November 30, 2006
last day of November. last day before the last month of the year. in THIRTY ONE days, it will be 2007. And i'm still writing 2003 on most things. yikes. mar is way behind on the times, to say the least.

a lot of growth has happened this year. some for the better, some for the... well... not better. but change, nonetheless. and we all know that i've always been an advocate for change. at laest the things that i wanted to maintain have stayed in the most part intact. which is awesome. i can always ask for more.. but if i'm happy with what i've got... then why bother? the more i ask for, the more i have to worry about.

today i saw warren. *SWOON!!!!* he found his way back to my store. YAY!!! and he's lookin as hot as he always has. and he gave me his card. told me to call him. i wont... ofcourse. but good to know that mar still has her mojo despite the sweat and goo all over my arms and face. everyone loves a Mar-ista!


November 29, 2006
I've had a poopy day. but a quick visit to my Big Bro's page and a quick video of a welsh corgi puppy made life much better.

other than that... thanksgiving was WONDERFUL!!! My wonderful, loving, teddy bear of a man surprised me on Wednesday night at 2am by yelling outside of my window. he had all of his shifts covered for the weekend, drove all night after a full shift and class, and stayed with me til monday morning. it was the best thing i could have received for the holidays. hopefully christmas and new years will bring the same surprise, but i'm not holding my breath. that was enough for me, because of the effort and thought that was put into it. the only other thing i could wish for is if he spent the holiday with my family. but he had his own family to spend it with.

which is another thing we're gonna have to work out eventually. he's got his family, and i've got mine (well DUR)... but festivities are similar with both households, where holidays are FULL ON gatherings and there's never anyone missing. SO we're gonna have to figure out a compromise to see what's gonna happen with our families and the holidays. cheers to compromise! it's been my luck that the past few boyfriends that they've always been able to accomodate my family stuff. (they celebrated on christmas eve, thanksgiving lunch, etc) oh well. just another step towards the M-word, eh?

in any case... i think my big move will be in march. it's been something i've been fighting, but it makes the most sense. which sucks.


November 6, 2006
at this point, this is the only thing that's been able to keep me sane for the moment. it's been a nutty day... to say the least.

Arizona was GREAT... in case you were wondering. We clocked in a lot of quality time together, and not so quality time together. but time together, nonetheless. and at this oint, i'll take what can.

so. aside from almost dying in a plane crash and having someone try to run me off the road on my way to work... where should i start? how about the lack of sleep? yes. going on just a shade under a couple of hours of rest from the past weekend. then factor in that i've been on my feet since 4am when i started work (translate to waking up at 3am after arriving in san diego at 11pm from the previous night). UGH. it's 9:35pm right now and i'm STILL at work. my only break today has been the 20 minutes i spent on my couch trying to muscle down a plate of food in my living room. my break during my starbucks shift was spent training one of the girls how to divide tips. my break from the hotel was spent trying to round up bottles of bleach from neighboring starbucks so that i could properly scrub my store tomorrow night.

so needless to say... i'm grumpy, i'm tired. please. don't. fuck. with. me. and these stupid, needy, irritating people are really starting to get under my skin. if it weren't for the nice ones, i'd scream my lungs out and attack someone.

yeap. mar has gone psycho.

see... things always come around full circle, don't they?