September 22, 2006
these days it feels like everyone else has moved on with their lives. or are too busy to deal with me and mine. or something.

my once closest friends are gone. they all have their busy lives to deal with, and i have my own to manage. the ones that i loved have moved on to other (maybe not so greener) pastures and then on to greener ones. and so have I. the loves of my life have begun to evolve, leaving me in the past, and just as another mark and spirit in the history of the sorority.

what i have left is what i have scraped to save, and those who have attempted to float with me. meaning: brian, ha, joann, and pane. i don't know where the rest of my lifelines went. i just know they disappeared. a phone call away, maybe,... but i'm not that courageous.

i can't complain. i love the people i work with. and through work, i've been able to really strengthen those friendships. my new sister-in-law works with me, so we've become really close... which is good... cuz she's family now. and all of my jobs keep me busy enough to not have time to really worry about anything else.

just save. make ends meet. and get my butt outta here pronto.

which is just the thing i'm dreading, and excitedly anticipating at the same time. i don't want to leave. but i know i can. and i know i must.

everything has changed. can you feel it? please call me. i miss your voice.


September 18, 2006
so mar has THREE jobs now. can you believe that shit?!?! I can't either. and how i'm gonna have time for it all? .... there's PLENTY of time in the day for 2 fulltime jobs and one part time! you just have to learn not to depend on sleep! and we all know that mar is used to that, isn't she?

you're lookin at the new Front desk girl at the holiday inn. Wunna my sisters needed to fill positions, so i stepped up for extra cash for the next few months. the pay kinda sucks, but whatever. it's a job for now. i need to really save up if i'm moving out, for real.

any how, exactly, do i plan to pull this off?!?! Well... at starbucks, i'm the designated opener. SOOOOO... the latest i will ever be on shift is at 1230 in the afternoon. all my shifts start bright and early at 4am, YAY! and at Holiday Inn, I am a designated evening staffer. my shifts are 230-11pm. and at Lauder, I only work weekends, about 3 weekends a month or less. i've calculated it... there's PLENTY of time to sleep!

and i wish i could tell you more about it, but i've gotta sleep so i can watch my padres!


September 10, 2006
since my baby brother has finally decided to take his academic career seriously, i'll make this short and sweet...

*i'm having lunch tomorrow with China. wish me luck? for what? i'm not so sure. i just want to see him. and i still don't understand why.
*pane will be in phoenix tomorrow checkin out our apartment. yay.
*the Padres just DEMOLISHED the giants in the 9th inning! yay. so now we're just 2 games behind the dodgers and in first for the wild card spot. GO PADRES!!!!
*i got hired at the Holiday Inn. come visit me. yay! now i have THREE jobs!
*my closest friend right now is a 17yr old Hmong girl that's completely insane. but i love her.
*my sister just got engaged in the dominican republic. i miss you maria!
*I need to update pictures from Fresno and Yosemite. that drive was AMAZING! i never imagined that i could actually enjoy 4 days in a car with my family.

aside from that... things seem to be peachy keen. =) how's life on your end? i lost all of my phone numbers, but please call me!!! i'd love to hear what's going on in your life. and i'm SERIOUS about that!


September 9, 2006
Dear Jer.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATH BUDDY!!!! I'd give you a call... but my phone died and reset to it's original settings. so i've lost all of my numbers. =( HOpe you enjoy your 24th year in this world of ours. =)

in other news... i've been corresponding with China for the past couple of days via email. We're planning to meet up before his deployment on wednesday. =T Kinda hesitating 'cuz of Pane. Kinda not because China is hot, and he would get a kick out of seeing me again. (let's hope) I guess we'll see what happens on monday. =)

and the whole brian thing.... is still a THING. an issue. whatever you want to call it. it just IS.

and today i got hired at the Holiday Inn. how exciting! i'll be holding down THREE jobs! go mar!