is not a threat. if by any chance the Grossmont Claim Jumpers DOES get burned down... it wasnt me) so after a while... one of those dumb blondes finally got a clue and thought "hey! look.. they're waiting for a table. i think that's my job to get them one. maybe i should help them?" and 15 minutes later.. the lightbulb came on and she seated us. then at the end of the night, when we received our change- which was supposed to be $32, she hands us 12 $1s and a ten dollar bill. (if your math sucks, that only adds up to $22) we complain and she's all.. "oh, i must have shortchanged you." well duh idiot! i know theres a lot to say about customer service.. and right now its a very subjective thing... but im guessing that if you work in a restaurant where your job is supposed to acknowledge and serve the customer, then i think it would be best if you acknowledged and served the customer if they havent done anything to upset you. GEEZ. i hate stupid people.
so anyhoo... the store received the invitations for the friends and family night... and invitation only event where each customer receives 20% off of their entire purchase. interested? i got sme invites if you want it. hee. but for now... i have to get some rest. i get to pull a graveyard shift on saturday night. man... i could be at the runs... instead i get to move furniture and fold clothes. i also get to dress and undress male bustforms. woohoo. not really. they have no heads or legs. or arms. ew. sick little bastard. thats just kinks.