September 28, 2004
needless to say... i've been BUSY!!! same stuff goin on tho. sorority. work. sorority. and class. i've had access to a computer, but i've been soooo busy working on papers or manuals or studying or rosters to even go online. the only time i really have is at 3 in the morning. but by then, i'm so tired because i have to start my day over at 6am.

But would you like a recap? and like i said... you have my number, so dont hesitate to call... or whatever.

I started smoking. and have been trying to quit. blame it on a group of gay guys i've been hanging out with. They're GREAT friends, super fun, and HELLA funny to go out with... but the smoking thing... eh... and i finally succumbed to the cravings. i dont smoke often. every other day or so i'll maybe smoke one. but i keep a pack with me just in case. but i'm trying to quit. kinda. and it's a gross habit. i stink afterwards. and its making me really wrinkly, pimply, and ugly. but it does good for the stress.

i picked up another lil sis. been hanging out with my lil sis from last semester. i'll say more when i have a chance. =)

i went to a SUPER GAY club. that was an experience.

other than that... i'm too tired to remember. i've been averaging 3 hours of sleep a night. not really fun. until yesterday, i completely forgot that my birthday is on friday. but i have obligations that day. but then again, when have i ever celebrated my birthday on the actual day? hm. i'll celebrate during christmas. or something. =P

yey! James got pinned. for Delta Sigma Pi. now he has to stop buggin me about my "gang." and Les(bo)ter got pinned by Betas. hooray! another one of my kin!! (actually, the ONLY one) so i'm excited. cuz greek life is GREAT!!!

ilybinilwy. but i really have to go. i'm LATE!!!


September 13, 2004
it's been a CRAZY couple of weeks. with gift, rush, classes, and work in full swing, it's hard to get in a minute for myself. or anyone else, for that matter. the most i've seen brian these past two weeks were a couple of hours for lunch. how sad. oh well. at least the bond is still there.

in other news.... ZETA CLASS is ALL 21!!! hooray! we initiated the baby of our class last night with the traditional blow job. which took her all of 45 minutes to down! haha! it's okay PC! i love ya!


September 2, 2004
my family is leaving for fresno in about an hour. without me. because of work and school i wont be able to go. i know it's a sad reason. work and school should understand. but they dont.

take yesterday as an example. i came to work 20 minutes late because i didnt sleep well the night before. for obvious reasons. ofcourse i get busted. and even though i'm not my usual self, everyone thinks that i just had another alcohol filled night. yeah. okay. because after a night of drinking, my eyes are puffy and red and i start to cry every half hour or so. yeah. sounds about right, eh? so i ask my manager if i could leave early because of the circumstance. and i get an "are you sure you cant make it for the rest of the day?" no, idiot. i fucking cant. then my other manager arrives and i let her know what's going on. and she starts complaining about her belly and starts telling me about how she deals with her family. shit i dont want to fucking hear. i just want to get the fuck out of there and be away from everyone. but i still get reprimanded for being "too emotional" about it. a fucking family member DIED. how the FUCK am i supposed to fucking deal with it? leave it at home and hope it doesnt cross my mind all fucking day and smile as if nothing has happened? i dont fucking think so. i could fucking care less about sales, because honestly, i'm just there for the money.

ugh. and i want to go to fresno. but i wont be able to. and this is yet another reason why i'll be banished to hell.