May 29, 2004
Congrats RONNIE! for graduating and making it through your 22nd birthday. 2 more nights to go and we'll see how you turn out! good way to start out your year... cuz being 22 SUCKS!!!!

so anyhoo... last night we went to aubergine to celebrate ronnie's 22nd/graduation. yeah. so mark was there (not surprised). and GENARO was there. with the girlfriend. [[[ooh. lotsa things to say on that matter, but i'm gonna bite my tongue... because the tumoil in that relationship deteriorates it faster than anything i would say.]]] all the regulars were there. and I FOUND RITA!!! (YEY!!!) kinda sad that i didnt see rendell or my sisters (only saw one), so that was a bummer. but i was seein random folks from every stage of my life. it was nice. =) from elementary to middle school to high school and each stage in college. it was GREAT =) it makes all the job changes/clique changes/pager feenin/ chat room chatting/ mall ratting/ and basic waste of time all worth while. hey. people make life worth living... not the money you make. =)

sorry. there was a lot that happened last night. a lot of things that made me really smile. a lot of people i talked a lot of shit about. a lot of people i really loved seeing. a lot of people i really would rather have not seen but glad i did. a lot of stuff. but it's been a long day and you know how flaky i am. (read the previous post. yeah. the one that says "to be continued" and never was)

hey erik. thanks for being my drunk-dial. i really do appreciate that you answer your phone when you know that the person on the other end of the line is a beligerent drunk with nothing good to say. and even if you are picking up the line because it's for a good laugh, i really appreciate it. i cant wait til we get drunk TOGETHER!!! hey at least i remember you saying that you'd be down on wednesday and thursday. I'M GONNA HOLD YOU TO THAT!!!! emil's commited too cuz he's off. =) and i dont know if i told you yet, but i'm plannin to come up sometime this summer. so weeez gotta go party it up. =) for your 25th birthday!!! HOLY CRAP YOU'RE OLD!!! (but you still get carded more often than i do). thanks man. you're a good friend.

i need more eriks in my life.


May 25, 2004
the other day me and joann were joking about moving to las vegas. it was hot. we both had a weekend of drinking. and thought about how our bills were killing us, even though we both make good money.

and now it's been something that i've been seriously thinking about. me and bri could TOTALLY transfer there. and be able to afford a nice house even on our incomes. cost of living is much cheaper. the area is rapidly developing. we just have to get used to the desert life and (to be continued! sorry. my ride is here)


May 23, 2004
have i ever told you about my big sis? cuz she's so cool. i should tell you about her. She's this little japanese girl from RB. offhand she seems like a nice person. very outgoing but not very extroverted. she generally keeps to herself except in times when she thinks her opinion should be heard. and at that time, get ready for a beating! i love her. because she always works so selflessly for the benefit of the school, of the sorority, of the greek council. and she is so passionate about everything she's involved in. it may not seem like it, but she really is. this is the girl that has inspired be to be a better sister, to get out and really get involved instead of just try to be recognized for it. there's a big difference. and i'm glad she was there to show me that difference.

but anyway, as much as i love my big sis, i love her dog too! so i'm planning to kidnap the cutest shiba inu ever!!! wish me luck!


May 20, 2004
did i mention that i'm next year's Fundraising Chair and Secretary? yeah. woop dee doo! i have stuff to do! i'm actually looking forward to finally taking an officer position in Alpha Phi Gamma. you know how i like to be in control. bleh. but all the responsibility... brrrr... scary.

we walked down the beach at 7:30 this morning. collecting rocks and trying to protect a baby crab from 2 sea gulls. (MINE!) it brought me back to when we used to spend time together like that. not really doing anything. just taking time to be with each other at the beach to soak up each other and the atmosphere. it was nice to get away from the hustle and bustle of our everyday lives. away from the mall and work and people that get under our skin. and just be together to walk and talk and not have much to worry about.

in sadder news, my little work-family has fallen apart. my kids are all gone. the morale is completely crushed in our old department. and the pieces that i've tried to salvage have been disintegrated because of torn relationships between everyone that stayed. i'm sad cuz my kids are all disoriented and i have no way to fix it. =(

oh yeah. p.s. i got the following. which means that i guess i'm not going to grad school any time soon unless i do absolutely awesome on the GREs.
SPAN:: C-
BIO 315:: C
PSY 270:: B+
PSY 370:: B
at least i did well in the classes that counted. next semester i'm taking PSY 388 (sensation & perception) and PSY 410 (psych methods & lab). a mere 8 units. but i know if i take filler classes again, i wont be motivated to go. at least with these two classes, i know i'll want to be there. they're both taught by Dr. Kobus, which was my physiopsychology professor 2 years ago and was the person that really inspired me to take the bio/physiopsychology route. and they're back to back i start at 4pm and end at 9:30pm. so i have FIVE HOURS with the same professor. which means i cant ditch on a regular basis. which is good. =) but his lectures are SUPER FUN and SUPER INTERESTING (for nerds like me) so i'm looking forward to it. =)

i feel like a 5 year old waiting for the first day of kindergarten. woo pee!!!

p.s. has anyone ever been to kelseyville?


May 11, 2004
this time last year, bri and i were gettin ready to head to vegas. this year... nada. =T we got old real fast. =P

anyhoo. i just wasted 25 precious study minutes trying to catch up on email. whuteva. i dont mind so much. =P but really wish me luck. =) it's my last final! YEY!


05.06.04
okay. last final this week. last final i really actually have to study for. wish me luck folks. ((tuan, thanks for the text ;) you always bring me luck))

in other news, my family thought that my car was stolen when they found me sleeping in my bed and couldnt find my car. i showed them where i parked, and they told me that they thought it was a different car because it was covered in dust and dirt and everything else our beautiful weather has decided to dump on it. haha. it's actually pretty funny. poor adam. he's all gray and brown. mommy will give him a nice bath tomorrow evening. =)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EMILIO!!! i didnt forget. i just forgot to greet you. =P damn you're old! but no worries. ERIK IS OLDER!!!!!


May 6, 2004
a face from the past has re-entered my daily life. not that he ever was extremely significant. but it's those people that were only blips in your past that seem to be able to make such a drastic change in your life. take mark for example. a blip from high school that hardly ever rendered any negative feelings, and upon his re-entrance in my life as of a couple of years ago, became a source of so much energy. this blip, hopefully wont turn like others have. he was always a source of positive energy, and hopefully this time we can keep it platonic. in any case, he's a baby. i wouldnt go out like that.

2 finals down. 2 to go. last night i was online researching alliant university. and this morning as i took my 370 final i thought about going to a vocational school. i wonder if there's a shortcut to med school. i wonder. because really, i'm done with universities.

hopefully this summer i'll find that drive to really get out there and start making something out of myself. highly doubtful. but i can say i'll try. i've always been a visionist, not an activist. i could plan and plan and plan. but when it comes down to it, you know i'll be the sloth that i am and sit there and do nothing. =P

i called edwin last night. on a mission to try and bridge ties with people from the past. he was the first and last that i called. i didnt have the balls or the energy to call anyone else. maybe i should just delete all my numbers and pretend that nobody cares.

but even then, when i really DO try... the only people i ever call are guys from the past. i woulda called dwin. then nemo. then some other random ex boyfriend or fling from the past. i woulda stopped there. because i suck at dealing with awkwardness.

there's a really cute punk/emo kid sitting across from me in the lab. i cant help but flash him gazes. his name is daniel (so says his id that he casually left in plain sight). but he's probably gay. which would probably be better.

in any case, i JUST signed on to aim. and IN ORDER. guess who IMs me. dwin. nemo. and then james. nice.


May 5, 2004
it's finals week again. see. the thing is... i've known that finals were coming up for so long. and i've known that my stats final was the one thing that would have held me back from getting an A (i know, FINALLY!) in the course, but i STILL didnt go to class. still didnt study enough. still didnt do anything to change the outcome. that was a tough final. he changed the whole thing. what an effer. but i'm still gonna ask if he wants me to TA for him next semester. =P so i have two finals tomorrow. the harder ones. and i just started studying right now. well... not RIGHT NOW. cuz i'm still online. but you know what i mean. right? =P poop on you.

anyhoo... plans have been falling through left and right lately. so we'll see what happens. i'm terrified of summer and the upcoming semester (well, not really UPCOMING... but as in NEXT semester). i'll have so much time. but we'll see how it pans out. no use of worrying about stupid shit now when i have much more important things to worry about.

bleh. remind me to get gas on my way up to mira mesa tonight. i'm runnin on fumes as of 10miles ago.

i think the brown duck and the mallard broke up. the mallard was seen with three other mallards the other day and the brown duck was spotted alone. =( what happened? they used to be so happy!


May 4, 2004
would you like a quick update? i think you would. so here are some cliffs notes to my existence.

ESTEE LAUDER BEAUTY SCHOOL was last week in mission viejo. basically, they paid me to drive up to a mall, shop, eat, and teach me stuff. not boring stuff. so i got paid to eat at Rubys. got paid to walk around one of my favorite malls. and got paid to hang out with work buddies. =) it was good.

WELCOME KAPPA KRYPTONITES TO THE SISTERHOOD!! their formals was this past saturday. and it was a DOOOOOZY! the after party was the lamest we've ever thrown, but it was all good. the formals itself was awesome. and i was elected for next year's fundraising chair as well as secretary. busy busy busy!!! i was also voted "Most Dedicated, Philanthropy." and received the "wipe that shit off your face" award. tee hee. it was fun.

WORK is better. All of our visits are over. and i've shown my leadership skills to the higher ups of both estee lauder and robinsons may. word is that i'm up for a counter manager position because of the way i had to take charge of my counter while the boss was away. the boss's boss's boss had nothing but good things to say about how well i managed the counter in the absence of management. =) gotta love that. which means i get another raise. woopee!

LIL SISs have been poppin up everywhere. I talked to my first ever lil sis Cheryl (see spring '02) at the after party. (re-cap: she depledged cuz she found out she was preggers) her lil girl is so adorable! i'm planning to get in contact with her soon so that we can hang out more. And last lil sis Marissa and I are having lunch tomorrow. i'm glad that the two lil siss that i had a genuine bond with still would like to have me in their lives. i miss them, but moreso i miss the relationship we had when they were around.

FINALS this week. i have all four. and i'm aspiring to receive 3 B's and an A. we'll see how well i do. i havent gone to class in so long that i really have a lot of studying to do. but we'll see. i'll try to keep you updated as well as possible.

BRIAN and I are doing very well. as always. i couldnt ask for more. and i know that we can finally have more time together over the summer. no complaints here.

and that's the jist of it all. i'm still broke. still need a car wash. still fat. not much has changed. just more make up and more sister time. i'm getting better with friend/sister/bri/work/study time. dont know what else to tell you.

erik, we still have to talk. call me and let me know when you're comin down. =)

HAPPY MAY FOLKS!!!